Having my break now... From PW tat is.. Feeling bloated.. Was talking to Rach just now... Talking abt the MUDPIE thingy... I think I'm going nuts abt it...
Jo: Fri wasn't a date.. Just went out with some pple... And we should go out again more often so tat we'll see more 'weird' ppl... Remember that polk-a-dots lady?
Anyway, last night my aunt came over. Buka at my place.. Right now we are thinking where on earth we should go during the hols.. I mean, if we were to go States, I need to make a passport... Cuz mine is the old one and the new feature has that thumbprint & eye id thingy... Leceh lah..
So then we planned to go
1) Turkey
2) South Africa
3) Swiss
Which one? I don't know...
I'm stuck... Don't know where to go...
If I were to go to SA, then I'm still able to get my Levis & Clinique... And if i were to Turkey, there's good scenery... Good stuff which I don't necessary like those amazing artefacts.... Like I said, stuff that I don't need...
My sis asked whether we could go to Paris but I told her that I've been there.... Then she said 'But I've not been there!!'
Asked my Aunt whether we could go Copenhagen.... Nice place that doesn't use EUROs but she told me that the standard of living is very EXPENSIVE.... Now with the whole Euro thingy, I really don't know where to go during the hols...BUNTU!!!!!!!
Ok... Lets think short run.... Where there is only one factor... Ok... now I'm talking ECONS....
What is happening to me? Nutz.........
Listening to 'That thing U Do'... Fadhil's playing it on the comp...... Remind me abt Band... the first song that I've conducted... Amazing huh? My fav part is that duo part... At the middle.....
Hey I'm not writing right... Better go before things get out of hand.... Toddles....
Monday, October 25, 2004
Angel
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it ok
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless
And maybe I'll find some peace tonight
(Chorus)
In the arms of the angel
Far away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness
Oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
(Chorus)
In the arms of the angel
Far away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
For that second chance
For a break that would make it ok
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless
And maybe I'll find some peace tonight
(Chorus)
In the arms of the angel
Far away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness
Oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
(Chorus)
In the arms of the angel
Far away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Feeling super nostalgic
Honestly
I'm in my nostalgic mode right now..
Y? Well yesterday I drove to AMK... Amazing huh how fast time past by.. Back then I used to be there... ALOT.. AMK Ave 4 was like my second home.. I was younger then...I've been going there since I was born.. And now I'm driving. Went to sent my grand-dad & sis over cuz my mom, dad & me went to JB.. No I didn't drive in JB.. Wouldn't dare....
My mom said my driving was bad last night.. I guess cuz of exams... Hadn't been driving for abt 3 wks... Didn't sit at the driver's seat for ages....
Fri, well I went to NYDC cafe... Gosh the MUDPIE was sinister...Horribly good... Got a treat.... From someone.... Thanks alot for Friday..
After NYDC, walked to the ESPLANADE.. I mean after that meal.. Need that walking... Anyway, there was supposed to be a show on Friday but becuz of the rain, it was cancelled...
Found some place that was good.... And the view was great. The skyscrapers were good but then the cloudy whether spoilt it... And I forgot to bring my cam that night.. Was rushing like mad but it turned out that some ppl who told me not to 'gelek-gelek' was the one who were late.
My exams over though... But PW's killing me.. Making me nuts... Super Nutz...
A couple of days ago I was chatting with Salid, Fariz, Sab & Mary.. Abt bikes & cars & licence... Fariz was talking abt getting a vespa I we all told him not to cuz he's tall... He's gonna look super kaku if he rides one.... Dah lah kudut nak naik Vespa... Funny... Funny... Salid on the other hand was talking about his vehicle cycle.. Weird fella... He was talking about getting a bike... After he gets a licence.. Then buys a bike... He was talking about before marriage, he's gonna buy bike lah.. Then he said that when he's married, he'll buy a car lah... All that... I listened to him... And when I told him that I'm not into guys riding bikes.. Just don't catch my attention... Then he said that I'm the type who goes for guys who's in the higher end... Monkey... I mean, I keep telling him that its safer to drive a car rather then a bike... After that whole conversation, I was wondering what will Mun think abt Salid's 'incredible' idea....
The entry before this was a poem that I wrote last night. Just felt like writing... Wouldn't wanna lose touch of writing...
This year, I might be going back to States for my hols.. No I'm not gonna drive... I might leave on the 10th Dec. It depend on my aunt where she wants to bring us... Maybe LA or Orlando... Whatever it is, I've got this whole shopping list.. And I'm gonna spend NEW YEAR on board the plane... Like it was for the couple of years ago...
Things to get when I'm in States
1) 2 LEVIS jeans
2) Vans shoes
3) Clinique stuff
4) That CD bag that I've been eyeing on
5) Loads of Hershey's chocs for my friends
6) Victoria Secrets ( girls stuff )
I'm in my nostalgic mode right now..
Y? Well yesterday I drove to AMK... Amazing huh how fast time past by.. Back then I used to be there... ALOT.. AMK Ave 4 was like my second home.. I was younger then...I've been going there since I was born.. And now I'm driving. Went to sent my grand-dad & sis over cuz my mom, dad & me went to JB.. No I didn't drive in JB.. Wouldn't dare....
My mom said my driving was bad last night.. I guess cuz of exams... Hadn't been driving for abt 3 wks... Didn't sit at the driver's seat for ages....
Fri, well I went to NYDC cafe... Gosh the MUDPIE was sinister...Horribly good... Got a treat.... From someone.... Thanks alot for Friday..
After NYDC, walked to the ESPLANADE.. I mean after that meal.. Need that walking... Anyway, there was supposed to be a show on Friday but becuz of the rain, it was cancelled...
Found some place that was good.... And the view was great. The skyscrapers were good but then the cloudy whether spoilt it... And I forgot to bring my cam that night.. Was rushing like mad but it turned out that some ppl who told me not to 'gelek-gelek' was the one who were late.
My exams over though... But PW's killing me.. Making me nuts... Super Nutz...
A couple of days ago I was chatting with Salid, Fariz, Sab & Mary.. Abt bikes & cars & licence... Fariz was talking abt getting a vespa I we all told him not to cuz he's tall... He's gonna look super kaku if he rides one.... Dah lah kudut nak naik Vespa... Funny... Funny... Salid on the other hand was talking about his vehicle cycle.. Weird fella... He was talking about getting a bike... After he gets a licence.. Then buys a bike... He was talking about before marriage, he's gonna buy bike lah.. Then he said that when he's married, he'll buy a car lah... All that... I listened to him... And when I told him that I'm not into guys riding bikes.. Just don't catch my attention... Then he said that I'm the type who goes for guys who's in the higher end... Monkey... I mean, I keep telling him that its safer to drive a car rather then a bike... After that whole conversation, I was wondering what will Mun think abt Salid's 'incredible' idea....
The entry before this was a poem that I wrote last night. Just felt like writing... Wouldn't wanna lose touch of writing...
This year, I might be going back to States for my hols.. No I'm not gonna drive... I might leave on the 10th Dec. It depend on my aunt where she wants to bring us... Maybe LA or Orlando... Whatever it is, I've got this whole shopping list.. And I'm gonna spend NEW YEAR on board the plane... Like it was for the couple of years ago...
Things to get when I'm in States
1) 2 LEVIS jeans
2) Vans shoes
3) Clinique stuff
4) That CD bag that I've been eyeing on
5) Loads of Hershey's chocs for my friends
6) Victoria Secrets ( girls stuff )
Cold Nite
All Through The Night
Looing out through the window tonight
Neither the stars shining bright
Nor the handsome moon
Guiding me through the night
Only with the rain splattering through the window pane
And the cold wind blowing at my face
I could feel the pain
Of lonelyness
Wondering how the cold night
Could turn against me
How that feeling of 'CLOUD 9'
Was not to be
Longing & yearning for that special someone
who will one day
Hold me tight
All through the night
Looing out through the window tonight
Neither the stars shining bright
Nor the handsome moon
Guiding me through the night
Only with the rain splattering through the window pane
And the cold wind blowing at my face
I could feel the pain
Of lonelyness
Wondering how the cold night
Could turn against me
How that feeling of 'CLOUD 9'
Was not to be
Longing & yearning for that special someone
who will one day
Hold me tight
All through the night
Friday, October 22, 2004
Tonight's da nite
Hey yah...
