Yeah, as I was told, there's preview today... So that means that there's fireworks... Saw it from my bedroom window just now....I was saying to myself, 'who could it be, who could it be' when I saw the fireworks just now cuz of a little girl's fantasy...
Hey, wouldn't it be great if you were with your loved one while watching it? When I was younger & watching the fireworks in Florida, I always wanted to watch they fireworks with my boyfriend... But hey, why do I have to head down to Esplanade to catch it if I can watch it at the comfort of my bedroom & to top it off, I'm unattached......
While my family was having our family vacation in Florida, it was the 25th anniversary of WALT DISNEY WORLD so there was EXTRA fireworks. It was cool & very pretty..... All I have to say that it was AWESOME... And the kids & all, all having someone to hold on when the fireworks happened.... And imagine, if your with your gf or bf, kissing under the fireworks... It's gonna be a blast if it was a first date kinda thing & the 'FIREWORKS' inside you happen... And all that romantic kissing... Oh.... Its so romantic...
AAAAArrrrgggghhhhh!!!!!!!! If only Singapore was bigger & the government could built a MEGA theme park where families & friends can have fun... You know, the family can have the family bonding thingy & the friends can have fun... To everyone who can afford to go overseas, visit the states... Go & visit any of the Disney's theme parks. May it be in Los Angeles or Florida... All I have to say that its gonna be an eye opener when your there.... Good experience....
My mom told me that when I have my own kids & family, she told me to bring my kids there... She said that she would want her gran-children to experience what their mom had... Yeah, I mean, travelling is great experience.... You'll have culture shocks but it all adds up to great experience... It makes one very independent... And the saying 'if you don't ask, you'll get nowhere' is very true.... And especially if you've started travelling at the age of 6...
Back then, when my granny was still alive, it was me, her, my aunt & my cousin who's engaged now... Just the 4 of us... We went to Rome, Paris, Germany, New York, Florida..... My first European country was Italy & France. We went to to Venice & Rome then took the train down to Paris... In Paris, we took the Eifel Tower.. And not to forget the merry-go-round in the Park near the Eifel Tower.. And just imagine, at the age of 6, you see a very different packing of COCA COLA... It was Fat & tall... I mean, as kids, even the packaging fasinates us........
Germany was the country where I first met SNOW... Yeah it was cool. We went to Zukspitz... The tallest mountain in Germany... At the tip, my cousin & I played snowball fights... It was fun but then cuz we had no gloves on, we retired from playing in the snow... Our hands were numb from holding the snow with our bare hands......
The next time that I played snowball fights was in Konya, Turkey.... I was there in Dec 2002... That place is beyond words... Great shopping & great view... While we were in Konya, my aunt, cousin & Danial stayed in my cousin's friends place... Oh god, that was one experience staying at a KAMPONG place. I mean, it was minus 1 outside & none of us bathed... Imagine, when you gargle after brushing your teeth, its like your gargling ice water... And hey, its a cottage which uses the old method of central heating... You know, fire, wood... That kinda of thing... And none of us could ever forget the blizzard that we were in when we wanted to go to Antalya.... Imagine were ASIANS stuck in the middle of the snow, waiting for our bus in a heavy storm.... My cousin held on tight to me... And there was my aunt... Acting cool & all but she was freezing.. Maybe I could scan the pic & load it onto the blog... Its one experience....
Then in Bursa, I went Skiing.... Danial & me... Oh it was hell fun... Imagine me with the skiing gears. And you know what, it cost us 9 bucks to rent the gears for the whole day... And skiing is tiring... You know, when we were back in the hotel, Danial & I was beat... And hungry.. We wanted to grab something but neither one of us wanted to go down... So in the end, my aunt & my cousin went to grab dinner which was as usual, kebabs.... And it was YUMMY.... There was my aunt, seeing Danial & me eating hungrily... Khekhekhe.... She said that skiing made us tired & hungry...... But its an experience.....
After my granny passed away when I was in sec 3, that same year, the whole family went to LA, except for my mom, dad & grandad... For that trip, can you believe that my cousin & I got separated in Disneyland during the closing down rush... My aunt, sis, cousin & Danial got separated. And luckily, our hotel was across the road from the parking lot of Disneyland. My cousin & I waited at the tram station at the park but they weren't there, so we went to board the tram & decided to meet them at the tram station at the parking lot but they weren't there. So after 4 trams passed by. we decided to walk to the hotel which was across the parking lot... And there my uncle was, waiting for the both of us... Yeah, he was worried... We quickly went up to the room & there the others were, eating curry chicken that my eldest aunt cooked...And we were definately welcome by a good scolding cuz I know that the both of them were worried.... Very worried.... But she can't blame us cuz it was a very bad crowd & all of them were walking so slowy... But the experience was great... I know it sounds weird but the experience was great....
All this travelling is all thanks to my mom cuz she has been working in SQ for the past 15 years & as a fringe benefit, every year, my dad, sis, me & her are entittled to ONE free ticket anually. And to top it off, my first aunt also works in SQ & so is the younger one. So the 3 of them works in SQ but in different department... My eldest aunt works in TICKETING while my mom & her younger sis works in FINANCE... Except that my mom's in Sales & my aunt's in Revenue... But they do work in the same building though.....
Hey, I think I've writting almost all about my travelling experiences... There's more cuz this entry doesn't include South Africa, Morroco & Spain.... These three places were great cuz its special in its own way..... Maybe I'll write in the upcomming entries...
And hey, looks like someone misses me...... And about that photography thingy, I'll discuss about it with you Big_Fella.... Provided IF I can get to you cuz your phone's messed up.......
M|sS_D
Saturday, July 31, 2004
Friday, July 30, 2004
< Someth|ng short, someth|ng sweet...... >
Here's something I found.....
A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty
He said..NO
She asked him if he would
Want to be with her forever..
And he said NO.
She then asked him
If she were to leave would he cry?
And once again he replied
With a NO.
She had heard enough.
As she walked away
Tears streaming down her face
The boy grabbed her arm and said...
You're not pretty
You're beautiful
I don't want to be with you forever
I NEED to be with you forever,
And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...
I'd die...
'D'
A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty
He said..NO
She asked him if he would
Want to be with her forever..
And he said NO.
She then asked him
If she were to leave would he cry?
And once again he replied
With a NO.
She had heard enough.
As she walked away
Tears streaming down her face
The boy grabbed her arm and said...
You're not pretty
You're beautiful
I don't want to be with you forever
I NEED to be with you forever,
And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...
I'd die...
'D'
No I'm not UPSET
Hello.........
Just reading Big_Fella's blog just now... Someone's missing me sey..... Remember yestersday there's OC on tv.... That's why... And at the same time, I had to study for that Econs test... Why do people have to study the Keynesian theory of employment...
Yeah, the topic is interesting & all... But when you have to do the essay question on it... I'm dead... I never can get a good score on it... fed-Up!!!!!
Catch ya later
'D'
Hey, I'm back........
Guess what... I'm not going out with the gals cuz they have accounts lesson till 5.30pm.... Haiz....
Tomorrow I think I'm gonna catch a movie... Well, its not confirmed...
Nigel got a bad sinus today... I really pity him cuz I have them too. And if its bad, well its BAD.. It only occurs when he's totally beat. I pity him loads cuz I was in the same shoes as him a few weeks ago.
That guy, when he's having his sinus, its not the Nigel you know... You know he was holding on to me when we made our way to the canteen because I forced him him to grab a tea. God! He was walking with his eyes closed... Crazy guy... And you know what's crazier, after I accompanied him to the canteen, he said that were are AFFINITY... I was like HUH? Blur me... I asked him what it means & he said to check out the dictionary.... Sick Sinus Nigel... And later after school I met him again, he was perfectly FINE.. Playing with the ENGAGED phone some more... So I told, at times, he gotta listen to D.......
I've collected my permanent licence... And don't worry, I'm not gonna scan it & load it on my blog like someone did.... Now I've got another card to add into my wallet.... And that makes it three ID in my wallet. My IC, smartcard & my driving licence.....
When I got home, I started cooking.... Ayam Masak Merah... Not my fav but hey, I still have to cook for the rest who's home...
And now I'm on the net.... Wondering what happened to the Econs Keynesian Essay test, well some said that I wrote too much for it.. I don't know how I can do.....
Catch ya Later...........
M|sS_D
Just reading Big_Fella's blog just now... Someone's missing me sey..... Remember yestersday there's OC on tv.... That's why... And at the same time, I had to study for that Econs test... Why do people have to study the Keynesian theory of employment...
Yeah, the topic is interesting & all... But when you have to do the essay question on it... I'm dead... I never can get a good score on it... fed-Up!!!!!
Catch ya later
'D'
Hey, I'm back........
Guess what... I'm not going out with the gals cuz they have accounts lesson till 5.30pm.... Haiz....
Tomorrow I think I'm gonna catch a movie... Well, its not confirmed...
Nigel got a bad sinus today... I really pity him cuz I have them too. And if its bad, well its BAD.. It only occurs when he's totally beat. I pity him loads cuz I was in the same shoes as him a few weeks ago.
That guy, when he's having his sinus, its not the Nigel you know... You know he was holding on to me when we made our way to the canteen because I forced him him to grab a tea. God! He was walking with his eyes closed... Crazy guy... And you know what's crazier, after I accompanied him to the canteen, he said that were are AFFINITY... I was like HUH? Blur me... I asked him what it means & he said to check out the dictionary.... Sick Sinus Nigel... And later after school I met him again, he was perfectly FINE.. Playing with the ENGAGED phone some more... So I told, at times, he gotta listen to D.......
I've collected my permanent licence... And don't worry, I'm not gonna scan it & load it on my blog like someone did.... Now I've got another card to add into my wallet.... And that makes it three ID in my wallet. My IC, smartcard & my driving licence.....
When I got home, I started cooking.... Ayam Masak Merah... Not my fav but hey, I still have to cook for the rest who's home...
And now I'm on the net.... Wondering what happened to the Econs Keynesian Essay test, well some said that I wrote too much for it.. I don't know how I can do.....
Catch ya Later...........
M|sS_D
Thursday, July 29, 2004
---------- KickBoxing Again------------
Hey
Gotten my real licence today, so I can dump my temporary licence one corner... Unfortunately my grandad didn't hear the postman knocking.. So I've got to collect em at Singapore Post tomorrow after school... Haiz.......
Anyway, as the tittle says, I had Kickboxing again today.. Fun stuff though.... It's better then going for a run..
Did I ever tell you that PW is getting sick... Right now, my group have to do an interview on dog owners... So any dog owners out there who's reading this blog, do me a favour by dropping a comment... I mean, it's neccessary ....
Just now, during the meeting, I think I've gotten too stressed out... I mean, Sean gotta do that written report & I'm worried.... I mean, I'm afraid that the report would be full of hot air.. So JT & I have to work hard to get those information.....
Oh yeah, today we played Floorball for PE... And we were like playing full court... Semi-finals for the whole level. And you know what, I was the goalie. And the most worrying thing was that it's been quite sometime since I became the goalie. The last time I was the goalie was back then when I was in Sec 4. That was like 4 years ago...
