Anyone ever told you that maybe you could be a Nanny / Babysitter? Well that's what's on my mind... Yes, I do love kids.... Had three younger 'siblings' after me...

This thing only struck me today... When I was still the groggy self... Yes, I'm suffering from some kind of stress... Making me sleep LESS.... And all that anxiety... Goodness!! I've never studied that much ever in my life.....

That's what struck me to be a Nanny/Babysitter..... I've always had a great time taking care of Akim & Aqilah.... These two cuties that had entered in my life.... They are so very adorable... Akim's now 1 yr 7 mths... Aqilah is now 4 yrs old.... Both of them are equally cute.... They are so very cute....

Imagine if life would just be that simple... Yes, having children is a lifetime commitment.... I have no quams about that. But they are so adorable... They make you forget about lots of stuff... They are adorable, loving, manja & all lah.... And when you play with them, it'll make you forget that the games that u play with them are childish but its fun... Its like they are the apple of your heart/ eye... Is that how it goes?

I love the smell of babies... You know, the Johnson's baby powder smell.. And all that other stuff.. But honestly, I've never learnt how to bath a baby (6mths & above)... I think if its that bad, I'll end up bathing with the child too... I mean, that's the easiest.... And then, when it comes to baby shopping, oh goodness.... I had babies after me... And the age gap between me & my sis is 7 yrs apart.... So there's some things I can do cuz of experience due to that age period between 8-12yrs old. At that stage of your life, you'll learn some skills that would be useful for the rest of your life... Make milk, change diapers, play with them, make sure that they are bathed & are cleaned at the certain period..... And going out, gheez.... With the stroller & stuff.... Whenever I'm out with Akim & her mom, I would usually be with Akim.... And I'll talk to him, in proper language... Cuz they listen & grasps things well & it would be an added advantage if you speak to them in the right language.... As in straight proper English.... That affects the upbringing of the child.....

Learnt this from the way my mom brought me up... Becuz I'm the eldest/first child, well, you can say that she was a full time housewife the moment I was born till I was 5... And it was that period of time that my mom taught me how to read & write. She bought for me books & I've been reading ever since... And amazingly, during that stage of my life, she actually picked up sewing as her hobby... So I would usually KEPO her when she does things.... That was how I picked up sewing... And loads of other of my DIY stuff...

All I can say is that, the first few years of a child is crucial... And its BAD being a sick child... I'm saying this from experience.... But in a way, I've learnt alot from being a big sis who is 7 yrs apart from my sis....... Its a blessing in disguise.... Even though my sis is really a pain in the butt at times... But yeah.... It's good...

Beat, bored but blessed & pure bliss

Beat, bored but blessed & pure bliss.........



Super super super busy with loads of stuff... Juggling a relationships with mugging & school... Honestly, its not that bad... Just be totally focused while studying & he really understands you with your studying, its pretty alright. It is.. And even though my time zone has been totally off with school work, its pretty fun.... And if the guy is the sweet type... AAAAWWWW!!!!


After mugging at Amu's place last night, I was totally buzzed off... KNOCK DOWN!! Dozing in the bus already... Got home ard 9.30 pm or so... Was smsing my dear along the way & sleeping... How? I don't know..... The moment I got home, totally ZOMBIED... Slept after my shower... By 10 pm, I was a gonner....

Then, at ard 1.30 or so, all sorts of ppl were msging me.. Amu told me to bring accounts notes lah, jo replying my sms lah, my dear asking me whether I was a sleep lah.... With all that, I was tossing & turning in bed till like 3 am... I end up calling my dear.... Spoke till like 4 am.... He was sleepy so I let him sleep... Got down to some out standing school work... But I guess I was really really really beat that at 5 am, I was dozing back to sleep... Got up at 6 am... Didn't felt like coming to school... I am beat... Still am....

Studying after school... I don't know where on earth I'm gonna get the strength.... SO VERY TIRED... And hey! I only spoke to my dear for like less then 1 hr.... And I was studying the other 23 hrs... Then in our conversation, I was speaking MALAY to him & he asked me why the heck I talk to him in MALAY... Most of the time I speak to him in English.. Like 95 % of the time... But last nite, 95 % Malay.... He went like, asal bebual melayu... I was beat & stuff... What do u expect?????