What were ya thinkin? Yes I'm still stuck with PW... Its like an OD of it.. Honestly... But thank god I'm going out tonight... Cafe NYDC here I come.. With that mudpie.... Yummy.....
Last night.. there's IDOLS, followed by NCIS & then it was OC... What a show slot... Couldn't ask for anything better....
Idol last night was not to my expectations.... Honestly speaking, the only ppl who I can see have that powerful voice are Taufik & Olinda... Trust me, if they were properly groomed, Taufik can easily sing Frank Sinatra and Olinda can sing any Barbara Streisand song.... Daphane, well wrong choice of song... Its not easy to sing Christina's songs. You must have that strong vocals to sing like her... As for Maia, I still find her a slut... Her Bitchy character still bugs me & that's why I never wanted her to be my Singapore Idol. Nak gelek konon. Pegi dah... Budak2 tarian can do it way better then u lah.. Tak yah tunggu Shakira joget. Ni budak2 tarian can shake your asses off lah... Hey bitch, pegi main jauh-jauh!
That Chris guy, I think that he sings without any feelings..Its like singing at a karaoke longe,like those apek2 singing...
I know that I'm being crude but its true... These ppl are like speaking. Nothing else. And I feel that there are other better ppl out there for ppl like Ken, Dick, Florence & Douglas to hunt for that SINGAPORE IDOL.
From my knowledge of music, none of them can be my Singapore Idol... None!!!!!!!!!
None of the Idols caught my attention.. None blew me away...
I really don't know why the heck they didn't vote for Nana, as in Nurhasanah.. That girl is wonderful... Wonder where did Singaporeans put their ears while she was singing.. Ask her to sing Whitney Houstan song, I'll tell ya tat she'll be able to sing it WONDERFULLY.....
I know, I know! I'm dissing those ppl in IDOLS...... But as a Singaporean, I feel that I do have the rights to choose who to be MY Idol... And if they are not performing to my expectations, then, say good-bye to ya...
What were ya thinkin? Yes I'm still stuck with PW... Its like an OD of it.. Honestly... But thank god I'm going out tonight... Cafe NYDC here I come.. With that mudpie.... Yummy.....
Last night.. there's IDOLS, followed by NCIS & then it was OC... What a show slot... Couldn't ask for anything better....
Idol last night was not to my expectations.... Honestly speaking, the only ppl who I can see have that powerful voice are Taufik & Olinda... Trust me, if they were properly groomed, Taufik can easily sing Frank Sinatra and Olinda can sing any Barbara Streisand song.... Daphane, well wrong choice of song... Its not easy to sing Christina's songs. You must have that strong vocals to sing like her... As for Maia, I still find her a slut... Her Bitchy character still bugs me & that's why I never wanted her to be my Singapore Idol. Nak gelek konon. Pegi dah... Budak2 tarian can do it way better then u lah.. Tak yah tunggu Shakira joget. Ni budak2 tarian can shake your asses off lah... Hey bitch, pegi main jauh-jauh!
That Chris guy, I think that he sings without any feelings..Its like singing at a karaoke longe,like those apek2 singing...
I know that I'm being crude but its true... These ppl are like speaking. Nothing else. And I feel that there are other better ppl out there for ppl like Ken, Dick, Florence & Douglas to hunt for that SINGAPORE IDOL.
From my knowledge of music, none of them can be my Singapore Idol... None!!!!!!!!!
None of the Idols caught my attention.. None blew me away...
I really don't know why the heck they didn't vote for Nana, as in Nurhasanah.. That girl is wonderful... Wonder where did Singaporeans put their ears while she was singing.. Ask her to sing Whitney Houstan song, I'll tell ya tat she'll be able to sing it WONDERFULLY.....
I know, I know! I'm dissing those ppl in IDOLS...... But as a Singaporean, I feel that I do have the rights to choose who to be MY Idol... And if they are not performing to my expectations, then, say good-bye to ya...
Monday, October 18, 2004
PW rite now....
Hey
Wat am I having now...PW... The main thingy from PW.... Our report is nice...... Saw the pink form... Got positive feedback from them......
My whole weekend was wasted dazing.... I don't know why but I just stared at the TV set... I guess I needed that dazing session.... And now I've got this itch to go out.... I don't know..... Been DEPRIEVED from going out for a while cuz of the exams....
Started fasting already... Since Friday... Right now its Break time from the PW stuff... I don't feel like comming to school today but becuz of the PW... Argh!!! I think I might not come to school on Wed or Thurs... Its the normal timetable... Its gonna be boring....
I'm back
Been stuck in front of the comp since god knows when...
Waititng for Sean to come back.... Boring.... JT sleeping already... Its 3.20 now.. Going home at 4pm....
Tomorrow, going for MUDPIE...... hehehehe!!!
Wat am I having now...PW... The main thingy from PW.... Our report is nice...... Saw the pink form... Got positive feedback from them......
My whole weekend was wasted dazing.... I don't know why but I just stared at the TV set... I guess I needed that dazing session.... And now I've got this itch to go out.... I don't know..... Been DEPRIEVED from going out for a while cuz of the exams....
Started fasting already... Since Friday... Right now its Break time from the PW stuff... I don't feel like comming to school today but becuz of the PW... Argh!!! I think I might not come to school on Wed or Thurs... Its the normal timetable... Its gonna be boring....
I'm back
Been stuck in front of the comp since god knows when...
Waititng for Sean to come back.... Boring.... JT sleeping already... Its 3.20 now.. Going home at 4pm....
Tomorrow, going for MUDPIE...... hehehehe!!!
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Thosai
ECONS ESSAY IS FINALLY OVER
Hunny.... Its over.......
My paper today was not that bad... I guess last night's mugging at the library really paid off.... I think I really went to the max lasty night cuz by 11pm, I was super tired.... After getting the advise from Hezwan last night, I finally slept...
I guess I was so put to the max that I didn't even know why the heck I told him... All I can remember was that I told him that EXAM'S A BITCH & he laughed.. He told me to rest cuz I need it badly...
At first I told him that I gotta study but then the moment I rested my eyes for that essential break, I guess I was too tired that I kinda dozed off for a while.... I then msged him back to say that I'm heeding his advice & I'm gonna sleep.
This mrng I woke up at 7.50am.. Took my shower & ate my nasi goreng... With keropok that is... Imagine with the bits & pieces of em on top of them.... Yummy.... And I was reading my INFLATION notes at the same time.... So I was happily eating my food...... And at 9.30am, I left for school....
Talking about school, I don't need to go to sch tomorrow & thursday.... Cuz I've got no paper... So happy..... .. Can sleep & study at my own pace... Friday's my Accounts & Mgt paper 2.... Wish me good luck.....
To Jo & Noryn, thx for the taggy msg....
To Wan, thanks for understanding about what I wrote......
Others, PLS PLS PLS PLS leave me a msg when u're blog-hopping...
Toodles...
Monday, October 11, 2004
can't write
I'm back... I'm kinda dazed rite now... I just had my mgt paper... There was this case study question which was 16 marks.... It could damned be an essay question... 16 ok... And it was asking about the 4 P's in marketing.... Wrote 3 1/4 page of it... Guess how many papers I used... 10 in total... I know... That's y I can't write now... Someone pls massage this aching hands of mine......