How'd the game go? Well it was a 1 all. Due to lack of time, they postphone the penalty kick-off till next week... Holy SHIT!!!! It'll gimme the gitters all over again.. And on top of that, the goalie jersey STINKS like hell. And its like a hot sauna in that outfit... I was sweating like as if I've just ran and the sweat was running across my face. I couldn't wipe it off becuz of the helmet... And when I took off those shin pads, my pants were wet... Because of the sweat & all........
I saved one goal from Taufiq just now.... His shot was fast & it hit my arm.... Yes it hurt just for awhile but after that, I was ok but I was really dissappointed though cuz it was a draw... The pressure is all on me for next Thursday... Its scary..... AAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
Big_Fella, continue that 'DEPRIEVED FROM GANGSTERISM' song. And if possible, continue it with that thingy.... Hey look outside, its raining... Cold night with nobody to hold you tight... There goes my English JIWANG... As in getting all emo over poetry.. All those lovey dovey stuff....
And Big_Fella, you didn't put a TRADEMARK to 1900-ASK GOD... So don't say that its yours... And anyway, its part of my kaleidoscope of life.... It affected me too... So, HAH!
My sis just asked me to drive her to school tomorrow. Then I told her that Daddy has not yet approve me driving alone yet.... So have to listen lah... Its his car... Not mine....
Hey, I think I'm gonna enjoy this cold super wet night.. All alone with no one to hold me tight....
TODDLES
M|sS_D
Gotten my real licence today, so I can dump my temporary licence one corner... Unfortunately my grandad didn't hear the postman knocking.. So I've got to collect em at Singapore Post tomorrow after school... Haiz.......
Anyway, as the tittle says, I had Kickboxing again today.. Fun stuff though.... It's better then going for a run..
Did I ever tell you that PW is getting sick... Right now, my group have to do an interview on dog owners... So any dog owners out there who's reading this blog, do me a favour by dropping a comment... I mean, it's neccessary ....
Just now, during the meeting, I think I've gotten too stressed out... I mean, Sean gotta do that written report & I'm worried.... I mean, I'm afraid that the report would be full of hot air.. So JT & I have to work hard to get those information.....
Oh yeah, today we played Floorball for PE... And we were like playing full court... Semi-finals for the whole level. And you know what, I was the goalie. And the most worrying thing was that it's been quite sometime since I became the goalie. The last time I was the goalie was back then when I was in Sec 4. That was like 4 years ago...
How'd the game go? Well it was a 1 all. Due to lack of time, they postphone the penalty kick-off till next week... Holy SHIT!!!! It'll gimme the gitters all over again.. And on top of that, the goalie jersey STINKS like hell. And its like a hot sauna in that outfit... I was sweating like as if I've just ran and the sweat was running across my face. I couldn't wipe it off becuz of the helmet... And when I took off those shin pads, my pants were wet... Because of the sweat & all........
I saved one goal from Taufiq just now.... His shot was fast & it hit my arm.... Yes it hurt just for awhile but after that, I was ok but I was really dissappointed though cuz it was a draw... The pressure is all on me for next Thursday... Its scary..... AAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
Big_Fella, continue that 'DEPRIEVED FROM GANGSTERISM' song. And if possible, continue it with that thingy.... Hey look outside, its raining... Cold night with nobody to hold you tight... There goes my English JIWANG... As in getting all emo over poetry.. All those lovey dovey stuff....
And Big_Fella, you didn't put a TRADEMARK to 1900-ASK GOD... So don't say that its yours... And anyway, its part of my kaleidoscope of life.... It affected me too... So, HAH!
My sis just asked me to drive her to school tomorrow. Then I told her that Daddy has not yet approve me driving alone yet.... So have to listen lah... Its his car... Not mine....
Hey, I think I'm gonna enjoy this cold super wet night.. All alone with no one to hold me tight....
TODDLES
M|sS_D
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Toh Tuck CANCELLED
Hey I didn't have to go Toh Tuck after all.....
Today was a freezy day cuz I was stucked in the audi for like 3 hrs & both the air-cons were on... So go figure, everyone were freezing their butts in there..
From where I stood, it was dead cold in the last aisle that was before the steps. It was cold... I mean, I stood there for only like 2 mins & I was already freezing then how about the people who sat at that row for 3 hrs take it?
I don't know whether to take the car for Friday? I mean, I still don't know how to park the car without the poles... If I recall, Big_Fella's gonna teach me how to park just becuz he can park a tonner very well...
Last night I got a doze of sarcacism from him... Its been only like 3/4 weeks since I talked to him & this is how he welcomes me... With his SARCACISM.... Never mind, one day god will answer my prayers... For now, just you wait.... That one fine day will come.... And please don't ever sing that 'DEPRIVED FROM GANGSTERISM SONG' again. Ni semua akibat M&M songet kau lah Wan.....
About Saturday, well SOMEONE said that he'll go out with me if only I get the car cuz he's low on dough... So.....UHM........... Let's make a deal, if I can get the car for Saturday, it means that you're NEVER EVER gonna brag or talk about your class 4 MILITARY licence nor speak a word about the parking lessons... What say you?
Anyway, I'm kinda in the jive for Linsey Hop after today's CT period.. One troupe came & did the Linsey Hop... Its fun. And Rajiv kena sabo rabak to the max.... It was like the whole class got him... Khekhekhekhekhekhekhekhekhekhekhekhe!!!!!!
There was some stuff about swing... And all that jazz.... I've always been interested about the dance cuz of the swinging & flipping & all. There was one step whereby the girl will be flipped over by the guy 180 degrees. It's something that I've done before with Darwin... At first it was scary but then you gotta trust your partner and learn to relax... Cuz if you stiffen up, your partner will be carrying & extra load as your muscle hardens... So tip for those who wanna try it out, here's some tip
1) Get someone strong
2) Someone you trust
3) Girls, relax when your partner does it
4) Practice it on soft ground if you just started out
5) ENJOY THE FLIP....
Hey I'm not a dancer or anything but I'm telling ya out of experience.....
I think I've written enough for today.... See ya later.................
M|sS_D
Today was a freezy day cuz I was stucked in the audi for like 3 hrs & both the air-cons were on... So go figure, everyone were freezing their butts in there..
From where I stood, it was dead cold in the last aisle that was before the steps. It was cold... I mean, I stood there for only like 2 mins & I was already freezing then how about the people who sat at that row for 3 hrs take it?
I don't know whether to take the car for Friday? I mean, I still don't know how to park the car without the poles... If I recall, Big_Fella's gonna teach me how to park just becuz he can park a tonner very well...
Last night I got a doze of sarcacism from him... Its been only like 3/4 weeks since I talked to him & this is how he welcomes me... With his SARCACISM.... Never mind, one day god will answer my prayers... For now, just you wait.... That one fine day will come.... And please don't ever sing that 'DEPRIVED FROM GANGSTERISM SONG' again. Ni semua akibat M&M songet kau lah Wan.....
About Saturday, well SOMEONE said that he'll go out with me if only I get the car cuz he's low on dough... So.....UHM........... Let's make a deal, if I can get the car for Saturday, it means that you're NEVER EVER gonna brag or talk about your class 4 MILITARY licence nor speak a word about the parking lessons... What say you?
Anyway, I'm kinda in the jive for Linsey Hop after today's CT period.. One troupe came & did the Linsey Hop... Its fun. And Rajiv kena sabo rabak to the max.... It was like the whole class got him... Khekhekhekhekhekhekhekhekhekhekhekhe!!!!!!
There was some stuff about swing... And all that jazz.... I've always been interested about the dance cuz of the swinging & flipping & all. There was one step whereby the girl will be flipped over by the guy 180 degrees. It's something that I've done before with Darwin... At first it was scary but then you gotta trust your partner and learn to relax... Cuz if you stiffen up, your partner will be carrying & extra load as your muscle hardens... So tip for those who wanna try it out, here's some tip
1) Get someone strong
2) Someone you trust
3) Girls, relax when your partner does it
4) Practice it on soft ground if you just started out
5) ENJOY THE FLIP....
Hey I'm not a dancer or anything but I'm telling ya out of experience.....
I think I've written enough for today.... See ya later.................
M|sS_D
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
What A Day...............
Yo Peeps
I'm home now... Cuz the whole school was dismissed early as the teachers had a course at Toh Tuck. So this mrng, I went to school in a Chevrolette. Mrs Heng parked her Merc at Miss Yok's place.. We kinda car-pooled today.
The blood donation didn't go well for me cuz I couldn't donate. My blood density was low again. And the doctor gave me 2 packet of iron tablet. I guess I seldom take meat home. And I'm not a vegan. Its just that I seldom take meat.. Don't know why... Its personal preference...............
Just now, while I was waiting for my turn, Sab asked if I'm driving on Friday. For that girls' night out thingy. I told her I'm not driving cuz I still can't park without the poles. Then she said that she'll be my pole. And then I told her "Then Linda be rear left pole & Mon be the rear right pole. And you be my front left pole." Ah ah.. If I langgar them, then there'll be no girls to hang out with... And I turned around, Mon was laughing....
I was walking to the bus stop with Mary & Sab today, we met Salid... Then the first thing Sab said was "Mane Mon?" Then replied something which I can't remember... Then he looked at me and ask me when will I be buying a car... I think Mon was the one who told him... Then I told him that I can't afford a car. Then he ask what car would I wish to drive & I said a PORCHE. Hey it's my dream car for ages. Then he said 'IF'... And I was expected to reply him a normal car like a Volkvagen or something.. Then I told him I would wanna drive my God-Mother's car, which is Mrs Heng... He then said, tak nak kalah..... Hey, its my wants, not his....
Went to Singapore Post with Sab today to grab lunch. I gave my Cheese Fries to Sab cuz I don't like it... Muak makan.. Then met Shamil cuz the both of them were going out. He looks darker now, thanks to NS...
Wan, thick skin lah you. Said what, "YOUR SOMEHOW A SIDE CAST IN MY BLOG?".
On the other hand, congratz. You deserve it.. And ok, you don't need to remind me that your licence is valid for the military. And you're driving a tonner. Who's gonna give you a cruise? ME! The CV who drives a Nissan Saloon...REMEMBER THAT!!!
And hey, I tried calling you but no one picked up... I called you at the number that I had since I became your Band Major... Wanted to ask about this whole blog thingy lah but as usual, busy man... Mcm bisnessman....
Here's a poem that is the whole version of that 'Wish it could last a little longer' which is actually the last 7 lines of the whole thing....Here it goes..
How weird things revolve
One minute you see the gay
The next, feeling so fray
How such feelings emerged
We should ask god
Go ahead
1900-ASKGOD
For a while,
I wished it could freeze
That moment….
I never would blame u
For telling me so
I knew too well where I stood
Even before I was with you
I’m not like the other girls you’ve dated
Mix jeans, tee, Vans
Flute, gig, flowers n books
Fat, ugly n not pretty
For a while
I wish this feeling could last forever
How amazing it would be
But its not reality
Wish it could last a little longer
But I knew too well it can’t
What happened just happened
Let it be ‘k’ or other way
Let it stay where it ought to stay
A part of our memory it will be
As it was reality, momentarily…
M|sS_D
I'm home now... Cuz the whole school was dismissed early as the teachers had a course at Toh Tuck. So this mrng, I went to school in a Chevrolette. Mrs Heng parked her Merc at Miss Yok's place.. We kinda car-pooled today.
The blood donation didn't go well for me cuz I couldn't donate. My blood density was low again. And the doctor gave me 2 packet of iron tablet. I guess I seldom take meat home. And I'm not a vegan. Its just that I seldom take meat.. Don't know why... Its personal preference...............
