Back fromTimbre

Here I am, reporting after last night at Timbre.

It was alright. Totally like a bar concept. And if people like Sha or Nor came, they totally won't feel left out. There was LOADS of girls in tudung sitting around there. Anyway, it was more of coming down to support Fadil. Not there with other objectives in mind right?

The bands who performed was inititally boring but bands after Fadil's bands were good. Some were awesome. Like very good vocal projections & with proper diction. Will be uploading the video that was taken by dearest Wati on her N73. Bless that girl for having such a wonderful phone :)

Why is it that the high stool chairs that they have are so uncomfortable to be sat on if someone seats on it for more then 2hrs? By 10pm, Shannen, Wait & myself were plain tired from sitting. I ended up standing for a while Wati kept swithching chairs between the stool & the high chair. Shannen was like shaking her legs more often. Hahahaha! Signs of restlessness. And the best part was that Fadil & Hashim left to relax outside of Timbre because they also couldn't tahan the heat, loud music & sweaty people drinking. Baik!

When I got back, I was totally beat. I think it was more of beat from sitting on that chair rather than any other type of tiredness. I really don't understand how people can tahan in that kind of environment. And on top of that, it was smokey & with people drinking. Imagine what kind of damage it can do to your skin. Man, that's bad....

Bumped out...

Its like almost midnight and I can't sleep. Here I am, part lying on my lappy in my tanks, part snuggling under the comforters, typing away because I can't sleep. If anyone sees this, they wouldn't believe that its me.

Heading down to Timbre for Fad's gig. The monty crew will be there. Too bad I can't take pictures. My cam's not functioning & I've gotta fork out $200 to fix it. ARRRRGGGHH!!!

Anyway, yesterday, I was out with Herbie. He was just plain bored & I was back from the Olympus office, regarding my camera that's NON-FUNCTIONING.

Anyway, back to where I was, Yes, Mr Giant. When I walked by him, there's like a gap between us, in terms of height. And I had to speak slightly louder because I'm way down here while he's way up there. So I ended up having to speak louder. People might look at this little malay girl walking together with this GOLIATH next to me but I couldn't care less. Just enjoyed my company with this fantastic fella.

But what really got my blood boiling was when we were at Coffee Bean Paragon. He was accompanying me while I was waiting for my mom. Told him that it was not necessary for him to stay with me while I waited for my mom but him being a gentleman, wouldn't leave me. Anyway, back at Coffee Bean Paragon, when I was getting a seat while he got himself a drink, he told me that there was a group of female waitress was laughing at both of us when we got in. Maybe they were telling a joke & we coincidentally walked in the cafe. I don't know. So I'll just leave it at that. But when he told me that something fishy was going on over the counter, as if they were talking about us. Maybe they thought that we were couple. Herbie told me that when they took his order, the girls were being overzealously polite. Get the hint? Well, Herbie being Herbie, he's calm as ever... But even so, its not as though that they've never seen a couple with different races? Hello?! Singapore is a multi-racial country with the highest rate of mixed marriages. DUH?! *eyes rolling*

So does that mean that over those periods where I've studied with Lawrence at the library, people might think that we were a couple? Is this why Herbie kept telling me to quit hidding behind Lawrence while studying in the library?

Maybe I've been alone way too long. Not seeing anyone or having attempts in opening my radar. That is why I'm plain oblivious to the environment around me. And I can't get the slightest hint about any guy who tries to get my attention. Like I've said, just a plain GUN when it comes to these kinda of things.

My camera died on me

Here I am, typing away at 12mn. Something terrible has happened. My cam died on me. For no apparent reason. Been trying to get it to work but it can't. Which means that I've gotta go & sent for a fixing. I'm so irritated by it. Looks like for this weekend, I've gotta rely on my hp cam, which has a 2.0 mega pixel. AAARRRGGGHHH!!!