What did I do over the weekends? Uhmm.... Sat was GP paper... So the mrng was burnt.. Later went for lunch... Then got home... I then went home to change & get my mgt stuff for tuition at Ms Gan's house.... It ended at around 6.30pm.. By the time I walked to the bus-stop, it was already 7.30 or so.... I was too beat to do anything... I thought of meeting Wan to pass me the cd... But then, hey its last minute... I guess he'll be at B's that night... Very far from where I was.... And on top of that, I was totally beat....
When I got home, I ate dinner.... And by 10pm, I dozed off.. Too tired.....
The next mrng I woke up at ard 8.30 am... I relaxed for a while and after watching 7 Heaven, I was cleaning up my room.. Gosh!!! It looked bad!! With my files, notes & bags all over... Argh!! Anyway, I've cleaned it up already...
After lunch I was like a couch potato... I don't know what's wrong with me now... Been eating alot.. Rach said that I've been eating alot therefore increasing the consumption of food........
Hey, I suddenly got this itch to study for Econs right now... I know its weird but its the whole thing.. STRESS.... Feel like eating ice-cream too....
Toddles...
What did I do over the weekends? Uhmm.... Sat was GP paper... So the mrng was burnt.. Later went for lunch... Then got home... I then went home to change & get my mgt stuff for tuition at Ms Gan's house.... It ended at around 6.30pm.. By the time I walked to the bus-stop, it was already 7.30 or so.... I was too beat to do anything... I thought of meeting Wan to pass me the cd... But then, hey its last minute... I guess he'll be at B's that night... Very far from where I was.... And on top of that, I was totally beat....
When I got home, I ate dinner.... And by 10pm, I dozed off.. Too tired.....
The next mrng I woke up at ard 8.30 am... I relaxed for a while and after watching 7 Heaven, I was cleaning up my room.. Gosh!!! It looked bad!! With my files, notes & bags all over... Argh!! Anyway, I've cleaned it up already...
After lunch I was like a couch potato... I don't know what's wrong with me now... Been eating alot.. Rach said that I've been eating alot therefore increasing the consumption of food........
Hey, I suddenly got this itch to study for Econs right now... I know its weird but its the whole thing.. STRESS.... Feel like eating ice-cream too....
Toddles...
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Accounts paper on Friday...
Hey...
Hey...
Hey...
I don't know what i'm gonna write... Last night .... Well I've gotten into a pretty bad shape... Something happened... Thanks Hezwan for lending me ur listening ear... I was really in a bad shape....
Its funny though.... Of all people.... Hezwan... Considering the fact that I was once attached to him & we were on a topic of love.... I guess I knew too well that he's the open minded type..... That's y I poured it all out last night... And I felt kinda bad for not telling him about it before we both were ever attached.... Geez.... Like he said, THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON. That there is a reason for everything that happened.....
Its kinda weird though that when we were talking, he told me that we were in the same boat except that we both are in different cabins.... I mean, he was there trying to help me to be level headed.... And tried ways to distract me from thinking of my problem..... All I have to say is THANKS a LOT......
Hey ppl who's been reading his blog... Well, all I have to say is that he's a nice guy.... At first, back then I mean, well I thought that he's a very funny crappy guy..... Superficially. I guess over the years, things have made him very matured. He knows when to be serious & when to be funny.... BG, even though I've known u for like years now, I guess last night was the time I gotta know abt the real U.... The serious fella who knows abt life...
He told me a story about his friend's freaky incident... Ya lah.. In a way he's trying to make me see things clearer.... And I appreciate that... But as the saying goes... it's easier said then gone.....
Hey I think I better stop talking abt what happened last night... It should be a time for me to sit & think.. And reflect.....
BG: Abt the cd... pls pls pls pls pls hold on to it for a little while... I'm currently busy with school stuff... And I'm still figuring abt the parking thingy.... Been using my pencil to figure it out today... My frens were asking me why on earth I'm playing with my pencils.... And I kept telling em that I'm learning how to park... Hey... I owe u a cruise right? U'll have to wait...... Maybe on my 21st b'dae ........ Well see how....
Nor: I didn't call u last night cuz I know I would be disturbing u while u were tutoring ur kuzin... No hard feelings k...
Hani: Hani!!! Hani Bunny.... Of course I remember u.... How r u doing there girl? As u can see, Cam & I r in the same school but in diff campuses.... Met Zi a couple of times at Tamp.... I don't knoe abt Diresh though....... Hey I can never forget the first 3 mths... Best time of my life.... Of school that is... U sleep in class... Skip class... Loads of stuff huh.... Do drop in more often k....
Jo: What do think of it? Still wanna go on with that IDEA of mine? Pls don't shoot me with ur arrows.... I know lah that u're one terer archarer..... And I like ur respond to it.... A HUGE LAUGH!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok.. I'm gonna hit the books now.... Catch ya later... Maybe soon.....
ToodleS
Hey...
Hey...
I don't know what i'm gonna write... Last night .... Well I've gotten into a pretty bad shape... Something happened... Thanks Hezwan for lending me ur listening ear... I was really in a bad shape....
Its funny though.... Of all people.... Hezwan... Considering the fact that I was once attached to him & we were on a topic of love.... I guess I knew too well that he's the open minded type..... That's y I poured it all out last night... And I felt kinda bad for not telling him about it before we both were ever attached.... Geez.... Like he said, THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON. That there is a reason for everything that happened.....
Its kinda weird though that when we were talking, he told me that we were in the same boat except that we both are in different cabins.... I mean, he was there trying to help me to be level headed.... And tried ways to distract me from thinking of my problem..... All I have to say is THANKS a LOT......
Hey ppl who's been reading his blog... Well, all I have to say is that he's a nice guy.... At first, back then I mean, well I thought that he's a very funny crappy guy..... Superficially. I guess over the years, things have made him very matured. He knows when to be serious & when to be funny.... BG, even though I've known u for like years now, I guess last night was the time I gotta know abt the real U.... The serious fella who knows abt life...
He told me a story about his friend's freaky incident... Ya lah.. In a way he's trying to make me see things clearer.... And I appreciate that... But as the saying goes... it's easier said then gone.....
Hey I think I better stop talking abt what happened last night... It should be a time for me to sit & think.. And reflect.....
BG: Abt the cd... pls pls pls pls pls hold on to it for a little while... I'm currently busy with school stuff... And I'm still figuring abt the parking thingy.... Been using my pencil to figure it out today... My frens were asking me why on earth I'm playing with my pencils.... And I kept telling em that I'm learning how to park... Hey... I owe u a cruise right? U'll have to wait...... Maybe on my 21st b'dae ........ Well see how....
Nor: I didn't call u last night cuz I know I would be disturbing u while u were tutoring ur kuzin... No hard feelings k...
Hani: Hani!!! Hani Bunny.... Of course I remember u.... How r u doing there girl? As u can see, Cam & I r in the same school but in diff campuses.... Met Zi a couple of times at Tamp.... I don't knoe abt Diresh though....... Hey I can never forget the first 3 mths... Best time of my life.... Of school that is... U sleep in class... Skip class... Loads of stuff huh.... Do drop in more often k....
Jo: What do think of it? Still wanna go on with that IDEA of mine? Pls don't shoot me with ur arrows.... I know lah that u're one terer archarer..... And I like ur respond to it.... A HUGE LAUGH!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok.. I'm gonna hit the books now.... Catch ya later... Maybe soon.....
ToodleS
Friday, October 01, 2004
It's been quite a while
Yup... I know... Its been sometime...
Right now its a Sat... In school.. I've got accounts class later at 10am...
What have I been doing lately?? Uhmmmmm............ Reading some good books & studying.... My exams are next week..... And accounts will be welcoming me to the promos....
Two days ago I read a book by James Paterson.... Well its an interesting book cuz he's an interesting author.... Yes, he's the one who wrote Kiss the Girls & Along Came A Spider. The one that I read was Sam's Letter to Jennifer..... Its a good book to destress.... Honestly, it is..