Just now, while I was waiting for my turn, Sab asked if I'm driving on Friday. For that girls' night out thingy. I told her I'm not driving cuz I still can't park without the poles. Then she said that she'll be my pole. And then I told her "Then Linda be rear left pole & Mon be the rear right pole. And you be my front left pole." Ah ah.. If I langgar them, then there'll be no girls to hang out with... And I turned around, Mon was laughing....
I was walking to the bus stop with Mary & Sab today, we met Salid... Then the first thing Sab said was "Mane Mon?" Then replied something which I can't remember... Then he looked at me and ask me when will I be buying a car... I think Mon was the one who told him... Then I told him that I can't afford a car. Then he ask what car would I wish to drive & I said a PORCHE. Hey it's my dream car for ages. Then he said 'IF'... And I was expected to reply him a normal car like a Volkvagen or something.. Then I told him I would wanna drive my God-Mother's car, which is Mrs Heng... He then said, tak nak kalah..... Hey, its my wants, not his....
Went to Singapore Post with Sab today to grab lunch. I gave my Cheese Fries to Sab cuz I don't like it... Muak makan.. Then met Shamil cuz the both of them were going out. He looks darker now, thanks to NS...
Wan, thick skin lah you. Said what, "YOUR SOMEHOW A SIDE CAST IN MY BLOG?".
On the other hand, congratz. You deserve it.. And ok, you don't need to remind me that your licence is valid for the military. And you're driving a tonner. Who's gonna give you a cruise? ME! The CV who drives a Nissan Saloon...REMEMBER THAT!!!
And hey, I tried calling you but no one picked up... I called you at the number that I had since I became your Band Major... Wanted to ask about this whole blog thingy lah but as usual, busy man... Mcm bisnessman....
Here's a poem that is the whole version of that 'Wish it could last a little longer' which is actually the last 7 lines of the whole thing....Here it goes..
How weird things revolve
One minute you see the gay
The next, feeling so fray
How such feelings emerged
We should ask god
Go ahead
1900-ASKGOD
For a while,
I wished it could freeze
That moment….
I never would blame u
For telling me so
I knew too well where I stood
Even before I was with you
I’m not like the other girls you’ve dated
Mix jeans, tee, Vans
Flute, gig, flowers n books
Fat, ugly n not pretty
For a while
I wish this feeling could last forever
How amazing it would be
But its not reality
Wish it could last a little longer
But I knew too well it can’t
What happened just happened
Let it be ‘k’ or other way
Let it stay where it ought to stay
A part of our memory it will be
As it was reality, momentarily…
M|sS_D
LauGh|nG Gas
Hey
I'm still suffering that headache. I think I'm gonna get migrains. Wouldn't wanna get to the pill cuz it won't work. Just taking loads of fruits like kiwi, persimon, orange juice & barley drinks. Tomorrow's gonna be a blood donation day. Hope I can donate tomorrow cuz the last time, it was unsuccessful as my blood count was low. Hope the fruits are doing the works in my body..
I got a doze of laughing today. Major good one. Imagine a gal with headache laughing. It's all Amu's fault. Made me laugh to tears. Funny gal. I was just on the phone with her & we were laughing again. And its the contagious type. Hahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
On Friday I'm going out with the gals. Girls night out. And Saturday maybe I'll go out to take some pics. Big_Fella, if your thinking of taking some shots, do drop me a comment. I just need to get out to do my photography.... Its been quite a while. Stupid PW... But thank god it's been approved now....
I dropped Darwin a msg today & he didn't reply. What ignitiated me to drop me a msg is because of what Mrs Heng told me. And I demanded an explaination from him. After 4 years being attached from him, I do know about his character. NEVER ATTEMPT TO QUESTION HIM WHEN THE WOUND IS STILL FRESH. You'll end up being scolded in a reversed phycological way. That's why I let him on his own for about 2 months.
The reason why I had that dying desire to question besides what Mrs Heng advised me on life, was because I'm that type of person who has to be reasoned out. I just wanna know why. And I do believe that he owes me an explaination. After what we had gone thru. Hey, he was my first love. I gave my heart away a long time ago but too bad, it wasn't loved back they way I wanted. And that was the reason why I wasn't that INTO when I was with Big_Fella. Yeah, it was fun being the gal of Big_Fella but then, I think I gave my heart away to that someone. And after what he'd done to me, well, it's hard for me to fall in love all over again.
Being with Darwin was romantic. Picnics, beach, poems, love letters & music. It was nice. I mean, we were really into it. I found myself falling in love with him everyday. Till one fine day, he turned into a jerk... MAJOR JERK!!!
I think that's the reason why it was kinda hard for me to get back into my normal routine. Hey you were attached to someone for over 4 years & suddenly a bomb dropped at your doorstep. He walked away without any explaination.
From that relationship that I had with Darwin, I've learnt that when you've fallen deep in love with someone, its very hard to get back on your own two feet if anything happens. So my motto is, DON'T FALL TOO DEEP IN LOVE......CUZ LATER, IT'S GONNA LEAVE A VERY DEEP CUT AFTER THAT... That scar will make you learn not to fall in love again. Or if you would ever fall in love again, it'll be the half-hearted kind... Sorry Big_Fella if this hurts......
Amazing how DM:MD didn't turn out how it was to be...
Here's something for those who wanna know how Darwin was...He sang this to me
To really love a woman
To understand her
You gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought
See every dream
And give her wings
When she wants to fly
And when you find yourself helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman
You love a woman
Tell her that she's really wanted
You love a woman
Tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody to tell her
That its gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
Really really ever love a woman
'DM'
I'm still suffering that headache. I think I'm gonna get migrains. Wouldn't wanna get to the pill cuz it won't work. Just taking loads of fruits like kiwi, persimon, orange juice & barley drinks. Tomorrow's gonna be a blood donation day. Hope I can donate tomorrow cuz the last time, it was unsuccessful as my blood count was low. Hope the fruits are doing the works in my body..
I got a doze of laughing today. Major good one. Imagine a gal with headache laughing. It's all Amu's fault. Made me laugh to tears. Funny gal. I was just on the phone with her & we were laughing again. And its the contagious type. Hahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
On Friday I'm going out with the gals. Girls night out. And Saturday maybe I'll go out to take some pics. Big_Fella, if your thinking of taking some shots, do drop me a comment. I just need to get out to do my photography.... Its been quite a while. Stupid PW... But thank god it's been approved now....
I dropped Darwin a msg today & he didn't reply. What ignitiated me to drop me a msg is because of what Mrs Heng told me. And I demanded an explaination from him. After 4 years being attached from him, I do know about his character. NEVER ATTEMPT TO QUESTION HIM WHEN THE WOUND IS STILL FRESH. You'll end up being scolded in a reversed phycological way. That's why I let him on his own for about 2 months.
The reason why I had that dying desire to question besides what Mrs Heng advised me on life, was because I'm that type of person who has to be reasoned out. I just wanna know why. And I do believe that he owes me an explaination. After what we had gone thru. Hey, he was my first love. I gave my heart away a long time ago but too bad, it wasn't loved back they way I wanted. And that was the reason why I wasn't that INTO when I was with Big_Fella. Yeah, it was fun being the gal of Big_Fella but then, I think I gave my heart away to that someone. And after what he'd done to me, well, it's hard for me to fall in love all over again.
Being with Darwin was romantic. Picnics, beach, poems, love letters & music. It was nice. I mean, we were really into it. I found myself falling in love with him everyday. Till one fine day, he turned into a jerk... MAJOR JERK!!!
I think that's the reason why it was kinda hard for me to get back into my normal routine. Hey you were attached to someone for over 4 years & suddenly a bomb dropped at your doorstep. He walked away without any explaination.
From that relationship that I had with Darwin, I've learnt that when you've fallen deep in love with someone, its very hard to get back on your own two feet if anything happens. So my motto is, DON'T FALL TOO DEEP IN LOVE......CUZ LATER, IT'S GONNA LEAVE A VERY DEEP CUT AFTER THAT... That scar will make you learn not to fall in love again. Or if you would ever fall in love again, it'll be the half-hearted kind... Sorry Big_Fella if this hurts......
Amazing how DM:MD didn't turn out how it was to be...
Here's something for those who wanna know how Darwin was...He sang this to me
To really love a woman
To understand her
You gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought
See every dream
And give her wings
When she wants to fly
And when you find yourself helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman
You love a woman
Tell her that she's really wanted
You love a woman
Tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody to tell her
That its gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
Really really ever love a woman
'DM'
Sunday, July 25, 2004
How Do I love Thee
Romantic Love Poems Sonnet From The Portugese XLIII Elizabeth Barrett Browning -
How do I love thee?
How do I love thee?
Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,
I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!
and,
If God choose,
I shall love thee better after death.
If thou must love me, let it be for naught
Except for love's sake only.
Do not say"I love her for her smile
Her look
Her way
Of speaking gently,
For a trick of thought
That falls in well with mine, and certes brought
A sense of pleasant ease on such a day
For these things in themselves, Beloved, may
Be changed, or change for thee and love, so wrought,
May be unwrought so.
Neither love me for
Thine own dear pity's wiping my cheeks dry:
A creature might forget to weep, who bore
Thy comfort long, and love thy love thereby!
But love me for love's sake, that evermore
Thou mayst love on, through love's eternity
Jo, thanks for the comment. I didn't know that Trista read this. I found in in one of Lurlene McDaniel's books & I heard it again from the last episode of Beverly Hills 90210 when Kelly recited it on Donna's wedding day.. And I finally found it like a few months ago on the net but I never really posted it online till you reminded me....
How do I love thee?
How do I love thee?
Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,
I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!
and,
If God choose,
I shall love thee better after death.
If thou must love me, let it be for naught
Except for love's sake only.
Do not say"I love her for her smile
Her look
Her way
Of speaking gently,
For a trick of thought
That falls in well with mine, and certes brought
A sense of pleasant ease on such a day
For these things in themselves, Beloved, may
Be changed, or change for thee and love, so wrought,
May be unwrought so.
Neither love me for
Thine own dear pity's wiping my cheeks dry:
A creature might forget to weep, who bore
Thy comfort long, and love thy love thereby!
But love me for love's sake, that evermore
Thou mayst love on, through love's eternity
Jo, thanks for the comment. I didn't know that Trista read this. I found in in one of Lurlene McDaniel's books & I heard it again from the last episode of Beverly Hills 90210 when Kelly recited it on Donna's wedding day.. And I finally found it like a few months ago on the net but I never really posted it online till you reminded me....
'P' PLATE................
Heyah....
Today's my first time driving my dad's car... And it took me quite sometime to get the hang of it cuz the paddles of the clutch, accelerator & brakes were kinda deep.... It took me sometime to get my biting point. To the extend of not being able to move from my car park lot at my place... It was embarrassing cuz I didn't even clutch in.... Stupid gears!
And with my dad beside me, it was kinda tough cuz he's there giving me instructions... And I'm there super blur & stressed out. And to top it of, I had to get used to the gears. It's like a little far. Kinda hard to reach the gears. I know I know what you drivers out there gonna say, you want the gears to be as long as the bus gears. I mean, the car that I drove back then was a Toyota Soluna and my dad's car is a Nissan EX Saloon.... Its different... But its cool to drive my dad's car cuz its like my car... I know none of you get it but after driving someone else's car for quite sometime, you get this sense of pride driving your own car. That sense of ownership...