Waiting for Herbie's call. He said that he'll call me after my Criminal Minds. And he's not calling me yet... Hmmm... Maybe he fell asleep on the couch? Or maybe he himself is watching something good on tv. Or maybe he's playing this xbox. Deeply engrossed in his game. Let me tell you something, that guy can practically glue himself to his games alright. ;)

Won't write much for now. Still thinking of my cam. AAARRRGGHHH!! Hey, I love that fella alright. How could that happen to me. Its finishing is one of the best. And its so compact. Just as I was thinking of bringing it for Sat's show @ Timbre...

Alright people, gtg. Chao!!!

Growing Up

Does it mean that we have to be responsible in our thinking?
Or does it mean that we are given the opportunity to do some responsible thinking? Which is it?

I'm not only talking about parents giving us the opportunity to learn. It applies to boyfriends, girlfriends & friends too.

If we as kids are sheltered too much from our parents, I doubt we'll be learning some learning experiences. Don't tell me that you'll seek refuge at your parent's place whenever there's problems? Life experiences is hard but there's no easy way out. Without it, don't you think that they'll ever call it life experiences.They say, learn from mistakes. But as an individual with the brains given by god, use it. It has to be a reason why its there. Some mistakes are just plain JACKASS stupidity. Others, well, it's unavoidable. Which is why, as an individual, gauge yourself. Know your limits. Set your boundaries. Choose your company wisely. These are the only thing that will mould you to what you are. Coupled with proper guidance from your parents & your teachers, you'll be a great individual.

I have to say that I'm blessed that my parents are very supportive of what I do. And I thank them for loving me when I'm very sick & when I'm fit. And now that I'm older, I feel that my parents have successfully brought me up well. Its funny how they inculcate certain values & morals into me when I was growing up. And somehow, it helped moulded me into what I am today. I do am grateful to have them as my parents. I thank them for allowing me to make mistakes too.

I feel that right now, as an individual, I have to say that things are given to me from a different perspective. Its like photography, where if you shoot from a different angle, you get a different lighting. Its the same as you see things right now. When I look at my life right now, I feel thankful for Darwin for letting me go. Thanks for letting me learn some things which I doubt I would have learnt if it didn't happened. As for Hezwan, well, thanks for being such a gentleman. After loads that had happened to us, you're still talking to me. All these falls into the boyfriends category where mistakes would have to be learnt without any shelter. It helps in making a stronger, wiser, sensitive yet emphathetic individuals.

My friends have also made me what I am today. They say that the friends that you made in your teen years are the ones who'll turn out to be friends for life. And you know why, these are the people whom you've spent most your time with while you were growing up. After all those hours of togetherness resulted to a bond that's like super glue with industrial strength. It definately develop you somehow. Maybe developing a concern for someone, the need to have a sense of belonging, the ability to tackle a rough spot tacfully or the toughest one being breaking them any bad news or advising them on some sensitive issues. Hopefully these can be a guide for upcoming life's expectations.


I've always say that I'm fat & ugly, so that's why there aren't guys going go-go ga-ga over me. I have to say that guys, well, after mixing long enough with them, they are the aesthetic people. Think of sex & you get the picture. What's on the inside is not a major concern. Sometimes, when I'm with my guy friends, they'll endlessly tell me that its unbelievable that I can't get attached for the past 4 years because they say I am chatty, friendly & talk with sense. But when I look at it, its more like they just like my company. That's all.

And right now, when I think about getting attached again, I'm afraid. Afraid that I'll make the same mistakes again. Sometimes you try your best to not repeat the mistakes but it happens, no matter how hard you try to avoid it. I feel that if i'm attached, I'll turn into this horrid witch who's very authocratic. I'm afraid I might be too possesive. I'm afraid that I would not be sensitive towards him. I'm afraid that I might not spent enough time with him. I'm afraid I can't meet him during my busy schedule. I'm afraid that he might not like the real me. The me when I'm sick or in my nonsensical self or pms-ing period. I'm afraid that I might be burdening him.

I don't know, maybe I should give myself a chance, give love a chance. Its still out there...