Its been a long while since I've been reading any good book... Right now, well, I think I'm getting on with my old habits... That is reading a book.. And lately, its been raining alot so my mind is always thinking of snuggling in bed with a good book...
Oh god!! I think I'm gonna get indigestion... I was reading in the car ( My dad was driving) and I think it didn't go well with breakfast... That's right..... Genius me.....
I was suppose to type a poem that I wrote . But I left it at home. Honestly, I can't remember when I ever even wrote it... I think I'm becoming a little absent-minded...
Sorry about that... I was talking to Kelly, the librarian... About some books.... Interesting though...
And my indigestion is gone..... So far so good....
Last night Nor msged me.... It reminded me alot about back then... Why does a relationship that has been smooth sailing have any hiccups??? Nothing is smooth sailing...
D, that's why the word KALEIDOSCOPE was invented.... To show the ups & downs of life... DUH!!!!
And Kak Iva, if you're reading this, tell Alif that I say Hi.... That guys is so cute..... And very nice to talk to.... I took some pics of him... Unfortunately not with him... Maybe I'll get it uploaded here.... Cute Alif........... Actually, handsome Alif, when he's older that is........
Hey I think I'll stop here...... Lesson's starting soon & my hair is in a mess.... C ya....
To0dleS...
Right now its a Sat... In school.. I've got accounts class later at 10am...
What have I been doing lately?? Uhmmmmm............ Reading some good books & studying.... My exams are next week..... And accounts will be welcoming me to the promos....
Two days ago I read a book by James Paterson.... Well its an interesting book cuz he's an interesting author.... Yes, he's the one who wrote Kiss the Girls & Along Came A Spider. The one that I read was Sam's Letter to Jennifer..... Its a good book to destress.... Honestly, it is..
Its been a long while since I've been reading any good book... Right now, well, I think I'm getting on with my old habits... That is reading a book.. And lately, its been raining alot so my mind is always thinking of snuggling in bed with a good book...
Oh god!! I think I'm gonna get indigestion... I was reading in the car ( My dad was driving) and I think it didn't go well with breakfast... That's right..... Genius me.....
I was suppose to type a poem that I wrote . But I left it at home. Honestly, I can't remember when I ever even wrote it... I think I'm becoming a little absent-minded...
Sorry about that... I was talking to Kelly, the librarian... About some books.... Interesting though...
And my indigestion is gone..... So far so good....
Last night Nor msged me.... It reminded me alot about back then... Why does a relationship that has been smooth sailing have any hiccups??? Nothing is smooth sailing...
D, that's why the word KALEIDOSCOPE was invented.... To show the ups & downs of life... DUH!!!!
And Kak Iva, if you're reading this, tell Alif that I say Hi.... That guys is so cute..... And very nice to talk to.... I took some pics of him... Unfortunately not with him... Maybe I'll get it uploaded here.... Cute Alif........... Actually, handsome Alif, when he's older that is........
Hey I think I'll stop here...... Lesson's starting soon & my hair is in a mess.... C ya....
To0dleS...
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
Freaking Monday Mrng...
Yesterday it was super FREAKY
Firstly, thanks Nor for helping me out last night.... I really needed someone to help me last night....
So here it goes.....
I was happily fiddling with my handphome last night around 11.30 pm last night.... After studying INFLATION last night, I guess my fingers were a little unattentive.... So I accidentally dialled Darwin's HP no.... Knowing from the past 9 mths experience that he wasn't using that no for ages..... So as a person knowing that, I'll just let the phone hang up on its own....
But this time it was ringing...... So I very cheeky, I used my home phone, which is a private number, to really call him...... And he picked up...... And I quickily hung up....
I know I was stupid when I was doing that..... D!!
And you knoe what, he called my hp later.... It buzzed a few secs before it went t missed call mode..... I then msg him..... Asking him who it was who called me......D's acting STUPID..... Super stupid.....
Instead of replying the msg, he called me again.....
I didn't pick the phone up........
I msged him again to ask who it was......
Never reply.....
Firstly, thanks Nor for helping me out last night.... I really needed someone to help me last night....
So here it goes.....
I was happily fiddling with my handphome last night around 11.30 pm last night.... After studying INFLATION last night, I guess my fingers were a little unattentive.... So I accidentally dialled Darwin's HP no.... Knowing from the past 9 mths experience that he wasn't using that no for ages..... So as a person knowing that, I'll just let the phone hang up on its own....
But this time it was ringing...... So I very cheeky, I used my home phone, which is a private number, to really call him...... And he picked up...... And I quickily hung up....
I know I was stupid when I was doing that..... D!!
And you knoe what, he called my hp later.... It buzzed a few secs before it went t missed call mode..... I then msg him..... Asking him who it was who called me......D's acting STUPID..... Super stupid.....
Instead of replying the msg, he called me again.....
I didn't pick the phone up........
I msged him again to ask who it was......
Never reply.....
So I called him.... I spoke in my coarse just woke up voice....... I kept saying 'hello!' & he was saying 'hello!' too..... Then he said' May I know who this is' in a firm harsh tone... And I hung up...
I really really freaked out then... with a shaky body, I called my bestfriend in the whole wide world... Noryn....
Talked to her about what happened.... And I was still shaking when I spoke to her....
Her advise to me was to call him and apologise...
God knows how I got the power to call him & I did..... Unfortunately he didn't pick up.... So I left him a msg instead.... And I went to sleep....
Honestly, I didn't know why on earth I was shaking....... And I told myself to pay attention when I scroll the phonebook in the handphone..... And when the whole thing happened, a hundred and one things were in my mind... What if that person was gonna stalk me after last night's incident... I mean, kalau dier 'antar' ke..... I'll die on the spot...... I mean, she's capable of doing such stuff & so why not these?
And I felt like telling him, " GO FUCK IN HELL" and telling her to shut the fuck up if she intrudes in our conversation.. Felt like telling her, " SHUT THE FUCK UP U BITCH! THIS DOESEN'T CONCERNS U CUZ IT HAPPENED BEFORE YOU 'CREPT' INTO THE PICTURE" Too bad I couldn't say it cuz it didn't happen....
Hey I think I gotta go... Mr Econs is calling me.... Catch ya later alligator......
TOODLES
Monday, September 27, 2004
Hmm......
Hmmm....
Right now I'm in the mists of reading my report... Or should I say, trying to get to my report.... And I've got this urge to write on my blog....
Uhmm..... Wonderin' how my weekend went.... Well Sat night, I slept till abt 2am. I guess I was too busy with my Econs date that I forgot all about the time.. And the next mrng I had to wake up about 5.30 am for that walkathon.... Stupid.....
Anyway the drive at 7am in the mrng was good... There wasn't that much cars..... Hey, my parking is getting better though..... Still asking my dad whether I could drive to school..... Unfortunately he hasn't give me the green light.....
I mean, before I got my licence, he's been bugging me to get them so that he wouldn't need to drive & look at it now.... He still wants to be with me cuz he said that I've not picked up the skills... Whatever it is, all I know is that when its my turn to get a car, I won't need to pay a high insurance fee cuz I've gotten my licence a long time ago. ( Considering the age that I gotten my licence)
I mean, if I drive a car, I'll save my transportation bills.... Can go out WITH THE CAR... Besides being the new DRIVER for the family, I can go home at a later hour... No need to catch the last train or pay the additional midnight sur-charge.... But I think the best one of all is that I would have better freedom......
People been asking me to have a 21st b'dae party... For me, its BAD idea..... Super bad... but then again I think I'll have a chalet only for my closest frens.... Thats all...
Hey...
I'm back......
This time it ain't my break.. My accounts ended at 4.3opm. It was totally mind blogging... Sahz, Tini, Amu & me were draining our brain power to the MAX!!!! Totally.... I thought of studying later but then, I'm thinking twice.... I think my accounts lesson just now had me moodless.... If that word ever existed....
