Just bite the bullet and move on.
Its all easier said than done. Especially so if you're going through some kind of an emotional roller coaster
Say, begining of the year, you get to know someone and you tend to spend alot of time with him. Say dinners, classes, hobbies, movies, giving you a ride home when you need the most, all that. And some how, in the mist of all the on-goings, you suddenly reaslise that hey, maybe I've fallen for him. You don't express your feelings towards him because you're afraid that it would somehow jinx or change the relationship. So, what do you do? Keep quiet about it, with the expectation that things will turn out the way you want it to be.
But then, suddenly, he tells you that he's going away for a holiday during the hols. And that feeling that tells you that you might miss him creeps in. However confused you felt, you thanked your lucky stars that you didn't had the time to think it through. Its not whether you wanted to avoid the matter and face your feeling but it was more so because the examinations were the ones that were clouding your vision to see clearly. So, what is it that you do? Chuck the matter aside.
Out of the blue, while you were busy studying, there came an overseas message from him. It might be a sign that he missed you. Maybe a sign that he was bored ( which is pretty unlikely). But what bugged you was that he was willing to sent you a message from where he was. So, how did you react to the matter? You jumped up & down at home, feeling as though you were in cloud nine and shouting 'He misses me' many times, not knowing the real reason why he actually messaged you. Maybe he messaged you because he was bored or he was getting into getting the mind games to start. And because of this message, you were somehow deluded by the illusion that maybe he misses you, meaning to say that maybe he does share the same feeling. And how do you react to that? Keep smiling like everything's going to fall in place.
When he comes back from his trip, he tells you that he's in a relationship, WITH SOMEONE ELSE. You felt like you are loosing it. You feel that the world is unfair. You go, HOW CAN THIS BE? HOW CAN THIS HAPPEN TO ME? WHAT DID I DO WRONG? DID I WAIT TOO LONG? DIDN'T I GIVE HIM ENOUGH TIME? WAS IT BECAUSE I FEARED REJECTION THAT I KEPT THOSE FEELINGS THAT I HAD FOR HIM ALL BOTTLED UP IN ME? Questions after questions go through you're mind. Your bestie said that what's best is for you to get over it. Bite the bullet and get on with life. But you don't know how long it would take you to recover.
When I sit back and think and look through it all. There are alot of maybes or should haves that could have changed the current situation. I am lost for words to know what or how I'm going to move on. I'm not too sure how I'm not going to do something without being reminded of him. And what's worst, he still doesn't know that I've all along had feelings for him and I'm acting like I'm a good friend, standing by him, supporting and telling him to calm down when his gf doesn't call or msg him. At some point, I sometimes feel like telling him that hey, i'm here right in front of you, can't you see ME??
I know it all sounds like i'm all delusional or self-centred or a pathetic fool, what ever you can call it. I don't intend to let it be that way. I know that I'm not like that. I'm strong, certain, considerate and smart. But sometimes when these things happen, it just gets the best of you. And what can you do? Bite the bullet........
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
D80 baby
I know I know.. Its been a long while since I've written anthing. There's so too many things that I've gotta tell u. My b'day, my photographs, my photo shoots. And to top it off, my EXTREMELY crazy schedule. My lecturer is mad beyond mad. And his workload isn't exactly lighthearted. I'm prepared to be shrunken into bits and pieces by the end of this sem. Exams are in 2 months time and there's ALOT to learn.
If you guys are wondering what have I been doing since the last entry, well i've been having classes on weekends and on some weekends, its from 9am till 8pm. Yes, beyond your wildest dreams that D can stay in school at such LONG hours.. Though it isn't the first time that I've done such things, remember last term's revision period. Well, that was for only a month's worth of weekends, this is more like the whole semester.
And attending James's class is a MAJOR roller-coaster ride. In his words, its called "exciting". To us, the students, its called running the Standard Chartered 42km run. And right now, I'm in the mist of doing my essay. To all, does Target Costing ring a bell???????
Ok, other then photography, i'm usually down with my photography buddy Zahari. Yes we are tight. The close-friends tight. Please ah.. Though we did get the couple look a couple of times. Like when we dine out or when we go for photography. There was once when one of our friends thought that we were an item. This is how it went.
On my last photography lesson day, Zahari didn't joined me because he had to prepare for class the next day. You, the type whereby you've got a HOD coming to your class and observe the way you teach? (Oh yah, if I forgot to mention, Zahari is a teacher. So when we say to our friends that 'we've got school', we BOTH have school. Just differ in our occupations only. Hee! Hee! Hee!) So I went to class alone & met with the rest of my classmates who come from all walks of life. And when class ended, I sort of bumped into one of them at the train station and we were going to take the same train. So this is how it goes.