Can't Mess ard

Looks like some people just can't mess ard with me....


A couple of days ago, I've been absolutely busy with loads of stuff.. Exams... Mugging... Results.... What else is new for me???

And I am still.... Busy with stuff....

ASS SWINGING

ASS SWINGING PRELIMS

Yes.... Its crazy... They say love drives ya crazy but the exams drives you like 100x CRAZY.... Its never ending... Just never ending.... NEVER ENDING.... NEVER ENDING.....

Well, as usual, nothing much is happening but sticking my head in a book... Doing loads of writting.... With notes all over my room... Sleeping at 2 am & waking up 6.30 EVERY school day... Looking like a zombie EVERYDAY... And yesterday, when I stepped into Mrs Heng's car, the first thing that she said was ' WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR FACE????' I've got like 5 zits popping out on my face... Yes it SUCKS!! Big time.. And she was so nice to gimme this acne cream that's SUPER good... Yes, all these happen ALL BECAUSE OF STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday paper was MGT P1 & Econs P3... Yes I've spent like 3 hrs on Mgt writting my ESSAY answer & later after lunch, I spent another 2hrs 15 mins writting my essay.. For those who have taken ECONS, pls say a prayer for me... Wrote abt the Role of Government, Elasticity concept & then there's my fav... MACRO ECONOMICS... Where all that 5 main objectives comes in.. And the conflict... I just LOOOVVVEE them....

Yesterday's accounts P1 was like... SHIT!!!! Its crappy.... And Q1 &2 was theory... So there goes me, putting away my GIANT calculator & started writting my essay answers.... Headed out to Tekka with Amu for makan & got my juppa top... Got green, grey & brown... Nice... Very nice....

And when I got back, I was SSSOOOO tired... You can say that I was catching the OC in my DREAMS... Pretty tired.. By 9.30, I hit the sack.... Got up at 7.30 am this mrng.... And have been slacking after that.... Slack, Cleaned my bedroom, changed my bedsheets & reading a book... Yes, this is pretty much what I do when I'm stressed out... It also includes cleaning the house, baking & surfing the net... The other day, I made BANANA cake cuz I was too stressed... I used 2 sisir of bananas & one broad pan... I brought half to sch & distribute it to my teachers... And they wanted me to be MORE stressed so that I can make more for them... They said it was nice.... And it was their lunch........

Been thinking of redoing my room.... Re-arranging my books & stuff... Let's see how....

The other day, I was talking to a couple of my frens abt the Bintan trip that we had in March... We were just wondering why in the world would they put security guards at every villa so that the guys & gals won't end up in the same room... Were they afraid that we would do any hangky-pangky ? I mean, come on, we've stuck with each other for like 3 yrs already & we practically know everyone's characters very well.. And we can't even practically think of doing anything with them... YUCKS!! Puking big time.... Gheez!!

Prom's coming & I still don't know what to wear...........

Okies ppl.. Gotta chaoz!! Toodles...

Something old, something new,
Something borrowed & something blue




Presenting my favourite poem of all time....


Sonnet XLIII: How Do I Love Thee?(by Elizabeth Barrett Browning)



How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints.
I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life;and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.




A Dream Within A Dream(by Edgar Allan Poe)


Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

Make a guess what car that is... Tip: Check out the crest.... 

Check out the wheels.... 

Me & Nor.. How ironic... I'm in the pic with my wild hairdo & all & she's in tudung.... 

Tenung-menenung at one of the cafes that we hung out at Arab St... Nor, tenung ape girl... Waiting to turn 21 ke? 

Somewhere in the alley of Arab St.... 

Shimah has turned into an evil & wicked monster.... Help!!!!!!! 

everything ROX!

ECONOMICS ROX!
MANAGEMENT OF BUSINESS ROX!
PRINCIPLE OF ACCOUNTS ROX!
GENERAL PAPER ROX!


Yes that's how crappy I am right now.. Really sick in the brain I guess... So I'm baking cakes to destress myself. I made a Banana Loaf the other day.. It expanded twice in size & its yummy. Not too sweet & still maintaining that banana-ish taste.