As I was saying just now, my b'dae...... 21st.... I don't know... Maybe I'll have a chalet... INVITED ONES ONLY..... I know that I'm being mean but hey when ur 21, u'ld wanna spend it with your loved ones..... Not that I'ld know that I'll still be attached by then..... <*UHMMM*>
I suddenly have this urge to hit the books... I know it sounds nerdy but hey I gotta study..... By hook or by crook... Only 2 weeks till my first paper..... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!
Jo: Hey girl, I'm just writting normal stuff... Nothing special... Anyway, thanks for reading... I'm happy that ur enjoying it.... Tell Jed I'll say HI! And I've figured out what 'DOG' should I use for OP.... The balloon figurines. ( I know that U'll be thinking that D's NUTZ. I think I am though) ...... I know I'm nuts but hey, I'm gonna make it as impressive as ever..... But if I ever need a real dog, Jed's wanted..... Khekhekhekhe!!!!!!!!!!!
I think I gotta go now... My date with Mr ECONOMICS is starting soon....
Tooddles
Right now I'm in the mists of reading my report... Or should I say, trying to get to my report.... And I've got this urge to write on my blog....
Uhmm..... Wonderin' how my weekend went.... Well Sat night, I slept till abt 2am. I guess I was too busy with my Econs date that I forgot all about the time.. And the next mrng I had to wake up about 5.30 am for that walkathon.... Stupid.....
Anyway the drive at 7am in the mrng was good... There wasn't that much cars..... Hey, my parking is getting better though..... Still asking my dad whether I could drive to school..... Unfortunately he hasn't give me the green light.....
I mean, before I got my licence, he's been bugging me to get them so that he wouldn't need to drive & look at it now.... He still wants to be with me cuz he said that I've not picked up the skills... Whatever it is, all I know is that when its my turn to get a car, I won't need to pay a high insurance fee cuz I've gotten my licence a long time ago. ( Considering the age that I gotten my licence)
I mean, if I drive a car, I'll save my transportation bills.... Can go out WITH THE CAR... Besides being the new DRIVER for the family, I can go home at a later hour... No need to catch the last train or pay the additional midnight sur-charge.... But I think the best one of all is that I would have better freedom......
People been asking me to have a 21st b'dae party... For me, its BAD idea..... Super bad... but then again I think I'll have a chalet only for my closest frens.... Thats all...
Hey...
I'm back......
This time it ain't my break.. My accounts ended at 4.3opm. It was totally mind blogging... Sahz, Tini, Amu & me were draining our brain power to the MAX!!!! Totally.... I thought of studying later but then, I'm thinking twice.... I think my accounts lesson just now had me moodless.... If that word ever existed....
As I was saying just now, my b'dae...... 21st.... I don't know... Maybe I'll have a chalet... INVITED ONES ONLY..... I know that I'm being mean but hey when ur 21, u'ld wanna spend it with your loved ones..... Not that I'ld know that I'll still be attached by then..... <*UHMMM*>
I suddenly have this urge to hit the books... I know it sounds nerdy but hey I gotta study..... By hook or by crook... Only 2 weeks till my first paper..... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!
Jo: Hey girl, I'm just writting normal stuff... Nothing special... Anyway, thanks for reading... I'm happy that ur enjoying it.... Tell Jed I'll say HI! And I've figured out what 'DOG' should I use for OP.... The balloon figurines. ( I know that U'll be thinking that D's NUTZ. I think I am though) ...... I know I'm nuts but hey, I'm gonna make it as impressive as ever..... But if I ever need a real dog, Jed's wanted..... Khekhekhekhe!!!!!!!!!!!
I think I gotta go now... My date with Mr ECONOMICS is starting soon....
Tooddles
Friday, September 24, 2004
Peeps here....
Dr
Cr
I just finished my accounts....
Kinda boring now... With Salid, Soli, Azar & Suhuf..... I'm listening to them talking.... You gotta imagine..... IMAGINE..........
Ok... They are going off now... Ok now......... Better......
I'm kinda blur on what to write... Yes, D's blank.... I guess the migraine is getting on me........
Tomorrow, well i'm gonna study... Oh yah, msg Wan.... Ask him if he's free tomorrow.... To pass me the disc...
Uhmmmm.......... What else, oh, ya, go to the pet restaurant... And finish up up the roll.. I guess I've not been taking pics for some while....
K, I think I'm super dry right now.... Can't write..... Catch ya soon..................
Tooddles.........
Cr
I just finished my accounts....
Kinda boring now... With Salid, Soli, Azar & Suhuf..... I'm listening to them talking.... You gotta imagine..... IMAGINE..........
Ok... They are going off now... Ok now......... Better......
I'm kinda blur on what to write... Yes, D's blank.... I guess the migraine is getting on me........
Tomorrow, well i'm gonna study... Oh yah, msg Wan.... Ask him if he's free tomorrow.... To pass me the disc...
Uhmmmm.......... What else, oh, ya, go to the pet restaurant... And finish up up the roll.. I guess I've not been taking pics for some while....
K, I think I'm super dry right now.... Can't write..... Catch ya soon..................
Tooddles.........
Thursday, September 23, 2004
k.... This is gonna be a fast one....
In the library now... No MLAO lessons cuz cikgu's not around...
Right now, just wanting to get wat I wanted.... Get on my blog...... My plan for tomorrow was to study but then I heard that there's gonna be Accounts EPS.... So, I don't know how to study...
I've got no more fitness..... CCAs are on hold.... I read something about pilates today.... Well, I think I've just fallen in love with it.... Quite in love.... It made me remember about my old gym class..... Hey, I went thru alot while I was 8..... Went to gymnastics... And I'm grateful that I was in it cuz if it was not for that , I'll be a fat ass who isn't flexible..... Anyway, the stuff that they do look kinda similar to gym training back then....... Supporting your body with your back & other stuff which strengthens your body......
Right now, I'm hoping that Mr Heikal could implement it in our FITNESS slot or something. I mean the last time we had KICK-BOXING.....
There goes the bell... Gotta go................
TODDLES.................
Right now, just wanting to get wat I wanted.... Get on my blog...... My plan for tomorrow was to study but then I heard that there's gonna be Accounts EPS.... So, I don't know how to study...
I've got no more fitness..... CCAs are on hold.... I read something about pilates today.... Well, I think I've just fallen in love with it.... Quite in love.... It made me remember about my old gym class..... Hey, I went thru alot while I was 8..... Went to gymnastics... And I'm grateful that I was in it cuz if it was not for that , I'll be a fat ass who isn't flexible..... Anyway, the stuff that they do look kinda similar to gym training back then....... Supporting your body with your back & other stuff which strengthens your body......
Right now, I'm hoping that Mr Heikal could implement it in our FITNESS slot or something. I mean the last time we had KICK-BOXING.....
There goes the bell... Gotta go................
TODDLES.................
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
Its just those rainy days...
Yup....
I'm back.. Back from the Parliment House that is.... Its a really interesting place for one to get some extra facts for GP... Definately..... And while we were in the bus, Irwan wanted to SABO some of the guys but it back-fired.. The bus driver actually switch on the B'day song.... That all of us just started laughing.... Big time....
Anyway, last night, I went to Mdm Siti's place.... She looked really bad....... I mean, she's in total shockness.... Muka terperanjat..... And she looked pale & tired & sad...
The moment I got home, I gave Amu a buzz.... We talked till ard 11pm... I guess neither one of us were in the mood to study...
Today it was raining super heavily... And the first thing that I thought of was cuddling in bed with a good book... Yeah I know that cuddling with your loved one would be better but I'm UNATTACHED.... Remember? Yeah so I'ld rather cuddle in a good book with either a coffee or hot chocolate.... I got caught in the rain today... Gotta hit the showers soon..........
Anyway, I'll write more tomorrow.... Kinda buzy ritght not..... In the mist of doing some stuff... And I gotta get home.... I got caught in the rain....