Me: Hi!
E: Hello! U taking the same train?
Me: Yes. I'm staying in Kembangan
E: Oh! I'm from Pasir Ris.
Me: Ic Ic
E: 'How come your husband didn't come today?'
Me: 'Oh! U mean the guy I'm usually with? He's not my husband.'
E: 'Oh so sorry. Your boyfriend?'
Me:' Oh, he's not my boyfriend either. He's just a close friend.'
E:' Oh, so sorry! I really didn't know. So how come he's not here today?'
( and the conversation went on ....)
Imagine how shocked I was when he said that. Oh k.. Now I'm suprised to hear that people in class have thought about the both of us to such extent.
Oh, btw, I GOT MY D80 with 18-200mm lens. YAHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So right now, i've got 2 camera bodies & 5 lenses.
2 Nikon Bodies
D80 -> fresh from the IT show
FE SLR -> Inherited from Daddy
5 Lenses
18 - 200mm VR-> bundle with my D80
50mm f1.8 -> a birthday gift from Zahari
105mm ->Inherited from Daddy
35mm ->Inherited from Daddy
300mm ->Inherited from Daddy
If you guys are wondering what have I been doing since the last entry, well i've been having classes on weekends and on some weekends, its from 9am till 8pm. Yes, beyond your wildest dreams that D can stay in school at such LONG hours.. Though it isn't the first time that I've done such things, remember last term's revision period. Well, that was for only a month's worth of weekends, this is more like the whole semester.
And attending James's class is a MAJOR roller-coaster ride. In his words, its called "exciting". To us, the students, its called running the Standard Chartered 42km run. And right now, I'm in the mist of doing my essay. To all, does Target Costing ring a bell???????
Ok, other then photography, i'm usually down with my photography buddy Zahari. Yes we are tight. The close-friends tight. Please ah.. Though we did get the couple look a couple of times. Like when we dine out or when we go for photography. There was once when one of our friends thought that we were an item. This is how it went.
On my last photography lesson day, Zahari didn't joined me because he had to prepare for class the next day. You, the type whereby you've got a HOD coming to your class and observe the way you teach? (Oh yah, if I forgot to mention, Zahari is a teacher. So when we say to our friends that 'we've got school', we BOTH have school. Just differ in our occupations only. Hee! Hee! Hee!) So I went to class alone & met with the rest of my classmates who come from all walks of life. And when class ended, I sort of bumped into one of them at the train station and we were going to take the same train. So this is how it goes.
Me: Hi!
E: Hello! U taking the same train?
Me: Yes. I'm staying in Kembangan
E: Oh! I'm from Pasir Ris.
Me: Ic Ic
E: 'How come your husband didn't come today?'
Me: 'Oh! U mean the guy I'm usually with? He's not my husband.'
E: 'Oh so sorry. Your boyfriend?'
Me:' Oh, he's not my boyfriend either. He's just a close friend.'
E:' Oh, so sorry! I really didn't know. So how come he's not here today?'
( and the conversation went on ....)
Imagine how shocked I was when he said that. Oh k.. Now I'm suprised to hear that people in class have thought about the both of us to such extent.
Oh, btw, I GOT MY D80 with 18-200mm lens. YAHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So right now, i've got 2 camera bodies & 5 lenses.
2 Nikon Bodies
D80 -> fresh from the IT show
FE SLR -> Inherited from Daddy
5 Lenses
18 - 200mm VR-> bundle with my D80
50mm f1.8 -> a birthday gift from Zahari
105mm ->Inherited from Daddy
35mm ->Inherited from Daddy
300mm ->Inherited from Daddy
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Monday, January 07, 2008
Here I am, this time, much much more busier then ever...
Since grandpa's hospitalisation, things have been followed by many many activities. I was with Zahari the whole day on Saturday. More camera & photo sessions. Pretty fun you can say. I mean, what else can I say, I went out to take photographs, went over his place to settle the camera arrangements which he ended up lending to me his D40 for Tuesday's class after all. And have someone to cook for you a late lunch. What can I say, I did have a good Saturday out with him.
Before meeting Zahari on Saturday, I went to collect my CompuTrekker. Its WONDERFUL. What else can I say? I like the bag. But the problem right now is that I find it a little too BIG for me. I mean, the straps cutting are a bit too wide. Zahari said that I should swap with his CompuDay Pack, something that's smaller. I did try it on & I find it quite comfy actually. Not too large for me. It gives a better fit for me.
