Bursting SOON!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah its been awhile.......


Right now I feel like bursting... Exploding soon.... Don't know whether to be happy, mad or sad.....

My practice have been pretty ok.... I have this URGE to buy my own FLUTE.... If only someone can give me one for my B'day.... I know, its too expensive.....

My weekend went ok.... On Sat I went to the beach.. Its my fav place and the best time is to go there at night to gaze at the stars.... Oh it was BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!! The best time I ever had a good gazing was in South Africa. By the sides of TABLE MOUNTAIN..... Its a pretty sight.... Another place was actually in the middle of the sea... I was on a cruise and I was partying with my dad on the deck.... I mean, I was younger then but it was still fun....


Speaking of FLUTE, the jazz band wants me to join the band... It happened last Fri, when I went up to the band room to borrow the flute... There I was fixing it up & playing my flute... My 1st B flat to my 3rd octave B.... Amazingly after 6 mths of not playing & I can still remember my notes pretty well.....
As I was saying, after playing my do re mi..... the instructor looked at me & told me to join the band... I'm not having any grudges against band but I wanted to channel my capability in playing flute somewhere else.... So I joined the MCS..... Still played my flute.... U know what's my next step, to play my flute in a GIG... Honestly, that's my next step...... I know that its tough but I know I can do it.....


I've not gotten into bad swings yet... It's just monday..... The other day I was surfing thru the VANS website, I saw my QUINCY shoes. The one that I bought in LA.... And its a new model... Betcha it's not in SG stores yet....


Gotta go... Accounts tut starting soon....

MUACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

chop chop

Gonna make this fast.. Chop chop....

In GP, we all were talking abt cars... And when u say cars, well I have to say that its one of MY topics...... I know that generally girls and cars just don't mix but when ur dad loves cars and he doesn't have any sons, well, you kinda do some boy stuff...... I think that's how my love for photography started....

Considering these facts

1) I was the only child for the first 7 years if my life
2) My dad doesn't have a son
3) We spend alot of time together
4) We have telephatic senses with each other
5) Both of us are logger-heads

So now u know that I am a very pampered kid. Besides the fact that I had a hole in my heart & all that, well, it just goes on.....

Right now, i'm feeling pretty alright... Nothing insane yet... And that Friday of the CNY week, it's declared NO SCHOOL DAY for all of us... Yeah, I knew it all along.... Someone told me........ This means that I can head for MUDPIE soon.....

Mudpie, better not eat it too often... Or I'll grow sick of it..... As in gelak..... Sikit2 cukup......


My ST asked me what my dream car was, and I said, a MINI COOPER.... That dainty car...... I mean, girls, what for be too flashy.... Just get something right for urself will do just fine.... Nothing extravagant..... Love that car since I've watched the ITALIAN JOB...... Damn classy....

There's another car that I like but its not available here in Singapore. And that's a HUMMER.... Wow! That's awefully cool.... I mean, wow!!!! Big WOW!! I mean, a girl driving that.... Wohow!!!!
I mean, it's meant for high terain areas but hey, if I was ever a millionaire in States, I'll definately get one....


Ok ppl... Gotta go.....


Muackz!

Blank!!!!

Just feeling tired... And busy... Had lots of sch work lately and I've been going out almost every week... I mean, last weekend was fully packed with activities...

I just hate Mondays... Yeah, even though today's a Tuesday..... I mean, there's lots of work thats dumped on ya.... The work load's just too full... To the max....

Thank god there's no MLAO today.... My cikgu's not ard... So I finished up some work that has to be done.... Had training too just now.... Ran abt 10 rounds... Pretty ok though... Compared to the first lesson when sch started.... Just tired but no aching muscle... And oh yeah! My sch clenched the MINDEF award... We got the gold award for NATFA... It all sums up to US BEING THE FITTEST SCHOOL... With a 97% NATFA passes....

Bel and the rest are talking abt MUDPIE... Yummy huh? I know it sounds too tempting... Most prob we'ld have it after CNY.....

Speaking of CNY... what are my plans.... Hummmmmmmm..... Anom asked me whether I could join her to visit Deena on that day..... Most likely I'ld go, even though it's my b'dae on that day....

Hah! 21.... All I know is that I won't be celebrating it... I mean, I just don't feel like celebrating.... Not in the mood.... Yes ur turning 21 but no big deal.... Just a number......