I'm back.. Back from the Parliment House that is.... Its a really interesting place for one to get some extra facts for GP... Definately..... And while we were in the bus, Irwan wanted to SABO some of the guys but it back-fired.. The bus driver actually switch on the B'day song.... That all of us just started laughing.... Big time....
Anyway, last night, I went to Mdm Siti's place.... She looked really bad....... I mean, she's in total shockness.... Muka terperanjat..... And she looked pale & tired & sad...
The moment I got home, I gave Amu a buzz.... We talked till ard 11pm... I guess neither one of us were in the mood to study...
Today it was raining super heavily... And the first thing that I thought of was cuddling in bed with a good book... Yeah I know that cuddling with your loved one would be better but I'm UNATTACHED.... Remember? Yeah so I'ld rather cuddle in a good book with either a coffee or hot chocolate.... I got caught in the rain today... Gotta hit the showers soon..........
Anyway, I'll write more tomorrow.... Kinda buzy ritght not..... In the mist of doing some stuff... And I gotta get home.... I got caught in the rain....
Hezwan: I'll give u a buzz aight? Maybe at night or so.... Anything I'll msg u k.........
Monday, September 20, 2004
Gotta reply from Lin
Hey....
I know that its been quite a while since I've written an entry.... Right now I'm doing lots of revision. Especially for Econs... I don't know but I'm having this sudden liking for Econs... I don't know why.... I think something killed my liking for MGT... Or maybe Mdm Siti isn't there to teach me, motivate & scold me... And she's not in school today... Something happened to her.... I really feel like crying right now...
I got a reply from Lyn.... Hey girl, Ur linked..... And my tag-board is in shits now.... Don't know what wrong with it.... And mine is not the only one, Jo's too.... Argh!! Sorry Lyn, I can't reply ur msg.... tag-board sakit....
I was reading Lyn's blog just now..... She was talking about marriage... OH MI GOD!!!! I mean, u just imagine, the last time we met was when we were in Sec 4... After our papers & we met at ECPS.. And right now, talking about marriage... Yeah I know that her mom's just saying it but it unESCAPABLE.... And as for me, its scary... It was like yesterday that we were in P6...... Those were the days.... Time pass super duper fast....
Last night I was msging Hezwan. The first thing that I feel is that he's totally not himself... He just wasn't himself... Maybe like he said, he's into this routine thingy so he's kinda bored.. After msging him, I was thinking, being too free ain't that good either... I mean, I'm at the other extreme end.... mugging & mugging & mugging hard....... I mean, I keep reading at all times...
When I was smsing Hezwan, it made me think of all the stuff that some of my guy friends said... Some of them would just sleep whenever they hit home.... I remember those days when Darwin would be at home sleeping...That fella, really sleep... And one of the other stuff that we'll do would be talk on the phone till late nites.... I think it was then that I started talking to ppl at night...... And I mean super late.... Like till 5 am or so.... I know.... It's crazy. But honestly, it was fun............
And there's this other ppl, more like players.... Every week when they are back from camp, they'll be dating girls... It would be dating a different gal every week...
From experience, the NS days would either one would be attached or detached... Cuz, for one, its like a major test for the relationship & on the other extreme end, well, they are just too tired to look for girls.... All that they can think of would be to sleep.... Haiz.............
Hey, look at the time.. Gosh... I gotta go.... I'm going out again later tonight..... Keep ya updated soon........
I know that its been quite a while since I've written an entry.... Right now I'm doing lots of revision. Especially for Econs... I don't know but I'm having this sudden liking for Econs... I don't know why.... I think something killed my liking for MGT... Or maybe Mdm Siti isn't there to teach me, motivate & scold me... And she's not in school today... Something happened to her.... I really feel like crying right now...
I got a reply from Lyn.... Hey girl, Ur linked..... And my tag-board is in shits now.... Don't know what wrong with it.... And mine is not the only one, Jo's too.... Argh!! Sorry Lyn, I can't reply ur msg.... tag-board sakit....
I was reading Lyn's blog just now..... She was talking about marriage... OH MI GOD!!!! I mean, u just imagine, the last time we met was when we were in Sec 4... After our papers & we met at ECPS.. And right now, talking about marriage... Yeah I know that her mom's just saying it but it unESCAPABLE.... And as for me, its scary... It was like yesterday that we were in P6...... Those were the days.... Time pass super duper fast....
Last night I was msging Hezwan. The first thing that I feel is that he's totally not himself... He just wasn't himself... Maybe like he said, he's into this routine thingy so he's kinda bored.. After msging him, I was thinking, being too free ain't that good either... I mean, I'm at the other extreme end.... mugging & mugging & mugging hard....... I mean, I keep reading at all times...
When I was smsing Hezwan, it made me think of all the stuff that some of my guy friends said... Some of them would just sleep whenever they hit home.... I remember those days when Darwin would be at home sleeping...That fella, really sleep... And one of the other stuff that we'll do would be talk on the phone till late nites.... I think it was then that I started talking to ppl at night...... And I mean super late.... Like till 5 am or so.... I know.... It's crazy. But honestly, it was fun............
And there's this other ppl, more like players.... Every week when they are back from camp, they'll be dating girls... It would be dating a different gal every week...
From experience, the NS days would either one would be attached or detached... Cuz, for one, its like a major test for the relationship & on the other extreme end, well, they are just too tired to look for girls.... All that they can think of would be to sleep.... Haiz.............
Hey, look at the time.. Gosh... I gotta go.... I'm going out again later tonight..... Keep ya updated soon........
Monday, September 13, 2004
Back in school....
Yup... Its me again.. I'm back... In school.. Kinda boring though...
Right now i'm kinda drained though... I guess they took too much blood from me on Sat... This time I'm sitting beside Sab... Sabie.....
Looks like the hols revision are paying up... Remembering wats Monetory & fiscal policy.. Expansionary, contractionary...... U can say that I spent Monday for PW, tues I watched Cinderrella Story..... Wed, Thurs & Fri ..... Studying, studying, studying..... Sat... Had intentions to meet Big Guy but after the blood donation thingy, I was a bit blur blur... U know... A bit dazing..... So I decided to go home... I mean to be on the same side.... Before I fall at the train tracks.. Then the headlines goes.... " A GIRL FELL IN THE TRACKS AT ALJUNIED MRT" Hahahaha!!!!
Anyway, as I was studying at EXPO, I did a little exploration over there... Gosh!! Its totally deserted... I mean, nobody will know if U make out in the toilet... And the staircase that leads to the roof.... WOW!!! TOTALLY DESERTED... So to all the couples out there, if u guys don't know a spot, try visiting EXPO not during those exhibition hours... Its a good spot..
Compared to 'K' , uhm....... 'K's good in its own way. U know what I mean..... But I don't wanna talk about 'K' right now...
I went to sch today feeling a little dazed... Maybe its Monday blues... I don't know.... It's more like boring Monday.....
On Sat, ard 6 pm, my mom & I went out to Yishun.... And I was only a couple of blocks away from blk 148... Yes... Blk 148..... I kept things cool so I didn't do anything irrational.... I mean, hey why on earth would I wanna storm into his place.... I mean, geez, if he's married then... Argh! Though I'm still unsatisfied that he left me... Without any explaination...
I learnt something about me after that relationship... I won't go away without an explaination.... That was why I insist that Wan must give me a reason before we ' WENT SEPARATE WAYS'. And I respect your decision. It's only better if such a thing was done... Its like you have an unanswered burning question in you when someone leaves you without an explaination... The big Y? That's all....
On the contrary, I mean, even though he left me without any explaination, I feel that it was better... I mean, we have a clean break & only to find out that he left you for another girl.. Considering the fact that we were together for almost 4 years... That'll be saddening.... I wouldn't know how I could ever get back on my feet if that happens to me....
Jo asked me how on earth I managed to stay focus on my life after what had happened to me... Hey, life goes on.... Even you wanna stop the things around you changes, you can't. Things happen for a reason... Maybe from Darwin's relationship there's things that I am fated to learn from... And yet, I feel that that method is very harsh......