My mom followed me & my dad too just now. Our drive was very far. I even went to the kiosk to pump petrol. All by myself. Then the cruisin started... From Teluk Kurau to Marine Parade to ECP airport to Bedok South to Bedok Corner and to East Coast Road & back to Frankel and I drove home. While driving at East Coast Road, my mom saw this notice board saying that Chai Chee Sec is 35 yrs old & I told her that I can't see cuz I'm driving. And my mom kept saying 'Tu! Tu! Tu!' And I went, I can't see it cuz I'm focused on the road...Ma Ma... I wonder how it would be if she starts driving again... I'm gonna put on loads of safety belts... With her looking for her gear & looking at the lights, I think I'll think twice about me in the car while she drives...
And you know what, I don't know how to park without the poles... Which means I still can't drive till I've cleared my parking. So those who are waiting for the cruise, you gotta wait for awhile k... Remember, patience is the virtue of life. But trust me, by Hari Raya, I'm gonna be able to drive on my own cuz I'm going jalan Hari Raya with my girlfriends. And if Mon is gonna have her B'dae party this year again at her place or anywhere, I'll be driving... Like you said Big_Fella, easier on the transport side....
But bottom line is that once I can drive on my own, I'll be holding on to the car. Doing errands with my mom & loads of other stuff. Don't need to drag my dad even to the florist if I need to get my stock of flowers. And maybe IF I can drive on my own by the end of the year, my aunt said that she wants to rent a car & she, Danial, Hanis, Hana & me can drive from Washington down to Florida. I have Danial as my navigator and I can drive. I doubt I'll have any problems. Pray hard that I can drive..
Actually, I thought of driving if we go to South Africa or even to New Zealand.. And if I go with my parents, I have my dad to help me while I'm driving...
And yeah Big_Fella, I know that you can only remember 2 telephone numbers. It shows that you DEPEND TOO MUCH ON YOUR PHONE. You gotta give your phone a break. Look, now your phone dah merajuk...
Next week my parents won't be around cuz my mom's following my dad on his business trip at Bangkok. So I have the whole weekend to myself... Maybe I could go out.. Relax... Maybe chill with the gals or something. I'm not gonna plan cuz it'll never go as planned. Look at the BayBeats & the Tapestry... Its all a mess...
Hey, my headache that has being going on & off since yesterday is making my head spin again. Its bugging me loads... Catch ya later...
ThE ga| with ThE 'P' P|ate
M|sS_D
Today's my first time driving my dad's car... And it took me quite sometime to get the hang of it cuz the paddles of the clutch, accelerator & brakes were kinda deep.... It took me sometime to get my biting point. To the extend of not being able to move from my car park lot at my place... It was embarrassing cuz I didn't even clutch in.... Stupid gears!
And with my dad beside me, it was kinda tough cuz he's there giving me instructions... And I'm there super blur & stressed out. And to top it of, I had to get used to the gears. It's like a little far. Kinda hard to reach the gears. I know I know what you drivers out there gonna say, you want the gears to be as long as the bus gears. I mean, the car that I drove back then was a Toyota Soluna and my dad's car is a Nissan EX Saloon.... Its different... But its cool to drive my dad's car cuz its like my car... I know none of you get it but after driving someone else's car for quite sometime, you get this sense of pride driving your own car. That sense of ownership...
My mom followed me & my dad too just now. Our drive was very far. I even went to the kiosk to pump petrol. All by myself. Then the cruisin started... From Teluk Kurau to Marine Parade to ECP airport to Bedok South to Bedok Corner and to East Coast Road & back to Frankel and I drove home. While driving at East Coast Road, my mom saw this notice board saying that Chai Chee Sec is 35 yrs old & I told her that I can't see cuz I'm driving. And my mom kept saying 'Tu! Tu! Tu!' And I went, I can't see it cuz I'm focused on the road...Ma Ma... I wonder how it would be if she starts driving again... I'm gonna put on loads of safety belts... With her looking for her gear & looking at the lights, I think I'll think twice about me in the car while she drives...
And you know what, I don't know how to park without the poles... Which means I still can't drive till I've cleared my parking. So those who are waiting for the cruise, you gotta wait for awhile k... Remember, patience is the virtue of life. But trust me, by Hari Raya, I'm gonna be able to drive on my own cuz I'm going jalan Hari Raya with my girlfriends. And if Mon is gonna have her B'dae party this year again at her place or anywhere, I'll be driving... Like you said Big_Fella, easier on the transport side....
But bottom line is that once I can drive on my own, I'll be holding on to the car. Doing errands with my mom & loads of other stuff. Don't need to drag my dad even to the florist if I need to get my stock of flowers. And maybe IF I can drive on my own by the end of the year, my aunt said that she wants to rent a car & she, Danial, Hanis, Hana & me can drive from Washington down to Florida. I have Danial as my navigator and I can drive. I doubt I'll have any problems. Pray hard that I can drive..
Actually, I thought of driving if we go to South Africa or even to New Zealand.. And if I go with my parents, I have my dad to help me while I'm driving...
And yeah Big_Fella, I know that you can only remember 2 telephone numbers. It shows that you DEPEND TOO MUCH ON YOUR PHONE. You gotta give your phone a break. Look, now your phone dah merajuk...
Next week my parents won't be around cuz my mom's following my dad on his business trip at Bangkok. So I have the whole weekend to myself... Maybe I could go out.. Relax... Maybe chill with the gals or something. I'm not gonna plan cuz it'll never go as planned. Look at the BayBeats & the Tapestry... Its all a mess...
Hey, my headache that has being going on & off since yesterday is making my head spin again. Its bugging me loads... Catch ya later...
ThE ga| with ThE 'P' P|ate
M|sS_D
Saturday, July 24, 2004
I've got my licence!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh yeah! Oh yeah! Oh yeah!
Hiya peeps.....
Sorry for not updating you guys about my results... I CAN LEGALLY DRIVE NOW. Which means I owe a couple of peeps a ride. I know Big_Fella, you too.....
Yesterday in school we had kick boxing.... It was cool & loads of fun... It's the aerobics which has some martial arts in it...I've learnt some defensive moves from Darwin back then cuz when he was serving his NS, he was the rifle man.. And can you believe this, he can easily carry me... I can never forget him giving me a piggy back ride at Mon's place.. It was fun... Which also reminds me about eating supper under the stars at Mon's from yard.....MEMORIES.....
After the kick boxing aerobics, I rushed for PW a& at 3pm, I left school for my warm up test.... During the warm-up, I was cool.... Seriously... I was... The instructor who took me for warm-up was very friendly & we chatted about stuff....He happened to know someone from my school which was pretty surprising...
After the Warm-up session, I waited in the holding room where the testers would ballot our route for us... Mine was route 6... Busy road but I'm used to it... As I was about to enter the holding room, another instructor who was doing my admin stuff for the registration was saying that I looked nervous...And I told him that I was cool.... AS I WAS WALKING INTO THE ROOM.... Its as if I was that confident to pass the test. And it was as though I annoucing it to everyone who was in the room.. While waiting for my turn to ballot for the route, it was then that I felt the gitters.... I felt the tension & began to feel a little nervous.... But then I told myself that I've gotta overcome that nervousness so that I can focus on the road & pass....
I kept cool till the testers some to pick me up... And it turned out that I got the old tester... Old as in 60's old where the vision & precision fails... Anyway, I just went on with the test... I didn't stall at all while I was driving and my slope was perfect... My parking was ok and everything in the circuit was fine... As I was better in driving on the road, I had no problem U-turning & changing lanes. And the first thing that the instructor asked while I was on the road was whether I was a cyclist ... And I told him that I'm not. And after the U-turn, this instructor was saying that driving is linked to accounting..... Goodness gracious me..... So he was saying the terms such as provision for bad debt, bad debts written off and stuff like that.... I was thinking, WHAT IN THE WORLD HAS GOTTEN INTO THE MIND OF THIS TESTER.... But my respond to him was a smile... Just be friendly cuz THAT'S THE GUY WHO HAS THE POWER TO PASS OR FAIL ME.... And when we went into the room, he gave me 14 points... The max that one can go is 20 or you've gotten an immediate failure by striking a kerb or hitting a pole....I got 8 points for not enough side clearence for other road users, 4 for fail to check blind spot & 2 for improper turning... And it total up to 14 points.. I passed......
And by the time I got home, eveyone was excited over the good news. My grandad said to make kenduri.... I asked him for what? He said that he was joking only... And it turns out that my dad gotten his license at 20 too. Just like me....
After dinner, I watched NCIS but only half-way... By 9.30pm, I was already in LALA land... Dozing off.... Hey I was beat to the max......
And today, I went to The Chinese High and as a matter of fact, I came home at 11pm just now... The ACJC props had this kinda funny smell that made my head spin... Took 154 home... And guess what, Junaini won the best actress award... Told ya she's gonna win. She was super toned down today in Malay... She looked really stressed out but she did well today... She won!!!!!! Best actress you know... There was two other schools... VJC & ACJC... Including we MILLENIANS, three... VJC won best actor, ACJC won best play of the year & MI won best actress... Went there with Arif, Tini & Min. Met Huda at the place itself cuz her boyfriend send her.... Come on, boyfriend gotta bike so she's got private transport... And NO I didn't drive today cuz Baba took the car.... So cannot drive there.... On top of that, I'm still a new driver... Not that confident driving alone yet... So my weekend driving lesson with my dad starts on Sunday... You know, to get the hang of things.. And so that if my dad's busy with his overseas trip, I'll be holding on to the car.. Yeah!!!
I was reading Big_Fella's blog just now and he was wonderin how I'ld do for the test... And I've been trying to call him but he's phone is switched off... Wan Wan... changing your hp so soon???? Is it the bills again???
That day while I was on my way to school with Mrs Heng, yes the teacher who drives a MERC to school and carries branded bags to school like Gucci, Prada, Fendi & Cartier and has a great body was telling me stuff about life... She said that one shouldn't hate someone cuz you'll be in the lossing end.... After much thought, I think I owe Big_Fella an apology... And maybe Darwin too but that fella is kinda hard to get in contact with.... And I don't think I can forgive Darwin that easily, after what he has done to me..... So Big_Fella, if your free, gimme a buzz aight? And sorry I can't make it to your gig tomorrow cuz it's Parents' Day & I've gotta be there... I had things planned out so well for tomorrow but things just happen.... I've got to learn that things happen when you least expected.... After what happened to Sam, Big_Fella & loads of other peeps who has affected my life one way or another....... And therefore it has contributed to my kaleidoscope of life
ThE Ga| WhO cAn Dr|ve
Yours Truly
M|sS_D
Hiya peeps.....
Sorry for not updating you guys about my results... I CAN LEGALLY DRIVE NOW. Which means I owe a couple of peeps a ride. I know Big_Fella, you too.....
Yesterday in school we had kick boxing.... It was cool & loads of fun... It's the aerobics which has some martial arts in it...I've learnt some defensive moves from Darwin back then cuz when he was serving his NS, he was the rifle man.. And can you believe this, he can easily carry me... I can never forget him giving me a piggy back ride at Mon's place.. It was fun... Which also reminds me about eating supper under the stars at Mon's from yard.....MEMORIES.....