So after some thorough thinking, I have decided to swap with his bag. I mean, how am I to bring it along for photography classes when its too big. Already as it is, I'm thinking of lending his Novo AW slingbag. Come on, how am I to carry a backpack when I'm wearing a dress or a blouse? Hehehe.. On Saturday itself when he was about to pass the camera to me, he was prepared to hand it to me with the NOVO AW. Ni dipanggil GATAL/CHEEKY. Orang dah offer tak nak. Sombong. Now I'm thinking of borrowing it from him. D, please decide....
Sunday, I was over at Kak Inah's house, doing her wedding gubahan. With her cats in the house, it was fun. You can only see her cats flossing their teeth. Hehehe.. Honestly, that wasn't what they intend to do but when my aunt was sewing something, this fella thought that it was some sort of a toy, something for it to play with. So he ended up flossing his teeth while my playing with my aunt's threads.
The cats are so cute & utterly so manja. One will for no apparent reason will just sit on my lap, hoping that I will massage or rub his body.. Even if I played with his paws or continue stroking while it is sleeping, it will be just glad & sleep soundly.
There was one moment when the striped cat found itself in a box & I covered it with the lid that has HOLES. And it seems that the cat enjoyed staying in the box. Hahaha.. Later, the other cat, the manja fella, well he tried to find a solution to help to get his friend out of the box. It was really cute seeing them like that. I badly wanted to snap pix of them. Playing around. Sleeping like a big boss in the house. Oh how I wish I can keep cats...
Since grandpa's hospitalisation, things have been followed by many many activities. I was with Zahari the whole day on Saturday. More camera & photo sessions. Pretty fun you can say. I mean, what else can I say, I went out to take photographs, went over his place to settle the camera arrangements which he ended up lending to me his D40 for Tuesday's class after all. And have someone to cook for you a late lunch. What can I say, I did have a good Saturday out with him.
Before meeting Zahari on Saturday, I went to collect my CompuTrekker. Its WONDERFUL. What else can I say? I like the bag. But the problem right now is that I find it a little too BIG for me. I mean, the straps cutting are a bit too wide. Zahari said that I should swap with his CompuDay Pack, something that's smaller. I did try it on & I find it quite comfy actually. Not too large for me. It gives a better fit for me.
So after some thorough thinking, I have decided to swap with his bag. I mean, how am I to bring it along for photography classes when its too big. Already as it is, I'm thinking of lending his Novo AW slingbag. Come on, how am I to carry a backpack when I'm wearing a dress or a blouse? Hehehe.. On Saturday itself when he was about to pass the camera to me, he was prepared to hand it to me with the NOVO AW. Ni dipanggil GATAL/CHEEKY. Orang dah offer tak nak. Sombong. Now I'm thinking of borrowing it from him. D, please decide....
Sunday, I was over at Kak Inah's house, doing her wedding gubahan. With her cats in the house, it was fun. You can only see her cats flossing their teeth. Hehehe.. Honestly, that wasn't what they intend to do but when my aunt was sewing something, this fella thought that it was some sort of a toy, something for it to play with. So he ended up flossing his teeth while my playing with my aunt's threads.
The cats are so cute & utterly so manja. One will for no apparent reason will just sit on my lap, hoping that I will massage or rub his body.. Even if I played with his paws or continue stroking while it is sleeping, it will be just glad & sleep soundly.
There was one moment when the striped cat found itself in a box & I covered it with the lid that has HOLES. And it seems that the cat enjoyed staying in the box. Hahaha.. Later, the other cat, the manja fella, well he tried to find a solution to help to get his friend out of the box. It was really cute seeing them like that. I badly wanted to snap pix of them. Playing around. Sleeping like a big boss in the house. Oh how I wish I can keep cats...
Friday, January 04, 2008
Back to School
Yesterday was my first day back at school. It was pretty much a crazy I can say. And James Kwan's speed isn't exactly going at 60km/h but more of 130km/h. Everything moves at a very fast speed. Shifting gears takes place very fast and we are always expected to stick to gear 5 when we are on the highroad. And when we've stuck, we've gotta put on the hazard lights just to signal to him to slow down.
I feel like taking up another module. F7. But i've gotta consult James regarding my idea about this. I mean, if I do take F7, I do have a choice of either taking Mr Goh, my taxation lecturer or another day of James. Which is it, I'm not too sure about that. I really want to know how heavy is F7 because its financial reporting, similar to 1.1 but of a higher standard. So maybe I might take another module. I mean, if its bad, how bad can it get? And another one of James's class, well, then I really badly terribly have no life.....