I know, they always say that breaking up is never easy... Only time can heal all wounds...
I look at myself now and I reflect what has happened to me for the whole of this year... I would say that I've gone thru some rough edges... School's school... Social life is so so... I guess this year I've not really gone out with people like Linda, Mun & Sab cuz they're sitting for their 'A's... I mean except that time that Mun, Sab & I came back from Deena's wedding.... Other than that, nah...... As for my old good friends, we've gone out a couple of times & everytime it was fun..... I mean meeting old friends are great.......
I miss Hema though.... Met her at MSN that night.... great to talk to old friends...
Speaking of old friends, I know that ASSUMPTIONS are the mother of all fuck ups, well I'm getting this inferiority thingy whenever I msg Big_Guy...... Whatever it is, I hope that its not it...
I guess the exams are getting the better out of all of us... Making people think beyond our minds can take.... To the extend of being too self-consicious...
I was talking to Rachel today, about appearences.... Maybe I appear to look like a snob but I'm not... Maybe I wear a visor & ppl start being judgemental... Becuz I hide my face... I think the reason why I'm wearing a visor is that I wanna protect my eyes... The visor will kinda put it in the shade... And esp so when I drive.... Try driving in the sun.. Urgh! And I'm kinda broke to get myself shades..... Maybe I'll buy a plain cap & I'll design it myself... There's loads I can do with that sewing machine of mine... RIGHT SIS?? Khekhekhekhekhekhe!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey, it 5pm already. I gotta get home.... Do a little studying, practice VOCAB & watch FRIENDS... Today's the last episode....
Catch ya later....
(",)
Right now i'm kinda drained though... I guess they took too much blood from me on Sat... This time I'm sitting beside Sab... Sabie.....
Looks like the hols revision are paying up... Remembering wats Monetory & fiscal policy.. Expansionary, contractionary...... U can say that I spent Monday for PW, tues I watched Cinderrella Story..... Wed, Thurs & Fri ..... Studying, studying, studying..... Sat... Had intentions to meet Big Guy but after the blood donation thingy, I was a bit blur blur... U know... A bit dazing..... So I decided to go home... I mean to be on the same side.... Before I fall at the train tracks.. Then the headlines goes.... " A GIRL FELL IN THE TRACKS AT ALJUNIED MRT" Hahahaha!!!!
Anyway, as I was studying at EXPO, I did a little exploration over there... Gosh!! Its totally deserted... I mean, nobody will know if U make out in the toilet... And the staircase that leads to the roof.... WOW!!! TOTALLY DESERTED... So to all the couples out there, if u guys don't know a spot, try visiting EXPO not during those exhibition hours... Its a good spot..
Compared to 'K' , uhm....... 'K's good in its own way. U know what I mean..... But I don't wanna talk about 'K' right now...
I went to sch today feeling a little dazed... Maybe its Monday blues... I don't know.... It's more like boring Monday.....
On Sat, ard 6 pm, my mom & I went out to Yishun.... And I was only a couple of blocks away from blk 148... Yes... Blk 148..... I kept things cool so I didn't do anything irrational.... I mean, hey why on earth would I wanna storm into his place.... I mean, geez, if he's married then... Argh! Though I'm still unsatisfied that he left me... Without any explaination...
I learnt something about me after that relationship... I won't go away without an explaination.... That was why I insist that Wan must give me a reason before we ' WENT SEPARATE WAYS'. And I respect your decision. It's only better if such a thing was done... Its like you have an unanswered burning question in you when someone leaves you without an explaination... The big Y? That's all....
On the contrary, I mean, even though he left me without any explaination, I feel that it was better... I mean, we have a clean break & only to find out that he left you for another girl.. Considering the fact that we were together for almost 4 years... That'll be saddening.... I wouldn't know how I could ever get back on my feet if that happens to me....
Jo asked me how on earth I managed to stay focus on my life after what had happened to me... Hey, life goes on.... Even you wanna stop the things around you changes, you can't. Things happen for a reason... Maybe from Darwin's relationship there's things that I am fated to learn from... And yet, I feel that that method is very harsh......
I know, they always say that breaking up is never easy... Only time can heal all wounds...
I look at myself now and I reflect what has happened to me for the whole of this year... I would say that I've gone thru some rough edges... School's school... Social life is so so... I guess this year I've not really gone out with people like Linda, Mun & Sab cuz they're sitting for their 'A's... I mean except that time that Mun, Sab & I came back from Deena's wedding.... Other than that, nah...... As for my old good friends, we've gone out a couple of times & everytime it was fun..... I mean meeting old friends are great.......
I miss Hema though.... Met her at MSN that night.... great to talk to old friends...
Speaking of old friends, I know that ASSUMPTIONS are the mother of all fuck ups, well I'm getting this inferiority thingy whenever I msg Big_Guy...... Whatever it is, I hope that its not it...
I guess the exams are getting the better out of all of us... Making people think beyond our minds can take.... To the extend of being too self-consicious...
I was talking to Rachel today, about appearences.... Maybe I appear to look like a snob but I'm not... Maybe I wear a visor & ppl start being judgemental... Becuz I hide my face... I think the reason why I'm wearing a visor is that I wanna protect my eyes... The visor will kinda put it in the shade... And esp so when I drive.... Try driving in the sun.. Urgh! And I'm kinda broke to get myself shades..... Maybe I'll buy a plain cap & I'll design it myself... There's loads I can do with that sewing machine of mine... RIGHT SIS?? Khekhekhekhekhekhe!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey, it 5pm already. I gotta get home.... Do a little studying, practice VOCAB & watch FRIENDS... Today's the last episode....
Catch ya later....
(",)
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
CRY....
Now i feel like crying... Cuz watever i typed before was gone..
Was msning Hema jus now & it whatever I spilled out was gone...
I don't know whether I can recall what I typed...
Argh!!!!!
Yah...
I think i'm going thru alot... I thought I can cope with it but I can't.... Been beaten up too much... Not literally...
Have u ever thought that u'll stand strong.... Even after what had happened, u believe in urself & stand strong... But like any other statue, I guess things inside will eat u up... Darwin always told me that its not good to bottle things up..... I mean, I sub-consciously bottle em up... Whenever I keep quiet, it doesn't mean I'm cool or I'm dazing.. I'm thinking.... And I think I think too much.... Way too much...
I keep telling myself that I gotten over Darwin but why in the world am I still talking about him? Y am I reading my old books that contains him inside? I think I've just put him aside... Not wanting to deal with it cuz it'll be too time consuming... That's y I've chucked it one side....
Last night I had a dream about someone... I didn't mean to think of u like that but it just happened... Maybe I've been watching FRIENDS too much...
Last night, I had a mood swing... No I'm not pregnant... Its just pre-promo's stress... For one, my date with my Econs notes didn't go well.... Kinda confusing.... What do u expect from Econs...
Anyway, something just made me think about THOSE days... U know... THOSE days.... And that's when I dreamt about u.... I went to my little note book & BAM!!!! That pang was back..... I read it all over again.... Then I closed the book & lie on my bed... In the dark... Feeling so lonely.....
I don't know y I'm feeling so low... Super low... Was it becuz of the feeling that I still have for u? I told myself over & over again that I've thrown them away out the window... Never wanting to fall in love cuz I've not gotten over the first one....
I can't totally say that I've gotten over totally over Darwin but I just don't think I'll ever think of getting into a relationship... May it be serious or not... Whatever it is... I can say that I'm having a phobia about relationships.... And starting one isn't that easy to come by...
Here's a question for all my readers....
IS SINGLEHOOD A BLESSING OR A CURSE?
I know u ppl r gonna say that I must be optimistic & all... And considering the fact that I've been in 2 relationships in my whole life..... U can say that I'm a gonner.... And to top it off, i have a phobia remember....