Funny that things can't be ceteris paribus

After talking to Herbie, it made me realise how a GUN I am when it comes to guys. Yes, its apparent to all that I'm chatty, very easy to talk to guys. Ya, that's one thing. But to a guy who u've grown interest with, that's when I'm a little SHY. Yes, its hard to believe that I'm shy. But its true...

It looks like Herbie has been trying a new plan to GET ME ATTACHED. He is the sweetest guy ever. Ever since I've been studying at the library, he has been trying to get me to quit hiding behind Lawrence so that a guy will come forward to me. And to make it worst, you wouldn't wanna know what I wore whenever I go studying. Tees with berms or capris or jeans & my Crocs. That's about it. Nothing more. Super slack.

Anyway, the other time, when a guy starts a conversation with me, well, initially I thought that he was just asking out of courtesy. But it seems that this fella's friend's been promoting him in our conversations. And its just now that I'm realising it. SUPER THE GUN I really am. After talking to Herbie, well he said " Come on lah, take the chance. Its not as if some guy would fall from the sky for you. There's no harm in getting to know a guy better. "
In some ways, what Herbie said is true. I'm not gonna correct him . It seems that even though I've known him for about a yr, he knows me better then any guy I've ever known. He's like the guy version of Amu. The fella who I can read between his laughter, look, lines & anything that you can think of without a single peep coming out of his mouth, He's sweet, great & damn tall... Girls, if your single & at least 1.7m, contact me so that I can intro you to this sweet guy...


And apparently, because now that both of us are free, he is devising a plan for me to date. I've given up ways for him to stop the plan but it doesn't work. So I just give up. Whatever goes, goes. If people ask, I'll just say that someone who is very concern about me is trying me to set up with a guy. Can't stop it cuz whatever ways I've tried, there's no way because he's big, tall & persistent.. And he has his ways to get it done even if I say no. He told me that we should look it like this, a favour. He's just concerned. That's all...

Funny how things work out. Back then, I've tried to get some of my gfs, who were single then, to get to know some of my guy friends. Now, its me on the receiving end. Now I know how it feels. Anxious, shy & nervous. That's all.. Nothing much...

I know that my previous entry says that I like things ceteris paribus but look at it now. Nothing is constant. Ha...

Lazying away on my bed with my lappy...

Lying on my bed,typing away. Yes, finally gotten the lappy. Of course I'm glad. Totally over the moon. Right now, just happily updating my blog...

If you ppl are wondering how my trip to Cameron Highland/KL went, oh well. It went splendid. I finally gotten my Mac powder. Super glad. And from what I've used since, its better than ZA. Less oily. Even the make-up guy told me about my oily skin condition. And when I used the MAC, well, lets say that there's less sheer, aka less oily.

What else did I get from KL? Souveniers for my frens, another Jodi Picoult book (Harvesting the Heart) & a Dorathy Perkins pants which was on sale. Didn't have any tops that I usually bought from Dorathy Perkins. That was from KLCC actually. Then at the lorongs, I bought more tudungs which I was running out off, some more souveniers for my frens who wears tudungs. And that was about it. And I kind of regretted not buying this top from Padini. Nah.. Its alright. There's always JB.. :)
So far, I'm only booked to go out with my crew on the 30th of June for a show @ Timbre. Yes, another one of YouthWreck's show. And 7th of July for TRANSFORMERS (ROBORTS IN DISGUISE). I'm glad that things are way back to normal between me & Fad. Long story. But things are back to normal.


Its without a doubt that I'm loving my crew loads. Yes, I may not be seeing anyone but I'm enjoying my freedom. I love it loads.. Half the time, I'm usually down at the library, studying. Locking myself up & letting the books & notes eat me up. Don't worry, I'm not a geek. Just having a variety of hobbies which are just on the opposite sides of a spectrum. The last time I was at the library, studying, Lawrence gave me a 411 on shares. From time to time, we'll be looking up the poems webbie and he'll be teaching me one or two things about shares. I was a downright gong-gong blur queen about shares. But now, hey, I do know a thing or two.. All thanks to Lawrence & staring at his Mac. And seeing him decide on whether to buy r sell shares.. :) And the occasional periods where sometime I feel like throwing him off the window whenever he says that he might fail, before he even sits for the paper... So sakit hati lah sometimes. Such great motivation eh??