After the kick boxing aerobics, I rushed for PW a& at 3pm, I left school for my warm up test.... During the warm-up, I was cool.... Seriously... I was... The instructor who took me for warm-up was very friendly & we chatted about stuff....He happened to know someone from my school which was pretty surprising...
After the Warm-up session, I waited in the holding room where the testers would ballot our route for us... Mine was route 6... Busy road but I'm used to it... As I was about to enter the holding room, another instructor who was doing my admin stuff for the registration was saying that I looked nervous...And I told him that I was cool.... AS I WAS WALKING INTO THE ROOM.... Its as if I was that confident to pass the test. And it was as though I annoucing it to everyone who was in the room.. While waiting for my turn to ballot for the route, it was then that I felt the gitters.... I felt the tension & began to feel a little nervous.... But then I told myself that I've gotta overcome that nervousness so that I can focus on the road & pass....
I kept cool till the testers some to pick me up... And it turned out that I got the old tester... Old as in 60's old where the vision & precision fails... Anyway, I just went on with the test... I didn't stall at all while I was driving and my slope was perfect... My parking was ok and everything in the circuit was fine... As I was better in driving on the road, I had no problem U-turning & changing lanes. And the first thing that the instructor asked while I was on the road was whether I was a cyclist ... And I told him that I'm not. And after the U-turn, this instructor was saying that driving is linked to accounting..... Goodness gracious me..... So he was saying the terms such as provision for bad debt, bad debts written off and stuff like that.... I was thinking, WHAT IN THE WORLD HAS GOTTEN INTO THE MIND OF THIS TESTER.... But my respond to him was a smile... Just be friendly cuz THAT'S THE GUY WHO HAS THE POWER TO PASS OR FAIL ME.... And when we went into the room, he gave me 14 points... The max that one can go is 20 or you've gotten an immediate failure by striking a kerb or hitting a pole....I got 8 points for not enough side clearence for other road users, 4 for fail to check blind spot & 2 for improper turning... And it total up to 14 points.. I passed......
And by the time I got home, eveyone was excited over the good news. My grandad said to make kenduri.... I asked him for what? He said that he was joking only... And it turns out that my dad gotten his license at 20 too. Just like me....
After dinner, I watched NCIS but only half-way... By 9.30pm, I was already in LALA land... Dozing off.... Hey I was beat to the max......
And today, I went to The Chinese High and as a matter of fact, I came home at 11pm just now... The ACJC props had this kinda funny smell that made my head spin... Took 154 home... And guess what, Junaini won the best actress award... Told ya she's gonna win. She was super toned down today in Malay... She looked really stressed out but she did well today... She won!!!!!! Best actress you know... There was two other schools... VJC & ACJC... Including we MILLENIANS, three... VJC won best actor, ACJC won best play of the year & MI won best actress... Went there with Arif, Tini & Min. Met Huda at the place itself cuz her boyfriend send her.... Come on, boyfriend gotta bike so she's got private transport... And NO I didn't drive today cuz Baba took the car.... So cannot drive there.... On top of that, I'm still a new driver... Not that confident driving alone yet... So my weekend driving lesson with my dad starts on Sunday... You know, to get the hang of things.. And so that if my dad's busy with his overseas trip, I'll be holding on to the car.. Yeah!!!
I was reading Big_Fella's blog just now and he was wonderin how I'ld do for the test... And I've been trying to call him but he's phone is switched off... Wan Wan... changing your hp so soon???? Is it the bills again???
That day while I was on my way to school with Mrs Heng, yes the teacher who drives a MERC to school and carries branded bags to school like Gucci, Prada, Fendi & Cartier and has a great body was telling me stuff about life... She said that one shouldn't hate someone cuz you'll be in the lossing end.... After much thought, I think I owe Big_Fella an apology... And maybe Darwin too but that fella is kinda hard to get in contact with.... And I don't think I can forgive Darwin that easily, after what he has done to me..... So Big_Fella, if your free, gimme a buzz aight? And sorry I can't make it to your gig tomorrow cuz it's Parents' Day & I've gotta be there... I had things planned out so well for tomorrow but things just happen.... I've got to learn that things happen when you least expected.... After what happened to Sam, Big_Fella & loads of other peeps who has affected my life one way or another....... And therefore it has contributed to my kaleidoscope of life
ThE Ga| WhO cAn Dr|ve
Yours Truly
M|sS_D
Thursday, July 22, 2004
Today's the Big Day
Hey!!!!!
TODAY'S THE BIG DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so scared!!!! Dead nervous.... Writting this from the school now........ And just now, i passed by BaoLim, she gave me this fishy look.... She saw saying stuff like I looked blur today lah, have that look whereby I can't sleep......
Anyway, I can't go to TAPESTRY this Sat cuz of that Parents' Day!!! But I'm going to the drama comp tomorrow night........... And I hope I can drive tomorrow..... Hope so.........
I think I gotta go cuz my lesson starting soon.... Toddles.................... Catch ya later alligator.....
'D'
TODAY'S THE BIG DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so scared!!!! Dead nervous.... Writting this from the school now........ And just now, i passed by BaoLim, she gave me this fishy look.... She saw saying stuff like I looked blur today lah, have that look whereby I can't sleep......
Anyway, I can't go to TAPESTRY this Sat cuz of that Parents' Day!!! But I'm going to the drama comp tomorrow night........... And I hope I can drive tomorrow..... Hope so.........
I think I gotta go cuz my lesson starting soon.... Toddles.................... Catch ya later alligator.....
'D'
Monday, July 19, 2004
Monday Bluezzzzz...............................
Heyah.....
I'm back but not with any poems at the moment. I know for some readers, it's kinda boring... Especially love poems..... I finally found my fav love poem entittled " how do i love thee" It one famous love poem... I don't know how many people out there know it..
Yeah, I didn't go to BayBeats cuz I was moapping over the sudden departure of Sam... I really feel like giving him a PUNCH for not telling us in advance. Let that blue back be a reminder for him for not letting us know about him flying off to Perth. But then, I on the other hand must respect his decision... But to think of it, he really should tell the group so that we would be phycologically prepared...... Argh!!! That fella.... And did I tell you that our GPP has finally been approved. YEEEHHAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! Yupie!! Ironically, I remembered what Sam said last week about that last GPP being the final one & yeah, it was the final one....
I've got the pictures developed from the engagement. Yeah it was nicely done.. Except that Hana took some of the pics & it turn kinda blur.... What do you expect from a junior... God she ws using my manual camera.... Anyway, I think I wanna bring my camera for Saturday's TAPESTRY gig at Far East. Hey, Fred's performing... Gotta give some support for your schoolmates.... Don't you think? I forgot to ask Fariz just now about this Saturday.. I hope I can make it cuz there's gonna be PARENTS' DAY in school.. I hope that I don't need to go...... And at the same time, I'm gonna go out with my bestfriend in the whole wide world. Gonna do some catching up with her cuz she started working as an ASSISTANT ACCOUNTANT. That girl, boleh tahan...... She's working already....
Hummm.... I wonder when she's gonna gimme a treat on her payday.. *hint* *hint*
I was viewing Big_Fella's blog & the pics from the GARAGE brought back memories... Sweet memories.... But it turned sour in the end... I always know deep down something sweet can never last forever cuz it'll go stale one day... AND TURN SOUR!!! And it made me remember about one crude remark he said to me... But hey, it was back then... What can you do to turn back the clock? How can you turn back the hands of time... I mean if it was possible, then I'll never ever would be ever attached to him in the first place... Remember, we both had a history....D, why are you talking about the past? It's over! You gotta move on... And you got loads of work to do... It'll keep you busy..I mean, hey its fun being attached but it has it's consequences...... Like a crazy hp bill, emotional situations & definately LOVE SICK. URGH!!!
From my personal experience, being attached as in, your serious about your relatioship, you always have something to look forward too. May it be the msg on your hp, the date that you have for the weekend or even the conversation that last till like 3am in the morning... And I believe there'll gonna be other upcoming surprises. It all makes one forget about the consequences of being attached cuz you feel like your in CLOUD 9. It's like your in a trance whereby you wouldn't mind waking up feeling sleepy the next morning or coming back on Monday from a tired weekend.... I know that keeping yourself busy is just temporary....... Make me forget for a while that I have no one to love......
But then, how long will it keep you busy? Who are you gonna share that hapiness one day? God I sound as though I'm advising Darwin but in fact, I'm advising myself....
How come after all those weeks, I still have that pang? I don't know if that pang is either me hating him or is it bad memories that I just don't wanna recall. But I'm super duper sure that it's not jelousy. I like him back then but it disappeared for like 5 years & it all came back like within 3 weeks? It's totally crazy & super fast paced... Don't you think? Its crazy... If I ever have to analyse that relationship, well, think before falling in love. I know that some of you would disagree with me becuz if you think before falling in love, then it defeats the purpose of cupid.....
ENOUGH!!!! I ain't gonna talk about love anymore... Just keeping myself busy with school...........
AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
'D'
'There's a danger in loving somebody too much.... And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust"
I'm back but not with any poems at the moment. I know for some readers, it's kinda boring... Especially love poems..... I finally found my fav love poem entittled " how do i love thee" It one famous love poem... I don't know how many people out there know it..
Yeah, I didn't go to BayBeats cuz I was moapping over the sudden departure of Sam... I really feel like giving him a PUNCH for not telling us in advance. Let that blue back be a reminder for him for not letting us know about him flying off to Perth. But then, I on the other hand must respect his decision... But to think of it, he really should tell the group so that we would be phycologically prepared...... Argh!!! That fella.... And did I tell you that our GPP has finally been approved. YEEEHHAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! Yupie!! Ironically, I remembered what Sam said last week about that last GPP being the final one & yeah, it was the final one....
I've got the pictures developed from the engagement. Yeah it was nicely done.. Except that Hana took some of the pics & it turn kinda blur.... What do you expect from a junior... God she ws using my manual camera.... Anyway, I think I wanna bring my camera for Saturday's TAPESTRY gig at Far East. Hey, Fred's performing... Gotta give some support for your schoolmates.... Don't you think? I forgot to ask Fariz just now about this Saturday.. I hope I can make it cuz there's gonna be PARENTS' DAY in school.. I hope that I don't need to go...... And at the same time, I'm gonna go out with my bestfriend in the whole wide world. Gonna do some catching up with her cuz she started working as an ASSISTANT ACCOUNTANT. That girl, boleh tahan...... She's working already....
Hummm.... I wonder when she's gonna gimme a treat on her payday.. *hint* *hint*
I was viewing Big_Fella's blog & the pics from the GARAGE brought back memories... Sweet memories.... But it turned sour in the end... I always know deep down something sweet can never last forever cuz it'll go stale one day... AND TURN SOUR!!! And it made me remember about one crude remark he said to me... But hey, it was back then... What can you do to turn back the clock? How can you turn back the hands of time... I mean if it was possible, then I'll never ever would be ever attached to him in the first place... Remember, we both had a history....D, why are you talking about the past? It's over! You gotta move on... And you got loads of work to do... It'll keep you busy..I mean, hey its fun being attached but it has it's consequences...... Like a crazy hp bill, emotional situations & definately LOVE SICK. URGH!!!