Right now, what I need is a hug from that someone.... Who specifically I honestly don't know.... Just that person who could lend me his listening ear & giving me a huggie when I need it the most.....
Darwin's gone.....
:-[
Was msning Hema jus now & it whatever I spilled out was gone...
I don't know whether I can recall what I typed...
Argh!!!!!
Yah...
I think i'm going thru alot... I thought I can cope with it but I can't.... Been beaten up too much... Not literally...
Have u ever thought that u'll stand strong.... Even after what had happened, u believe in urself & stand strong... But like any other statue, I guess things inside will eat u up... Darwin always told me that its not good to bottle things up..... I mean, I sub-consciously bottle em up... Whenever I keep quiet, it doesn't mean I'm cool or I'm dazing.. I'm thinking.... And I think I think too much.... Way too much...
I keep telling myself that I gotten over Darwin but why in the world am I still talking about him? Y am I reading my old books that contains him inside? I think I've just put him aside... Not wanting to deal with it cuz it'll be too time consuming... That's y I've chucked it one side....
Last night I had a dream about someone... I didn't mean to think of u like that but it just happened... Maybe I've been watching FRIENDS too much...
Last night, I had a mood swing... No I'm not pregnant... Its just pre-promo's stress... For one, my date with my Econs notes didn't go well.... Kinda confusing.... What do u expect from Econs...
Anyway, something just made me think about THOSE days... U know... THOSE days.... And that's when I dreamt about u.... I went to my little note book & BAM!!!! That pang was back..... I read it all over again.... Then I closed the book & lie on my bed... In the dark... Feeling so lonely.....
I don't know y I'm feeling so low... Super low... Was it becuz of the feeling that I still have for u? I told myself over & over again that I've thrown them away out the window... Never wanting to fall in love cuz I've not gotten over the first one....
I can't totally say that I've gotten over totally over Darwin but I just don't think I'll ever think of getting into a relationship... May it be serious or not... Whatever it is... I can say that I'm having a phobia about relationships.... And starting one isn't that easy to come by...
Here's a question for all my readers....
IS SINGLEHOOD A BLESSING OR A CURSE?
I know u ppl r gonna say that I must be optimistic & all... And considering the fact that I've been in 2 relationships in my whole life..... U can say that I'm a gonner.... And to top it off, i have a phobia remember....
Right now, what I need is a hug from that someone.... Who specifically I honestly don't know.... Just that person who could lend me his listening ear & giving me a huggie when I need it the most.....
Darwin's gone.....
:-[
Friday, September 03, 2004
Its raining Its pouring....
Yup... Its raining outside... My legs are wet... the rain came in..... Argh!!!
Right now I'm stuck in the library... With my GPF.... Need to evaluate the article badly.... Its not so bad though.... Just need some brushing up.....
Monday I'm going to Urban Pooch.... Sunday I'm going to the SKC show... All for the sake of PW................. OUCH!! There goes my chest burns again... Been getting them for quite some while now.. I guess I'm too stressed out... Loads of stuff happening to me.... Like I told Big_Fella, I've been wacked up pretty badly... Left, right, top, bottom & centre... And its all school work....
Its raining heavily outside.... What's good to do now is to SLEEP!!!! I'm serious!! Snuggling underneath the comfy comforter... Snuggle... Snuggle... Snuggle.... Argh!!!
I'm staring at Mmy GPF now... Its saying " EVALUATE ME! EVALUATE ME! " Ok D! Stop hallucinating!!!! Stuff going on.... Argh!!!!
And Yes Nad!!! I owe u a LARGE WHIPPED POTATO....... U're gonna get them k... Remember that patience is the virtue of life....
OK now... I'm gonna go for blog-hopping right now... Catch ya later....
:p
Right now I'm stuck in the library... With my GPF.... Need to evaluate the article badly.... Its not so bad though.... Just need some brushing up.....
Monday I'm going to Urban Pooch.... Sunday I'm going to the SKC show... All for the sake of PW................. OUCH!! There goes my chest burns again... Been getting them for quite some while now.. I guess I'm too stressed out... Loads of stuff happening to me.... Like I told Big_Fella, I've been wacked up pretty badly... Left, right, top, bottom & centre... And its all school work....
Its raining heavily outside.... What's good to do now is to SLEEP!!!! I'm serious!! Snuggling underneath the comfy comforter... Snuggle... Snuggle... Snuggle.... Argh!!!
I'm staring at Mmy GPF now... Its saying " EVALUATE ME! EVALUATE ME! " Ok D! Stop hallucinating!!!! Stuff going on.... Argh!!!!
And Yes Nad!!! I owe u a LARGE WHIPPED POTATO....... U're gonna get them k... Remember that patience is the virtue of life....
OK now... I'm gonna go for blog-hopping right now... Catch ya later....
:p
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
School HolidaZe....
Hey Yah... Me doing this from home... Trying my luck with the comp...
Been dazing 2 days straight... I don't know wats wrong with me.... And with this major huge pimple that is super red on my nose. It's sickening...
Yesterday's teachers' day concert was ok. Man sang Dashboard Confessional's Vindicated..... Expect for the 'That Thing U Do' song... It was a catastrophy... Those who sang it made a fool out of themselves.... Saw Nigel trying to pull Salid to sing instead of the 'Echo Boys' ppl...But too bad, time was running out... Salid didn't sing after all....
Thinking of this year's teachers' day celebration, it reminded me of last year's 'Staff Day cum Sports Day'... It was FUN!!! Hahah!!!! People who knows wat I mean by this would be grining.... Hey it was fun...
By the time I got back, I was dazing & watching TV... SMSing Hezwan along the way.... Heard that fella met with a minor accident with a Merc... I know, I know... Merc ..... He rolled back & his rover hit the bumper of the Merc...
I got the tix for the North concert at Zouk... Now I'm contemplating of going or not.. There's gonna be a dog show at EXPO on that day... I intend to go cuz I'm afraid there's not enough stuff for Sean to put into the report... Maybe do some interview.. I asked JT whether she wanna go & she said she'll see.... I mean, if she doesn't wanna go, maybe I'll ask Jo to go with me... I mean, I can't possibly go alone... And preferably a Chinese friend to come along.... I do plan to bring my cam along....
Hey, maybe I'll catch u later... Tomorrow maybe..... See how... The relief teacher for MGT is back so I don't know whether I have any free time in school to write.... And bear in mind that I end school at 5.15pm tomorrow...
Been dazing 2 days straight... I don't know wats wrong with me.... And with this major huge pimple that is super red on my nose. It's sickening...
Yesterday's teachers' day concert was ok. Man sang Dashboard Confessional's Vindicated..... Expect for the 'That Thing U Do' song... It was a catastrophy... Those who sang it made a fool out of themselves.... Saw Nigel trying to pull Salid to sing instead of the 'Echo Boys' ppl...But too bad, time was running out... Salid didn't sing after all....
Thinking of this year's teachers' day celebration, it reminded me of last year's 'Staff Day cum Sports Day'... It was FUN!!! Hahah!!!! People who knows wat I mean by this would be grining.... Hey it was fun...
By the time I got back, I was dazing & watching TV... SMSing Hezwan along the way.... Heard that fella met with a minor accident with a Merc... I know, I know... Merc ..... He rolled back & his rover hit the bumper of the Merc...
I got the tix for the North concert at Zouk... Now I'm contemplating of going or not.. There's gonna be a dog show at EXPO on that day... I intend to go cuz I'm afraid there's not enough stuff for Sean to put into the report... Maybe do some interview.. I asked JT whether she wanna go & she said she'll see.... I mean, if she doesn't wanna go, maybe I'll ask Jo to go with me... I mean, I can't possibly go alone... And preferably a Chinese friend to come along.... I do plan to bring my cam along....
Hey, maybe I'll catch u later... Tomorrow maybe..... See how... The relief teacher for MGT is back so I don't know whether I have any free time in school to write.... And bear in mind that I end school at 5.15pm tomorrow...
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