When I'm not with my classmates, most of the time I'll be filling my time with my lovable gfs, sistaz & my crew. Nothing special. Gheez!! Imagine if I was attached, AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGHHHH!!!! Things would have been different. I doubt that I would be as happy as I am today. Right now, its all ME, MYSELF & I. Nobody to bug me, except for my parents who'll just ask me where I'm heading to when I'm making my way out. That's about it. Other than that, nah.. I can happily leave my house or even the country without anybody bugging me. Just liking the way things are right now and I hope that things will stay like this for the time being. They say it in latin, ceteris peribus....

Exams are over !!!!!!!!!

Exams are OH-VA!!!!

Exams are over! Exams are over! Yahoo Yahoo-hoo


Ok, officially a nuts. I think I've always been a nut. Hee! Hee! Hee! It seems that right now, I'm in my happy mood... Oh happy day...

Here's some shots that was taken when we( Sha, Lawrence, Jun & myself) went to catch Shrek 3 yesterday, right after our paper ended. When the paper was over, we piled into Pakcik's car.

I was smiling ear to ear when we made our way to the carpark because I was very confident of this paper. Plus, the communication question came out. The exact same question that was asked in yr 2 promo exams. And somehow, the answer was EMBEDDED in this thick round organic living thing underneath my skull. So, all I had to do was press the invisible 'retrieve' button & had the answer written within seconds...

The show was HILARIOUS!!! And I thought I laughed loudly, Pakcik was worst. He's like the loudest. So I wasn't embarassed when I loudly, because I know that I won't be the only one... Perks of laughing, man. Total therapy....

Went for dinner at Mac cuz the foodcourt was closing. And as usual, the Sharifa & I kena disturbed from start to begining... Alright, I'm used to pakcik, after all those hours of mugging together in the library. So, can tahan. To the extent that once he criticised me on my driving skills that before I could say anything,we went like 'I know what you're gonna say. Alright! Alright... (Losing the battle kinda way)'. Hahahaha!

Street Fest

SG Street Festival Children of 'D' Revolution

These are the pictures taken when I was down at the Street Fest over the weekend.. Some pictures can really make u all laugh. So its a great remedy for those who are just stressed out from work. Enjoy!!!

And another thing, The band's name is YouthWreck. As in YOUTHpark + shipWRECK= YOUTHWRECK. Get it??

All night....

Back to my blogging. Enjoyed myself yesterday at the picnic with 'Mum' & Fad's gig later on. There was so much to eat. And i brought my jelly. Beloved jelly of mine that I made on Wed afternoon. Cuz right now I'm using pakcik's MacBook, so I can't upload my pix on my hp. Will do it asap once I can get my hands on my comp at home aight..

Later on after the picnic, Nor drove Wati & I to PS for Fad's gig.. Enjoyed myself laughing with Ma' Crew.. All night..Hehehehe!!! Private joke. All thanks to Fad!!

And ya, thank goodness Fad took that extra bottle of mineral that I brought along with me. He lightened the weight of my bag which for your info, already consist of certain notes from school. When I told him, "Hey! I've got an extra bottle of Ice Mountain in my bag" you should see the look on his face. Super grateful look. I mean, at the rate that he was sweating & wiping his sweat, I'm not surprised that he won't go into dehydration soon.. And as I've told Adrian, we should get him a towel on his b'day.. Already we can see that he wore the guitar strap that we gave him for his b'day so we can see that he loves it

Alright my dear people. I've gotta go from here. When Sha came over to ask something about the computer misuse act, just makes m have the urgency to get back to my work. Chao!