From my personal experience, being attached as in, your serious about your relatioship, you always have something to look forward too. May it be the msg on your hp, the date that you have for the weekend or even the conversation that last till like 3am in the morning... And I believe there'll gonna be other upcoming surprises. It all makes one forget about the consequences of being attached cuz you feel like your in CLOUD 9. It's like your in a trance whereby you wouldn't mind waking up feeling sleepy the next morning or coming back on Monday from a tired weekend.... I know that keeping yourself busy is just temporary....... Make me forget for a while that I have no one to love......
But then, how long will it keep you busy? Who are you gonna share that hapiness one day? God I sound as though I'm advising Darwin but in fact, I'm advising myself....
How come after all those weeks, I still have that pang? I don't know if that pang is either me hating him or is it bad memories that I just don't wanna recall. But I'm super duper sure that it's not jelousy. I like him back then but it disappeared for like 5 years & it all came back like within 3 weeks? It's totally crazy & super fast paced... Don't you think? Its crazy... If I ever have to analyse that relationship, well, think before falling in love. I know that some of you would disagree with me becuz if you think before falling in love, then it defeats the purpose of cupid.....
ENOUGH!!!! I ain't gonna talk about love anymore... Just keeping myself busy with school...........
AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
'D'
'There's a danger in loving somebody too much.... And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust"
Saturday, July 17, 2004
Here's somthing I got from a pile of old books. It's written by Shamil. I guess he wrote it for Sab back then when he was wooing her. Here it goes.....
Enough?
I llove You
That's all I know
Give me a clue
As that all I need to show?
The Romeo says
It's a fume of sighs
Which i think is qiute true
But secretly c'mon
So do you
Fumes of sighs it may be
Glorified by majority
Supposed to bring ecstasy
But grow up little child
Not to all can't you see?
Some think it vile
For it can hurt like nothing can
Leaving scars for another to mend
For some no one can
Some too deep,
For even a friend
Don't get caught up that's all I can say
For love is blind as far as I can see
Some get serious some just play
But it's all about finding someone worthy
But that's just another dream......
Nicely done don't you think? Well that's why it got published in the school literary review..... And I think he meant it well too... Sab, your one lucky gal...
'D'
Enough?
I llove You
That's all I know
Give me a clue
As that all I need to show?
The Romeo says
It's a fume of sighs
Which i think is qiute true
But secretly c'mon
So do you
Fumes of sighs it may be
Glorified by majority
Supposed to bring ecstasy
But grow up little child
Not to all can't you see?
Some think it vile
For it can hurt like nothing can
Leaving scars for another to mend
For some no one can
Some too deep,
For even a friend
Don't get caught up that's all I can say
For love is blind as far as I can see
Some get serious some just play
But it's all about finding someone worthy
But that's just another dream......
Nicely done don't you think? Well that's why it got published in the school literary review..... And I think he meant it well too... Sab, your one lucky gal...
'D'
Friday, July 16, 2004
Memoirs Of Darwin.......
Here's some stuff I wrote back then while I was still with Darwin.
Your Presences
Your presence
In my life
Brought a new light
A new set of possibilities
Hope & dreams
Your presence
In my life
Taught me things
Which I never thought
I could ever handle before
Your presence
In my life
Brought a change
In my life experience
Your Precence
In my life
Made me think
About what
I wanna be
Your presence
In my life
Showed me the light
And be what I wanna be
We both have this really classic love story. Except for the ending. Mon, Sab, Deena, Nom all thought that I'm gonna be the first to get married cuz of the length of the relationship I was having with Darwin. But in the end, it was Deena who got married first. Made her a bouquet of ferero roche flowers. My trademark.
Darwin & I wrote poems to each other. He's in Malay & I on the other hand, in English. Hahahaha!!!!! I think if I start digging up all the old letters that he gave me, well its gonna be a whole load of stuff to read. Hey, both of us were in our first relationship... It was a typical love story. But it didn't ended that way........
About my PW group thing, I think some of my classmates are gonna be suprised. I mean Sam has the personal touch to the whole class. When I told Fad about what happened, the first thing that he said was, " There goes my SPRITE ICE cup team". Fad Fad..
I wonder how Sam's doing now....... Getting ready to make his trip to Australia.......
How can I ever get a good life? This whole PW thingy is really taking away my social life. I think I'm a walking zombie now.... Too many things on my mind....
Oh yeah, today's driving was ok but more on the bad side. I really have no idea how I'm gonna do for the test. With all these things bugging me, oh my god!!!!
D, why can't you focus.....
I feel like breaking down & start crying... I don't know how to be strong. Be resilient. To perservere. How do I stand strong? Will I make it or will I break it?
Should I go to BayBeats tomorrow? I don't know.....
AAARRRGGGGHHH!!!!!!
This whole thing is really making me all hay wired!!!
HELP!!
'D'
Your Presences
Your presence
In my life
Brought a new light
A new set of possibilities
Hope & dreams
Your presence
In my life
Taught me things
Which I never thought
I could ever handle before
Your presence
In my life
Brought a change
In my life experience
Your Precence
In my life
Made me think
About what
I wanna be
Your presence
In my life
Showed me the light
And be what I wanna be
We both have this really classic love story. Except for the ending. Mon, Sab, Deena, Nom all thought that I'm gonna be the first to get married cuz of the length of the relationship I was having with Darwin. But in the end, it was Deena who got married first. Made her a bouquet of ferero roche flowers. My trademark.
Darwin & I wrote poems to each other. He's in Malay & I on the other hand, in English. Hahahaha!!!!! I think if I start digging up all the old letters that he gave me, well its gonna be a whole load of stuff to read. Hey, both of us were in our first relationship... It was a typical love story. But it didn't ended that way........
About my PW group thing, I think some of my classmates are gonna be suprised. I mean Sam has the personal touch to the whole class. When I told Fad about what happened, the first thing that he said was, " There goes my SPRITE ICE cup team". Fad Fad..
I wonder how Sam's doing now....... Getting ready to make his trip to Australia.......
How can I ever get a good life? This whole PW thingy is really taking away my social life. I think I'm a walking zombie now.... Too many things on my mind....
Oh yeah, today's driving was ok but more on the bad side. I really have no idea how I'm gonna do for the test. With all these things bugging me, oh my god!!!!
D, why can't you focus.....
I feel like breaking down & start crying... I don't know how to be strong. Be resilient. To perservere. How do I stand strong? Will I make it or will I break it?
Should I go to BayBeats tomorrow? I don't know.....
AAARRRGGGGHHH!!!!!!
This whole thing is really making me all hay wired!!!
HELP!!
'D'
MaJOr BomB!!
You'll never guess what a major bomb Mrs Wee dropped on us. I just got the news like a couple of minutes ago. As usual, i'm still in a daze...... This is was happen to me whenever some news hit me. I totally suprised that something like this could happen.... I'm kinda STONED now.... I don't know what to do. It means that our group have to do alot of work. ALOT of work.
Sean is doing the report while Jing Ting & me would have to do alot of research & stuff... Thank god our team can work together. See lah, when one team is so fine working together and all & things like this just spoils it all. But what can we do. We cannot forsee the future.... I mean if I knew that things like this can happen, then I could try the mental preparation thing.. IT'S ALL TOO SHOCKING...
Putting myself in Sam's shoes, what can he do. If my parents tells me to go, then I' ll go. What choice do i have? I'll follow my parents...
What my team have to do now is to work super hard because we are short handed. I mean it'll be sad to see our team disbanded. After all the things that we as a group have done together. And how 'ON' we were about our topic. It'll be a waste. And at the rate of our GPP that has been done compared to the teachers said, it'll be a waste. All that effort going down the drain.... And from Monday, I have no one on the right to sit with. Oh I'm gonna miss him. And Sean will have no one to talk about soccer the next time we have a meeting. There'll be no more corny jokes & remarks from him. And Pavi won't have any remarks by him. Irwan will take over him for Pavi...
Hey I think I've gotta go for driving. Toddles.
Sean is doing the report while Jing Ting & me would have to do alot of research & stuff... Thank god our team can work together. See lah, when one team is so fine working together and all & things like this just spoils it all. But what can we do. We cannot forsee the future.... I mean if I knew that things like this can happen, then I could try the mental preparation thing.. IT'S ALL TOO SHOCKING...
Putting myself in Sam's shoes, what can he do. If my parents tells me to go, then I' ll go. What choice do i have? I'll follow my parents...
What my team have to do now is to work super hard because we are short handed. I mean it'll be sad to see our team disbanded. After all the things that we as a group have done together. And how 'ON' we were about our topic. It'll be a waste. And at the rate of our GPP that has been done compared to the teachers said, it'll be a waste. All that effort going down the drain.... And from Monday, I have no one on the right to sit with. Oh I'm gonna miss him. And Sean will have no one to talk about soccer the next time we have a meeting. There'll be no more corny jokes & remarks from him. And Pavi won't have any remarks by him. Irwan will take over him for Pavi...
Hey I think I've gotta go for driving. Toddles.
Thursday, July 15, 2004
Of all things, y FILING?????
Stupid *tut*....
Thing's been fucking up in school. Loads of work that are really sickening... Can you believe this, at this level of education, the *tut* is still checking our files... Look at *tut* school, *tut* does stuff to control the students but they are not performing. Brainless egoistic *tut*. Look at Mizra, our top student last year. Back then we didn't have any handphone rules, checking of file, greeting back a teacher when she makes annoucement and we were performing ok. Our GCE 'A' results were better and overall, our general performance were better than that *tut* school whom she takes so much control over. Imagine this, our top student had all DISTINCTIONS for his 'A's without any handphone rules, SRPs, enrichment program which is completely useless and long time tables. And guess what their school top score. 1 A 2 Bs. Pathetic!!! It all boils dowm to self responsibility and being considerate to others while using the phone. Its not a form of distraction if one can control the usage. Look at how Mr Amir trained us while he was our DM. Beneficial & effective. He treats us so maturely and in a very rational manner. We even have each other's hp no.
Lets think it this way, people know that your in school so they won't call you except for parents who msges on their child's hp for important but not crucial matters such as MOMMY HAS TO SEND GRANNY TO THE CLINIC BECAUSE SHE'S SICK. Or DADDY'S PICKING YOU UP TODAY AFTER SCHOOL COZ HE IS DONE WITH HIS MEETING.... Who in the bloody right of mind would call the school to pass this kind of messages via school office?? That fella must be NUTZ!!!
This is the reason why parents give their children handphone. So that they would not need to worry. Its a blessing if one knows how to use it. And one more thing, its very very very irrational to say that you can only use the phone in the canteen. I mean, hello, the canteen is also very noisy. And what if you were waiting for your dad by the gym & he's not at the carpark yet. Would you make your way to the canteen just to make a phone call to check why your dad has not arrived? People make decision without being open minded. I think this is the reason why MOE has changed it motto to THINKING SCHOOL, LEARNING NATION. I believe it applies to teachers too.
Today was sobering as ever. Played floorball today. 5 a side. It was fun playing but if Amir was there, it would stirr up some madness. The way he likes to disturb people & all that. Just now, the floorball hit my boobs & they are painful now... You know when you touch it, it hurts... Imagine one fast hard little ball hit your boobs girls.... It hurts... PHAM!!! Ouch! Saw how Nigel played just now with Andrew. It was funny cuz Nigels accidentally threw his stick while playing & he used his legs instead. Like soccer. It was one funny game. Then Azar played, that fella, jumped & did a somersault when he scored a goal. Like soccer. It was funny. And Ain & Andrew trying to hit but missed shooting thrice. It was all funny. And Irwan's body damn bloody strong lah. He blocked me but somehow hurt me too... His body is strong... I'll get sores if i ever have to defend him.... Pain you jnow palying with these rough guys. Thank god Sean was on my side cuz he's one rough player......
Talked to Reena to ask her about that fella & she said that the fella wasn't around... HAH!! Then we talked about something else which i'm not saying.... Its a complicated issue that can stir up a major comotion... Better be safe than sorry....
Came across my book of poems while I was searching my notes for the filing... Its something that i've not done for a while... I don't know when will I ever pick poetry again.. And photography.... Argh!!! Been so busy... I thought that when I get back from Trengganu, it'll be a retreat but it wasn't. The moment school started last week, things were in full swing. One load to another.....
ARGH!!!!! This is SICK!! And I think I'm gonna fall sick soon. Monday was bad. Did the QIGONG that Mrs Heng taught me while she was driving. Yes its effective and SHIOK!! That high feeling after doing it. And you feel revitalised. OOOOHHHHH!!!!
This morning it was raining superbly heavy. Mrs Heng drove superbly slow because visiblility was poor. And the wiper of her MERCEDES BENZ went very fast. That car is one of a kind. Look at the technology that Merc put in it. It marvals me why Japanese of Asian cars can't be like that. See how Germans put pride into their work..
I think my back needs a break. Get back to you soon. And wish me best of luck for my driving..........
TOOOOOOOOODLES!
Thing's been fucking up in school. Loads of work that are really sickening... Can you believe this, at this level of education, the *tut* is still checking our files... Look at *tut* school, *tut* does stuff to control the students but they are not performing. Brainless egoistic *tut*. Look at Mizra, our top student last year. Back then we didn't have any handphone rules, checking of file, greeting back a teacher when she makes annoucement and we were performing ok. Our GCE 'A' results were better and overall, our general performance were better than that *tut* school whom she takes so much control over. Imagine this, our top student had all DISTINCTIONS for his 'A's without any handphone rules, SRPs, enrichment program which is completely useless and long time tables. And guess what their school top score. 1 A 2 Bs. Pathetic!!! It all boils dowm to self responsibility and being considerate to others while using the phone. Its not a form of distraction if one can control the usage. Look at how Mr Amir trained us while he was our DM. Beneficial & effective. He treats us so maturely and in a very rational manner. We even have each other's hp no.
Lets think it this way, people know that your in school so they won't call you except for parents who msges on their child's hp for important but not crucial matters such as MOMMY HAS TO SEND GRANNY TO THE CLINIC BECAUSE SHE'S SICK. Or DADDY'S PICKING YOU UP TODAY AFTER SCHOOL COZ HE IS DONE WITH HIS MEETING.... Who in the bloody right of mind would call the school to pass this kind of messages via school office?? That fella must be NUTZ!!!
This is the reason why parents give their children handphone. So that they would not need to worry. Its a blessing if one knows how to use it. And one more thing, its very very very irrational to say that you can only use the phone in the canteen. I mean, hello, the canteen is also very noisy. And what if you were waiting for your dad by the gym & he's not at the carpark yet. Would you make your way to the canteen just to make a phone call to check why your dad has not arrived? People make decision without being open minded. I think this is the reason why MOE has changed it motto to THINKING SCHOOL, LEARNING NATION. I believe it applies to teachers too.
Today was sobering as ever. Played floorball today. 5 a side. It was fun playing but if Amir was there, it would stirr up some madness. The way he likes to disturb people & all that. Just now, the floorball hit my boobs & they are painful now... You know when you touch it, it hurts... Imagine one fast hard little ball hit your boobs girls.... It hurts... PHAM!!! Ouch! Saw how Nigel played just now with Andrew. It was funny cuz Nigels accidentally threw his stick while playing & he used his legs instead. Like soccer. It was one funny game. Then Azar played, that fella, jumped & did a somersault when he scored a goal. Like soccer. It was funny. And Ain & Andrew trying to hit but missed shooting thrice. It was all funny. And Irwan's body damn bloody strong lah. He blocked me but somehow hurt me too... His body is strong... I'll get sores if i ever have to defend him.... Pain you jnow palying with these rough guys. Thank god Sean was on my side cuz he's one rough player......
Talked to Reena to ask her about that fella & she said that the fella wasn't around... HAH!! Then we talked about something else which i'm not saying.... Its a complicated issue that can stir up a major comotion... Better be safe than sorry....
Came across my book of poems while I was searching my notes for the filing... Its something that i've not done for a while... I don't know when will I ever pick poetry again.. And photography.... Argh!!! Been so busy... I thought that when I get back from Trengganu, it'll be a retreat but it wasn't. The moment school started last week, things were in full swing. One load to another.....
ARGH!!!!! This is SICK!! And I think I'm gonna fall sick soon. Monday was bad. Did the QIGONG that Mrs Heng taught me while she was driving. Yes its effective and SHIOK!! That high feeling after doing it. And you feel revitalised. OOOOHHHHH!!!!
This morning it was raining superbly heavy. Mrs Heng drove superbly slow because visiblility was poor. And the wiper of her MERCEDES BENZ went very fast. That car is one of a kind. Look at the technology that Merc put in it. It marvals me why Japanese of Asian cars can't be like that. See how Germans put pride into their work..
I think my back needs a break. Get back to you soon. And wish me best of luck for my driving..........
TOOOOOOOOODLES!
Monday, July 12, 2004
Y do we have to do PW?????
GETTING MY LICENCE SSOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNN!!!!
Hey yah... Its been a couple of days since I've written an entry. Friday was driving, Saturday was that b'dae party & Sunday was the Sheila On 7 concert. The SO7 concert was great. Went with Danial & his friends. His friends were so so, ok lah. But Danial was totally out of his mind. He stood on the back rest of the chair & his friend supported him from the back & he held my shoulders. God he's heavy. So skinny yet so heavy.... The show was worth my $30 bucks though. Maybe the next time i'll go to the concert again if it was held here......
I'm totally drained today. Today was really sickening cuz all the teachers were asking for the files & they are due on Wednesday. Of all days..... All my subject. Management, Econs & PW. Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! I have no idea how on earth i'm able to do it all by Wednesday. And I'm super beat now. God knows how i'm gonna do the minutes today. Just feeling sick.....
I was talking to Rachel, the gal who scored the highest for GP, about Amir leaving... That girl is something man.. She's quiet but she's full of stuff. The weird but cool weird. Known her for 3 years & yeah, we're cool... She's easy to get along with, a mixed blood & her fav word before the hols was "SHIT". And did I ever mentioned to you peeps that he has a lean & firm bod. She used to be as fat as me but because of running, she lost weight. So any available guys out there, this girl is not to be missed......YO Rach, if your readin this, sorry for the good publicity....
Anyway, she was saying that she lost her motivation to run & I kinda agree with her. With Amir not around. And never would Heikal ever replace Amir. He's the best.... Why Amir had to go?????
I was driving by Ubi Ave 1 today & I realised that that road is a very nice place to drive by. I thought of dropping Darwin a msg about his place but then again, maybe i won't cuz of our terrible history. Fine, if you wanna end it that way, fine, have it your way cuz I would never ever ever forget & forgive about what he has done to me.. Leaving me hanging for about 9 months. God if I was pregnant with his child, the child would never know who the father is... 9 months fellas.... 9 months... Its INSANE. The big question would be how I was able to recover, well, I myself don't know. Maybe its probably I was able to prepare myself phycologically... Maybe I don't know. And that could also be the reason why i was able to handle the break-up between Big Fella & me quite well. I wasn't as devastated as the time I found out about Darwin.
I think I'm gonna fall off the chair any moment cuz I'm too tired to do anything now... All I can think of is to sleep now... My brain's gone dead for today.. Dead.... Super dead........
DEAD 'D'
Hey yah... Its been a couple of days since I've written an entry. Friday was driving, Saturday was that b'dae party & Sunday was the Sheila On 7 concert. The SO7 concert was great. Went with Danial & his friends. His friends were so so, ok lah. But Danial was totally out of his mind. He stood on the back rest of the chair & his friend supported him from the back & he held my shoulders. God he's heavy. So skinny yet so heavy.... The show was worth my $30 bucks though. Maybe the next time i'll go to the concert again if it was held here......
I'm totally drained today. Today was really sickening cuz all the teachers were asking for the files & they are due on Wednesday. Of all days..... All my subject. Management, Econs & PW. Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! I have no idea how on earth i'm able to do it all by Wednesday. And I'm super beat now. God knows how i'm gonna do the minutes today. Just feeling sick.....
I was talking to Rachel, the gal who scored the highest for GP, about Amir leaving... That girl is something man.. She's quiet but she's full of stuff. The weird but cool weird. Known her for 3 years & yeah, we're cool... She's easy to get along with, a mixed blood & her fav word before the hols was "SHIT". And did I ever mentioned to you peeps that he has a lean & firm bod. She used to be as fat as me but because of running, she lost weight. So any available guys out there, this girl is not to be missed......YO Rach, if your readin this, sorry for the good publicity....
Anyway, she was saying that she lost her motivation to run & I kinda agree with her. With Amir not around. And never would Heikal ever replace Amir. He's the best.... Why Amir had to go?????
I was driving by Ubi Ave 1 today & I realised that that road is a very nice place to drive by. I thought of dropping Darwin a msg about his place but then again, maybe i won't cuz of our terrible history. Fine, if you wanna end it that way, fine, have it your way cuz I would never ever ever forget & forgive about what he has done to me.. Leaving me hanging for about 9 months. God if I was pregnant with his child, the child would never know who the father is... 9 months fellas.... 9 months... Its INSANE. The big question would be how I was able to recover, well, I myself don't know. Maybe its probably I was able to prepare myself phycologically... Maybe I don't know. And that could also be the reason why i was able to handle the break-up between Big Fella & me quite well. I wasn't as devastated as the time I found out about Darwin.
I think I'm gonna fall off the chair any moment cuz I'm too tired to do anything now... All I can think of is to sleep now... My brain's gone dead for today.. Dead.... Super dead........
DEAD 'D'
Thursday, July 08, 2004
MI is geting worst..........
Haiz......
What a sucker! School's really boring cuz PW really draining our brains out. Sean was super quiet today. And when teachers were walking for observation, well we were awfully quiet. I think all of us were brain dead. I mean, what else is wrong with our project. We're all so bored about our GPP being rejected for over a thrillion times. AARRGGHH!!!!!!!
Uhm.... what else? Oh yah, Amir isn't around anymore & we miss him alot. Big time. I mean while we were playing floorball, all of us feel that something is missing, our dearest MR AMIR. We miss his training, his sarcasism, him teasing our class, him 'kacau'ing us, him scolding us... I never knew that he would be dearly missed. And yeah, today Mr Heikal almost confiscated Pavi's phone cuz she was using it in front of him. His approach was rather different from Mr Amir, the funny but not funny type. Bottom line, he's LAME! The tak menjadi kind. Yeah, at first I found him ok but now that Amir's gone, he's nothing compared to Amir. I mean, with Amir, u can get into personal stuff with him like he teasing Carol about Matthew kinda thing. With Heikal, its like you have to draw a line with him. And on top of that, Pavi's skirt was short but what is it compared to the girls' skirts in Toh Tuck. And i noticed that the JI traditions can be kept but not the OI's. DO U THINK ITS FAIR? And the sports day was super boring & lame. Totally. I remembered last year's sports day, it was AWESOME!!!! We played water game & everyone was drenched when the thing ended. And Amir kena sabo with water.... It was bad & fun. Trust our people to cook up some fun activity.. It'll swell. And who in the right sane of mind would ever forget chilling out at Mizra's place with Fariz, Shamil, Farehan, Engku, Linda, Sab, Herfah & me. It was one unforgettable moment that neither of us can ever forget. Too bad some of them are serving NS now & we don't meet anymore... Who would ever forget two guys kissing.... I know, OH MY GOD!!!
