Monday Bluezzzzz...............................

Heyah.....

I'm back but not with any poems at the moment. I know for some readers, it's kinda boring... Especially love poems..... I finally found my fav love poem entittled " how do i love thee" It one famous love poem... I don't know how many people out there know it..

Yeah, I didn't go to BayBeats cuz I was moapping over the sudden departure of Sam... I really feel like giving him a PUNCH for not telling us in advance. Let that blue back be a reminder for him for not letting us know about him flying off to Perth. But then, I on the other hand must respect his decision... But to think of it, he really should tell the group so that we would be phycologically prepared...... Argh!!! That fella.... And did I tell you that our GPP has finally been approved. YEEEHHAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! Yupie!! Ironically, I remembered what Sam said last week about that last GPP being the final one & yeah, it was the final one....

I've got the pictures developed from the engagement. Yeah it was nicely done.. Except that Hana took some of the pics & it turn kinda blur.... What do you expect from a junior... God she ws using my manual camera.... Anyway, I think I wanna bring my camera for Saturday's TAPESTRY gig at Far East. Hey, Fred's performing... Gotta give some support for your schoolmates.... Don't you think? I forgot to ask Fariz just now about this Saturday.. I hope I can make it cuz there's gonna be PARENTS' DAY in school.. I hope that I don't need to go...... And at the same time, I'm gonna go out with my bestfriend in the whole wide world. Gonna do some catching up with her cuz she started working as an ASSISTANT ACCOUNTANT. That girl, boleh tahan...... She's working already....
Hummm.... I wonder when she's gonna gimme a treat on her payday.. *hint* *hint*

I was viewing Big_Fella's blog & the pics from the GARAGE brought back memories... Sweet memories.... But it turned sour in the end... I always know deep down something sweet can never last forever cuz it'll go stale one day... AND TURN SOUR!!! And it made me remember about one crude remark he said to me... But hey, it was back then... What can you do to turn back the clock? How can you turn back the hands of time... I mean if it was possible, then I'll never ever would be ever attached to him in the first place... Remember, we both had a history....D, why are you talking about the past? It's over! You gotta move on... And you got loads of work to do... It'll keep you busy..I mean, hey its fun being attached but it has it's consequences...... Like a crazy hp bill, emotional situations & definately LOVE SICK. URGH!!!
From my personal experience, being attached as in, your serious about your relatioship, you always have something to look forward too. May it be the msg on your hp, the date that you have for the weekend or even the conversation that last till like 3am in the morning... And I believe there'll gonna be other upcoming surprises. It all makes one forget about the consequences of being attached cuz you feel like your in CLOUD 9. It's like your in a trance whereby you wouldn't mind waking up feeling sleepy the next morning or coming back on Monday from a tired weekend.... I know that keeping yourself busy is just temporary....... Make me forget for a while that I have no one to love......

But then, how long will it keep you busy? Who are you gonna share that hapiness one day? God I sound as though I'm advising Darwin but in fact, I'm advising myself....

How come after all those weeks, I still have that pang? I don't know if that pang is either me hating him or is it bad memories that I just don't wanna recall. But I'm super duper sure that it's not jelousy. I like him back then but it disappeared for like 5 years & it all came back like within 3 weeks? It's totally crazy & super fast paced... Don't you think? Its crazy... If I ever have to analyse that relationship, well, think before falling in love. I know that some of you would disagree with me becuz if you think before falling in love, then it defeats the purpose of cupid.....

ENOUGH!!!! I ain't gonna talk about love anymore... Just keeping myself busy with school...........
AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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'There's a danger in loving somebody too much.... And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust"