Looking Back

A couple of weeks ago I stepped into a relationship for just one night. Yes I know it was just for one night but it sure made me think alot about guys...

No, not that I'm saying that I have a negative picture painted in my mind about guys but for some reasons, however you hate them for what ever reasons, there will forever be a need for them. May it be for companionship, love, affection or sex, somewhere in every women, there's a need for a woman to be with a man.

When I stepped into that short relationship for just that one night, I really wonder whether there's any decent guy out there for me left. Someone who knows me well & likes me for who I am & not for how I look. Yes, I know where I stand when compared to some other girls that are way prettier than me but sometimes, it takes more than good looks to know a person's attributes.

But until that night, I realised on how much I've missed being attached & how grateful I am for having a great friend with me. How comfortable it was sitting together at night & just talked things through. How a hug & a cuddle seemed appropriate at ALL the right times...

Maybe I've stopped seeing & meeting guys for a while, which resulted to me just sticking to a couple of my old guy friends from school. May it be from OI, MI or Broadrick. And I thank god that these people are really nice gentlemen.

I don't know, maybe god has planned a path for me that is not as clear as others. Maybe the reason for that is for me to really think through hard enough for myself to make my choices in life. I am blessed that right now I am not seeing anyone because I have plans & goals to achieve without the existence of a significant other yet. Who knows, maybe this significant other will appear once my goals & ambitions have been achieved.



Right now, I've got loads of things to get back to. Such as school which starts on the 4th. And I also am looking for promotions for a short trip to Malaysia. Going with my beloved SISTAZ.. Looking for good promotions to resorts & maybe cruises. Just looking ard to co-ordinate the schedules & all... Gosh! I am so excited about the trip...