Another time was the post-promo camp at Labrador Park. Never trust Amir to belay u cuz he'll give alot of slack & u'll feel that u'll fall off. And with Bob Chen together with Amir, total madness... I finally got to see the true colours of Amir & Bob Chen.... Amir wearing black & laid dowm in total darkness on the middle of the jungle.... I know that he's objective was to keep an eye on us while we made our way thru the jungle... It was funny seeing Rezal mimicking it all out... It was 100% comical.... First it was Bob Chen who was out from our school next came Amir.... Haiz..... The two will be missed dearly.... (Sound's like they died)
I msged Big Fella just now but it seems that he doesn't wanna talk to me ever.... More like just saying for the sake of saying... Big Fella, if u don't wanna talk to me ever say so lah, u don't need to beat ard the bush. I'm too sick & tired to deal with it. Wanna say it, say it straight... After what Darwin did to me, i doubt i'll could ever stand being with someone who beats ard the bush. Learnt my lesson well... A little too well.... And for the first time in ages, I didn't have the urge to tell him that the weather is good... U know that FEELING, to cuddle, snuggle kinda thing...
I asked myself what went wrong between Hezy_Monster & me & I suddenly remembered what slipped out of my tongue when we were on our way home from the MUSICAL. I think what I said might hurt his feelings... And that triggered him to lose the chemistry for me... Hey if ur reading this, well, just to tell ya that the reason y i kept quiet when u got off at your station was because keepig quiet was the only way from making me cry... I didn't wanted to created a scene so I kept quiet.. Just kept quiet.... Sorry if I seemed rude for not seeing you off...
I think I've spilled a little too much for today. Gotta get back to the stupid PW... Toddles.....MUACKX! MUACKX! MUACKX! MUACKX! MUACKX! MUACKX!
What a sucker! School's really boring cuz PW really draining our brains out. Sean was super quiet today. And when teachers were walking for observation, well we were awfully quiet. I think all of us were brain dead. I mean, what else is wrong with our project. We're all so bored about our GPP being rejected for over a thrillion times. AARRGGHH!!!!!!!
Uhm.... what else? Oh yah, Amir isn't around anymore & we miss him alot. Big time. I mean while we were playing floorball, all of us feel that something is missing, our dearest MR AMIR. We miss his training, his sarcasism, him teasing our class, him 'kacau'ing us, him scolding us... I never knew that he would be dearly missed. And yeah, today Mr Heikal almost confiscated Pavi's phone cuz she was using it in front of him. His approach was rather different from Mr Amir, the funny but not funny type. Bottom line, he's LAME! The tak menjadi kind. Yeah, at first I found him ok but now that Amir's gone, he's nothing compared to Amir. I mean, with Amir, u can get into personal stuff with him like he teasing Carol about Matthew kinda thing. With Heikal, its like you have to draw a line with him. And on top of that, Pavi's skirt was short but what is it compared to the girls' skirts in Toh Tuck. And i noticed that the JI traditions can be kept but not the OI's. DO U THINK ITS FAIR? And the sports day was super boring & lame. Totally. I remembered last year's sports day, it was AWESOME!!!! We played water game & everyone was drenched when the thing ended. And Amir kena sabo with water.... It was bad & fun. Trust our people to cook up some fun activity.. It'll swell. And who in the right sane of mind would ever forget chilling out at Mizra's place with Fariz, Shamil, Farehan, Engku, Linda, Sab, Herfah & me. It was one unforgettable moment that neither of us can ever forget. Too bad some of them are serving NS now & we don't meet anymore... Who would ever forget two guys kissing.... I know, OH MY GOD!!!
Another time was the post-promo camp at Labrador Park. Never trust Amir to belay u cuz he'll give alot of slack & u'll feel that u'll fall off. And with Bob Chen together with Amir, total madness... I finally got to see the true colours of Amir & Bob Chen.... Amir wearing black & laid dowm in total darkness on the middle of the jungle.... I know that he's objective was to keep an eye on us while we made our way thru the jungle... It was funny seeing Rezal mimicking it all out... It was 100% comical.... First it was Bob Chen who was out from our school next came Amir.... Haiz..... The two will be missed dearly.... (Sound's like they died)
I msged Big Fella just now but it seems that he doesn't wanna talk to me ever.... More like just saying for the sake of saying... Big Fella, if u don't wanna talk to me ever say so lah, u don't need to beat ard the bush. I'm too sick & tired to deal with it. Wanna say it, say it straight... After what Darwin did to me, i doubt i'll could ever stand being with someone who beats ard the bush. Learnt my lesson well... A little too well.... And for the first time in ages, I didn't have the urge to tell him that the weather is good... U know that FEELING, to cuddle, snuggle kinda thing...
I asked myself what went wrong between Hezy_Monster & me & I suddenly remembered what slipped out of my tongue when we were on our way home from the MUSICAL. I think what I said might hurt his feelings... And that triggered him to lose the chemistry for me... Hey if ur reading this, well, just to tell ya that the reason y i kept quiet when u got off at your station was because keepig quiet was the only way from making me cry... I didn't wanted to created a scene so I kept quiet.. Just kept quiet.... Sorry if I seemed rude for not seeing you off...
I think I've spilled a little too much for today. Gotta get back to the stupid PW... Toddles.....MUACKX! MUACKX! MUACKX! MUACKX! MUACKX! MUACKX!
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
Ka|eidosCopia
This is the first entry ever. My very own blog. Mine & mine only.
My trip to Trengganu was good. As usual, every time i travel, its like i never bring enough bags cuz of shopping. I never look like a shopaholic in S'pore but when i'm abroad, foowh!My bags are full. My all time fav place to shop are LA & Turkey. I know even though i've been to Turkey once, it was love at first sight. South Africa was more of good scenery but Turkey, it's dual combo. GOOD Shopping & GOOD scenery.
What initiated me into writing into a blog, well i think i've outgrew writing a diary. I've always loved reading & writing. But i ain't a good writer. Things that had happened around me was
the cause...
Anyway, i've got PW to do.. Catch ya later
My trip to Trengganu was good. As usual, every time i travel, its like i never bring enough bags cuz of shopping. I never look like a shopaholic in S'pore but when i'm abroad, foowh!My bags are full. My all time fav place to shop are LA & Turkey. I know even though i've been to Turkey once, it was love at first sight. South Africa was more of good scenery but Turkey, it's dual combo. GOOD Shopping & GOOD scenery.
What initiated me into writing into a blog, well i think i've outgrew writing a diary. I've always loved reading & writing. But i ain't a good writer. Things that had happened around me was
the cause...
Anyway, i've got PW to do.. Catch ya later
Monday, July 05, 2004
How do I
How do I hate someone?
How do I forget?
How do I walk away?
How do I move on?
How do I start anew?
I though of doing a sonnet but who in the sane of mind would wanna read 14 lines of 'How do I'?
Here's something sincere that i wrote for someone who was sincere but now i just hate him as my ex, not my friend...
Wish it could last a little longer
But i knew too well it can't
What happened just happened
Let it be 'K' or any other way
Let it stay where it ought to stay
As part of our memory it will be
As it was reality, momentarily
Hah! I can't believe that i can still write... D oh D, it's still in you.
Its an impromptu one. I'll write more in the new future!
I'm writing this from school now cuz of PW. Stupid PW! All alone in the comp lab. Plugged in my headphones & I'm listening to the radio now.
The poem above was written for someone whom i'm currently hate.The hate is different from hating Darwin. That 1st class jerk is totally number one on my hit list. No one will ever take that spot. I mean, he's my first and the fact that we lasted for 5 yrs makes it worst. Like the song, 'THE FIRST CUT IS THE DEEPEST.
Hezy_Monster was sincere, fun & definately UNEXPECTED. Like I said before, it was a 'passer'. I don't know how I came up with the word but it just did. Weird don't you think, friends to couple to friends. I just hate Hezy_Monster but not Big Fella.
What is happening to me? Maybe it would be better for us to be friends, not attached. Fariz saw the pic in my diary & he said we looked attached. But i told him that we're 'detached'. Hahahaha!!!
My monster's gone. No one to snuggle & cuddle with. I doubt i'll ever be attached in the near future. Doubt it.
What should I be looking forward to now? Uhm.... Maybe my driving? And definately shopping. I thought of getting a new pair of shoe. I saw a KED'S shoe that day at Bugis. That brand is totally old skool. I wore that brand when i was in Sec 1. The new design looks very old skool. It'll look nice with my capris. My Vans shoe needs a break. God! I've been using that shoe for 4 years. Its quite worn off...
Oh yah, my test is on the 22/7. Wish me best of luck for my test... Catch ya later.
Toddles.
How do I forget?
How do I walk away?
How do I move on?
How do I start anew?
I though of doing a sonnet but who in the sane of mind would wanna read 14 lines of 'How do I'?
Here's something sincere that i wrote for someone who was sincere but now i just hate him as my ex, not my friend...
Wish it could last a little longer
But i knew too well it can't
What happened just happened
Let it be 'K' or any other way
Let it stay where it ought to stay
As part of our memory it will be
As it was reality, momentarily
Hah! I can't believe that i can still write... D oh D, it's still in you.
Its an impromptu one. I'll write more in the new future!
I'm writing this from school now cuz of PW. Stupid PW! All alone in the comp lab. Plugged in my headphones & I'm listening to the radio now.
The poem above was written for someone whom i'm currently hate.The hate is different from hating Darwin. That 1st class jerk is totally number one on my hit list. No one will ever take that spot. I mean, he's my first and the fact that we lasted for 5 yrs makes it worst. Like the song, 'THE FIRST CUT IS THE DEEPEST.
Hezy_Monster was sincere, fun & definately UNEXPECTED. Like I said before, it was a 'passer'. I don't know how I came up with the word but it just did. Weird don't you think, friends to couple to friends. I just hate Hezy_Monster but not Big Fella.
What is happening to me? Maybe it would be better for us to be friends, not attached. Fariz saw the pic in my diary & he said we looked attached. But i told him that we're 'detached'. Hahahaha!!!
My monster's gone. No one to snuggle & cuddle with. I doubt i'll ever be attached in the near future. Doubt it.
What should I be looking forward to now? Uhm.... Maybe my driving? And definately shopping. I thought of getting a new pair of shoe. I saw a KED'S shoe that day at Bugis. That brand is totally old skool. I wore that brand when i was in Sec 1. The new design looks very old skool. It'll look nice with my capris. My Vans shoe needs a break. God! I've been using that shoe for 4 years. Its quite worn off...
Oh yah, my test is on the 22/7. Wish me best of luck for my test... Catch ya later.
Toddles.
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