I was reading someone's blog before I came to mine & something struck me... Sometimes a person is not what it seems..... I don't know where that came from but after reading this blog & knowing this person as he is, well, its funny.... Just doesn't click.....

My pic from LA are ready & once I've got my comp all set-up, I'll upload it in.... And there's some pics that I've been wanting to upload for like ages but I never really have got the time to do so.....

OK peeps... I'm gonna stop here for now.... Having thoughts of my MGT hw... GOSH!! It's so troublesome to do biz.... Loads of paper work... Ur sources of funds.... Short term, long term.... provide collaterals etc... And if you put A/C into it, there'll be cash flow statement, p&L appropriation, dividend- proposed or paid.... Then when it comes to international trade for Econs, there'll be tariffs, protectionism, comparative advantage.... Blah blah blah blah.........

AAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Now u tell me why the hell am I not going mad? How can I not kill myself..... With all these things in my head......

Me back....

My weekend was pretty packed . So here it went.

On Fri, well, it was the Hari Raya Haji... So practically normal family stuff... Nothing much...

On Sat, I finally went to Funan Centre to get my new comp.... I'm gonna load those pics that was taken from my digi cam..... Hahahaha!!!!!

Later that night, I went for a night drive... Now I can really say, I AM DOING GOOD!!! Except for the parking... I think its because of lack of practice... Other then that, it was ok... Even though the traffic was pretty busy Sat night, I did well.... ( ",)
Later that night, I dropped a major news to Nor... And her response was ' WHAT!' I mean, all along I prob gave her a wrong impression abt someone and when I finally told her, for one i can imagine her expression when she got the msg.... Sorry sis for missing out that SO IMPT FACTOR..... I forgot.....

On Sunday, well I went out with Bel & the rest.... Finished that GP presentation thingy and later we all ate ice-cream at Swensens..... We got the EarthQuake........ Speaking of ice-cream, i'm craving for mocha almond fudge.... And NO i'm not pregnant!!!!! Just felt like having it.....

On the way home, well, Nor kinda kept me company thru smsing.... Discussed abt some stuff...

Later that night, I thought hard abt the term 'FLIRTING'..... Honestly, I've been totally lost abt this matter since last week... It's been bugging me ever since.....

Ok, it all started when I met my old friend.... And when we said goodbye, well..... Me gonna stop here.. Leave u guys in suspense..... HAHAHAHAHA ( evil laugh)

Oh ya, my B'day's comming.... Meaning that I'm gonna grow old soon....


Gotta go. Muacks...

10 mins

10 mins to MCS meeting

Ok here goes.....


On Mon, I SNAPPED!! Can't do any of my HW cuz I snapped.... So I watched TV....

Then on Tues, I went to Bugis with Anom & Mun..... Did some shopping.... Normal girl stuff and catched up....

And guess who I met at Bugis yesterday. Nigel Lauw... It was a coincident. I went like this... The three of us were crossing the road & the traffic at Bugis was heavy.... So it was pretty scary.... With our shrieks and all. And after we crossed the road, there he was saying... "Eh Girls! That was very dangerous." We were definately suprised to see him there... Cuz we saw that he was shaven, we asked him when will he start serving.... And u noe what he said, I shave my hair due to a bad haircut...


Ok... I gotta stop here... Arif telling me to speed up... Toddles....

My weekend.......

My weekend went pretty welll.

I went to Arab St to get some stuff. Later on I headed to town to get that Yellowcard CD. That album that I've been dying to get for ages...

I also managed to get a this light brown boatneck top from Dorathy Perkins.... Hah!


Crashed by Anom's place at john little.... It was kinda unexpected visit... Guess what she said when she saw me.... She said I look good now...... Hahaha!!! Me? Good? I've always looked the same... I was also wearing the same kinda of clothes I'ld usually wear whenever I go out.Tee with Jeans but this time, with my cap...... And even if I do look good now, then why in the world aren't any guys chasing after me? Hahahaha!!! Anom! Anom!


Anyway, Anom told me abt the others whom I've lost contact with... And did U hear? Deena's gonna have a baby soon. She's due in March.... Wow!!!!! So most probably we'll give her a visit soon......