Yesterday I was so very flat...KO-ed when I got back from school. After my Delifrance bread for lunch, I fell flat on my bed... The night before, Tuesday, I was doing my online test... And I had to hand it in before Wed 12 noon... Oh my goodness. I ended up sleeping at 3.30 AM. And I had econs lesson the next morning at 8.30 AM. As it turned out, I wasn't the only soul who slept at that wee hrs... Sahz & Amu slept at 3 am & 6 am respectively. I know its crazy cuz it is.. Sahz, Tini, Min, Shaheera & I sat in one row.. And the best part, Sahz, who like me, was crappy due to lack of sleep, sat beside me... Like they say, the blind leading the blind, but its more like the crappy leading the crappy for us... Tini asked for something and my reply for her was for something else.. Then Sahz pulak, confident bebual answer for another part while he was still far from that question. Dah tu, handwriting mcm cacing... Orang ngantuk.... See what they say, the crappy leading the crappy...


The moment I got home, took my shower, my bread lunch & slept till like 5 pm. I think I slept for like 4 hrs... Really beat man.. Dead beat...


Ok ppl... Gotta go cuz I've got my dental appointment later.... Still wondering what colour to put on my braces.... Orange & black? Dark blue & light blue? All black? Hmmmmmmm.......

Nothing much

PRELIMS ARE AROUND THE CORNER

Listening to Simple Plan that my sis just uploaded on the comp. I really don't know where she got them but hey, if its good, no prob....

I just got up, still in my tank & boxer... Just feeling so lazy.... No one's home & I've been dying to try the new wireless modem that I just bought.. I've upgraded to a 1500kbps plan... Yes I'm using broadband... Pretty ok...


The flowers that I bought on Wednesnday is still alive & kicking... Just changed the water in the vase... The trick is to put suger in the water... A tip from my brilliant sister, whom I know knows nuts about flowers... She just kept insisting that plants need suger for growth, so I added suger into the water... True enough, it lasted ... But you must trim the stem daily to keep it fresh...


The blast from the past pics, well I was trying in vain to add the NCO pics.. But I just couldn't find them.... Than you guys can see how 'slenge' I was back then when I was in Sec 2... And not forgetting, my dearest Joline girlfren... How we've turned a 5 days, 4 nights camp into a SMACKINGLY GREAT MEMORY / FRIENDSHIP ...


Yesterday was my GP prelims paper... Pretty alright... The question that I did for essay was
' Have the foreign talents resulted in a positive or negative impact on your society' . Honestly its more like Econs/ Management alright... There was one question that came out last year with the similar topic... Anyway, I wrote my essay with the proper structure... As in the intro, lead-in, stand then in each paragraph, the topic sentences, paragraph conclusion... And at the end, my twister & the conclusion for my whole essay... Anyone who have taken GP before, please
comment on my structure alright...

The whole school day yesterday was pretty boring in a way... There was Econs but other than that, we had to do this survey by MOE... After rushing back from break, we all did the survey... The instructions given was that we were given 45 mins to do the survey but it took us 15-20 mins to finish up the whole thing so when we were dismissed, we went for our break...

For GP lesson, it was free & easy.... So what those who have the comp in their hands, logged on.... Doing stuff... After like 45 mins or so, Sean, who was sitting beside me was on One Tree Friends... You know that disgusting, irritating & lame cartoons that get into accidents & trying the lamest ways to get out of it.. So there was Suhuf & me, sitting at at the same row as Sean, Huda, Min, Tini, Sahz & Arif at the row behind us, we watched the cartoons & laughed & laughed.. Till my gp teacher was commenting on our laughters... We all had our GP notes in our hands BUT our eyes were on Sean's comp, watching the cartoon.... Hahahaha!! It was crapy but it was fun... ( ",)

I finished my paper at 5.45 pm so by the time I reached home, it was almost 6.30pm. On my way home I got a phone call from home, telling me that we'll be having dinner outside... Mom didn't cook... So I showered & went out again... I was trying so very hard be back by 8.30pm to catch the season finale of Smallville.... It was 8.45 pm when we all got back... Didn't miss much of the happenings in the show... Slacked with my mom till 11 pm,where we both were catching our Fav Drama Cold Case.... After that, I dozed off...

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That's all I can write for right now... Toodles..