Got hold of Rach too that night.... She's happily working at her new workplace.... She told me that it's good working at the airport cuz she said that I can look at all the guys from the different countries... She said that there's variety...... Hahaha!!!

Ha! Look at all my friends who are so concerned abt me.... They want me to be attached... Giving me ways to sort out the matter... Guys... Thanks!! But right now, I'm dating my BOOKS!!

Then on Sunday, I went to Funan to check out a new comp.... And I got a digicam.... The Olympus mini.... Quite good resolutions. Mine was the 4.0 mega pixel one.... But I'm still eyeing that Nikon CoolPic 8700.... But its 1250 bucks.... Where on earth am I gonna fork out that sum of cash?

Whatever it is, all I know is that I'm going to get a new comp and I can give a refreshing outlook on my blog...... See the updates....

Lynn, ok ok ok... We'll meet up... I'll give ya a call... Still using that same number u gave me a couple of months ago right?



Gotta go... My MGT tut's starting soon..
Chao!

perfectly fine

My econs catastrophy wasn't a catastrophy after all...... My dearest Mr Lai didn't toast me or anything. I was kinda pissed at someone today. Geezzzzzz...... I was just being REALISTIC!!! At least Min understood me....


All that agony of waiting had already disappeared.

Feeling so refresh cuz I've taken a shower just now in school.. Smell of Baby Johnson's shower foam. Too bad there's no vanilla body wash.... Uhm.... My FAV!

Vanilla!
Vanilla!
Vanilla!

Right now I'm all tired from that training during PE.... Gosh! I really miss Rach baby... Mrs Heng advise ya to be an airstewardess.... I mean, she's pretty. N I have to say this, she's FIT! Best 2.4km runner in the class.. The best girl runner actually. I mean, she runs with the guys. And her timing is like 12min or less..... Yes! She's real good!!! (Rach! If ur reading this, I'm doing some promotion abt ya... I know I know, the little boy)


Speaking abt my friends, today in school, there was a major news. Joey, botak's GF, is the winner of CLEO model thingy. IT WAS A BIG NEWS. Mr Lai was also talking abt it during Econs lesson.


Wondering abt what to do this weekend..... Uhm..... GO SHOPPING.... It's more like doing errands.... Going to Arab St to get some materials.... Sometimes I ask myself whether I'm in the right school... I mean, I love ARTs... I'm more of the material kinda... You know, the one who loves to make things on her own... I love going to Arab St... Look at materials to make stuff.... At the moment, I'm kinda the ribbon buff. Nad told me that I'm now the Minah Reben... Ribbons are beautiful ok... The other day I bought a wider black ribbons... It has some floral prints and its unique... I love to make the ribbons as my belt... The other day when I met up with my old BRD friends, I wore this ribbon as my belt for my jeans... It's cool ok... U seldom see Singaporean wearing ribbons with jeans, unless its how you bought it and it has the ribbon on it already. And actually, I have one whole box full of it.. But its meant for my floral collection.... But still, I just love em.....

Joline, don't ya worry.... I'm not going to kill myself. And I'm greatful that u don't want me to die... I know I'm important to you...

My dearest BigGuy,thanks for deligently tagging me all these while... Come on, we all moved on right so there's no need to bring back abt the past... What we had was 'reality, momentarily'. You don't have to feel bad abt it.. Its part of our life.. Something that we can treasure and reflect upon it... There's something to learn from it... Remember things happen for a reason...


I was just feeling low this whole while so that's what made my mind messed up... And yes, I still wanna give you that treat.. I owe you one big one... Thanks for being that friend whom I've known since school. Since seluar dier pendek.... Khekhekhekhe!!! Pls call alright when ur free.... TO MAKE ARRANGEMENTS.....


To all.... SMILE ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!

Nightmare

Last night I had this terrible nightmare abt Darwin... We patched up... And guess what triggered it, this drama EC on Suria...D!!! What the hell am wrong with ya...

Right now I'm pretty upset abt that whole Econs essay that I did till I had my migraines......Argh!!! I'm a WORKAHOLIC!!! Self declared.... Just feel like working & doing my work.... That's all I'm thinking abt....

I mean, imagine this, if I was attached, well I'll be thinking abt that person. I mean when your attached, you have THINGS to think abt. I mean, make you put away your work & take a break...

I'm not saying that I'm desperately need a BF but I'm just stating one of the advantages of being attached... THAT'S ALL.... Trust me, you'll feel better when you're in love....


The other day, I went to fetch my dad at the airport and I am proud to say that I'M GETTING BETTER!!! Yahoooooooooo!!!!!!!!! But on the other hand, I've not been practicing my parking for a long long long long time.....

Hey I think I've gotta stop fer now... My MLAO lesson is going to start soon... Catch ya later..

MUACKZ!

Waiting for the meeting to start...

Right now I'm here in the function room.. With the rest the other MCS girls behind me....

Still waiting for the others.. The yr 2 s and some others...........

This year, well there's no GEMA which means I don't really need to head down to TT.... That other campus which I have no liking to...


I've actually been on MC for the pass 2 days.. I'm sick... It was the GASTRIC.... Haiz....... What to do, I think I've been too a workaholic lately.... Now I know why I lost weight...


Now I'm in the comp lab.. Gosh this place brings back loads of memories about PW...

Ok ppl. I'm having a blistering headache right now... ARGH!!!!!!!!!

BG: I know that ur not home most weekend so when are you free so that I can give you that treat? REMEMBER????????? Pls pls pls call so that we can make the arrangements.

Having a bad tummy....

Honestly, I've not been feeling too good lately.

Firstly it was my bad mood. Then my bad hand & now it's my tummy....

What in the world is happening to me? Am I gonna die?

I mean, basically my whole week had been pretty bad... Real bad....

How's my hand now? Well pretty ok lah right now.. That Wed night, I told my dad to put a bandage on my right arm. Did rub some Tiger Deep Rub before that... Right now it's kinda ok.. As in better.. No more tight feeling....

But on the other hand, there's my bad tummy...... Haiz!!!!!!!!!!

There's like loads of things that I wanted to type today but it seems I've forgotten all abt it....

Today's PE lesson's been pretty bad... And guess what, I did lost some weight.... WOW!!! D losing some weight... And I think that's the reason why I was able to wear that Levi's Super Low Limited Edition Jeans... If I didn't, I won't even think of buying it cuz it'll make me look fatter...

Hahaha!!! msS_D 's so concious abt what she's wearing..... WHAT IN THE WORLD IS HAPPENING TO ME????? I mean, sick when am I like this? I mean, I'm always the sloppish girl... Tee with Jeans but now, I'm into girl's blouses & ladies cut jeans.... HAHAHAHA!!!!

I mean, last year, I've wouldn't think of buying or even be caught WEARING it...... Oh my gosh!!!

My plans for the weekend, well practically nothing at the moment... Abit UNWELL as you can see... Prob I'll head down to Arab St to get some fabric..... Hey, there's a major wedding coming up end of this year so I've gotta be WELL PREPARED..... As in, getting ideas for my cousin's wedding.....

My ultamatum this year

1) Get over being 21 asap
2) Get rid of that triangle when July 22 comes
3) Get over the fear of driving alone
4) Be able to drive real well before my cousin's wedding comes...... So I can drive my cousins & grand- aunt.........
5) Drive to school


Oh yah, dad's not ard so the car's parked at the lot.. So, what should I do? HIJACK it? Whatever it is, all I have to think abt is picking my dad from the airport next Wed.... I mean, he touch down here in Singapore at 1430 & I finish school at 1345... What should I do?????

Uhmmmmm Drive to school & pick him up straight after school. Don't ya worry, parking here in school is ok.... All of them are simple parking kinda thing. Setakat masuk lot yang straight.... So it's pretty easy..

Other solution is to get home asap & get the car from home & only fetch him from there....


The thing is that I have a fear of driving alone..... That time when I fetched my dad from Thailand, I stopped over at my aunt's place to sent some stuff... So I was there alone at the lot.. I had to reverse and turn the other direction without my mom sitting beside me cuz she went to sent the stuff up to my aunt's place... God!!! It was the scariest reverse I ever did.... Imagine with all the other cars there... What if I did hit one of them.... Nangis tak berlagu.....

Thank god nothing happened.... Lucky me... And it's been a month since I drove my dad's car... Argh!!!!!!!!!! Stress pikir pasal driving.....

Ok now.... I gotta go cuz firstly I wanna finish reading this book by Sophie Kinsella.. Its a good book.... And also, my tummy's in pain again... Not feeling too good....

TODDLES!!!!!!!!!!

MUACKZ!!!!!!!!!

Swollen Hands

My hands are swollen..

And I don't know why.... It was already swollen last night when I got up from bed to use the bathroom... You know the tight feeling when you wanna clench your fist. How am I able to type, its not so bad to the extend that I can't write but still, it hurts..

As everyone who'd read my entry, my mood wasn't that great yesterday. I dozed off at 8 or so. Couldn't take the stress anymore that I just slept thru it... I knoe that it won't work for some cases but I think it did...

Or maybe I was just tired that it affected my mind & my thinking. What caused the swell, I don't know... Now I'm typing & it starting to hurt again... And its my right hand...

Does anyone understand the feeling of not wanting to befriend someone becuz you suddenly feel so fed-up with that person? I mean, you were ok when that person wasn't there but when that person is there, u feel weird. That you wanna get away from that person as far as possible. In Malay, you call it JELAK. That sickening feeling....

I'm not being a hypocrite but you suddenly wake up one day and realise that you're just sick of that person? Mcm tak nak that person to even exist.... I know that i'm being mean but its true. Why I befriended that person in the first time, I don't know. Probably we just clicked... As in in the same channel..... I really don't know...

Ok, i think I gotta stop typing. My hand hurts....




Jo: Looks like I can only go out with you most prob in a fortnight. Lots of things are coming up for me. I'll msg u.

Nor: Pls pls pls pls UPDATE!!!!!! And this Fri, yes we are going... And the pics should be on their way already.

BG: I tried calling ur place but it looks like you're not in most of the time....

Lynn: Yes we GOTTA meet up.... SOOOOOON!!!!!!!!!!

MUACKZ!!!

Tension

Feel like crying & screaming & trying to get out of this fear....
Fear of FAILING

I'm scared.

REAL SCARED!!!

This whole tension in me is really burning.. I know that it's not a good start to do so... But its the emotions in me...

Maybe there's so much going on with me that I just don't know where to start... This fear of failing is here in me right now... I don't wanna make the same mistakes twice...

It started like this. I was Econs & there seems to be lot going on with econs.. I know I sound weird but that's what I'm feeling. I feel that back then while I was mugging it for the promo's last year, esp for that Keynesian thingy, I suddenly forgot abt it.. I mean, am I suffering for short term memory or something. Even for A/C, i totally forgot what's ratio and all that... What am I suffering from?

Or is it a mental block? Probably this whole tension of the 'A's can't make me relax & see a wider picture... I really don't know how to get out from this mental state...

And I really don't know why I've been writing alot lately... I'm bringing my notebook everywhere I go.. I mean I observe ppl in sch & I write abt their behavior.. God! It makes me feel like I'm writing a thesis on SOCIALOGY or something...

Yah I know that one of my NY resolutions was to be a wise me but IS OBSERVING PEOPLE wise????? Studying abt their behavior doesn't sound wise....

Whatever that is happening to me right now, I hope that I'll get over it soon.. As in SUPER SOON... My test's comming up in March... Argh!!!!!!!! Gotta keep up with my resolutions.....

Initially, I thought of having a chalet at Pasir Ris on my b'day, which coincidently happen to be on Chinese New Year eve but it turns out that it's been fully booked... Blamed it on my dad... Told him abt it like 3 mths ago & he forgot abt it... Whatever it is, I'll update u guys if there's any changes....

Hey I gotta go. Got loads of sch work piling up on my desk. Catch ya all later... Muacks!!!

I'm in a crampy mood

Just finished my GP paper.. Don't talk abt it....

Last Sat, it went ok... Those funny bunch of ppl....

Amazing huh how even after 4 years we've graduated, I realised that some ppl still hold grudges. To not make it obvious, they make up loads of excuses... Crap!

Why are some ppl so full of SHIT! They don't really show their real them... Full of utter BULLSHIT CRAP!!! 100% TRUE BLUE LIAR!!!

Why am I like this? Just so angry at someone... That BIG FAT LIAR!!! God if I ever did met him that Sat at town, damn, I'll kick his balls. I'm just angry! Angry & cheated!

Ok guys, i think I'll stop here.... Feeling like shit right now....

:(