Heading out for a short photography session tomorrow with the Zahari & he's accompanying me to get that Lowepro CompuTrekker from that fella online. Got it at a great deal actually there. So I probably be gettin my hands on that D40 of his. Nope, shall not even touch his D200. Forget it. Firstly its heavy & the other thing is that I'm so afraid that it might slip out of my fingers due to its overwhelming weight. For a guy, yah, it's alright. Perfect size & everything. But for a girl, for fingers s dainty like ours, no thanks. If I dropped that D200, Zahari will definately be on fire & he'll be on my neck 24/7 about it. Just like a vampire...
It seems that I've gotta go off here.. I'm actually at Changi General Hospital right now. Granp's warded and everybody's working in the day so I have to come over to check things out while he's in the hospital. Everyone else is coming in the evening while I can come during the day. What can I say, part of the duties of being a granddaughter.....
I feel like taking up another module. F7. But i've gotta consult James regarding my idea about this. I mean, if I do take F7, I do have a choice of either taking Mr Goh, my taxation lecturer or another day of James. Which is it, I'm not too sure about that. I really want to know how heavy is F7 because its financial reporting, similar to 1.1 but of a higher standard. So maybe I might take another module. I mean, if its bad, how bad can it get? And another one of James's class, well, then I really badly terribly have no life.....
Heading out for a short photography session tomorrow with the Zahari & he's accompanying me to get that Lowepro CompuTrekker from that fella online. Got it at a great deal actually there. So I probably be gettin my hands on that D40 of his. Nope, shall not even touch his D200. Forget it. Firstly its heavy & the other thing is that I'm so afraid that it might slip out of my fingers due to its overwhelming weight. For a guy, yah, it's alright. Perfect size & everything. But for a girl, for fingers s dainty like ours, no thanks. If I dropped that D200, Zahari will definately be on fire & he'll be on my neck 24/7 about it. Just like a vampire...
It seems that I've gotta go off here.. I'm actually at Changi General Hospital right now. Granp's warded and everybody's working in the day so I have to come over to check things out while he's in the hospital. Everyone else is coming in the evening while I can come during the day. What can I say, part of the duties of being a granddaughter.....
Friday, December 28, 2007
Right there waiting for me...
After reading the work of scheme for my Financial Management Module (F9), I looked up to my shelves & I'm grateful to see that Mr Sloman is still sitting there, nicely, waiting for me to pick it up one fine day in the course of my ACCA education. And another part of me tells me why was I so stupid to throw away my Management Of Business notes. *nods her head in disappointment*
Schools starts in a couple of days. In some ways, I'm happy that I'm starting school soon but the other half is telling me that when school starts, its a gentle reminder of another head-banging / library = refugee camp schedule for me. What else can I say, that's school life..
Speaking of the start of school, it also means that we are going to say goodbye to 2007. And I'm turning 24 too. Back then when I was young, I asked my mom, whether its alright if I get a boyfriend when I'm 24. And look at me now, 23 & not in any serious relationship with some guy. Hahaha!
Looking for a guy isn't one of my resolution for next year. It comes when it decides to come. Like the song goes " Cinta datang, tanpa diundang...."
I like the way things are going for me so far. I'm happy with my life, my love for my hantarans & the fact that I've rekindled my love for photography, it just makes it all better. What's in store for me in 2008 is yet to be searched, tried, experienced & tested my yours truly. Is it the year where I come to my fullest potential? Or the year that I've become contented with myself? Or even somethng that might come along unexpectedly. I don't know.
For 2008,
a) I pray for good health for me. I hope that I won't get sick with the start of my maddening & hectic school schedule
b) I pray for good health for my parents, sister & all my love ones.
c) I would wanna complete my F modules before moving up to my Professional leveel where I can take my degree in Applied Accounting
d) I hope ma' sistaz will be as zany & awesome FOREVER. I love u girls. Hope to travel, go scuba diving & snorkelling with u all again.
e) I hope ma' crew will always be ma' crew.
f) I can get my D80
g) I want to go for another roller coaster themed vacation
Just received the e-mail reagarding my photographic classes for next year. Can't wait for it to start but having a little problem with the camera arrangements with Zahari... Eeerrrgghh!! This part, I don't like about him...
Anyway, I can't wait for my Yoga classes to start.. There's some pilates classes held at Marine Parade Cc too but the schedule clashes with my photography class.. What to do, gotta wait for next time then... Haiz...
Schools starts in a couple of days. In some ways, I'm happy that I'm starting school soon but the other half is telling me that when school starts, its a gentle reminder of another head-banging / library = refugee camp schedule for me. What else can I say, that's school life..
Speaking of the start of school, it also means that we are going to say goodbye to 2007. And I'm turning 24 too. Back then when I was young, I asked my mom, whether its alright if I get a boyfriend when I'm 24. And look at me now, 23 & not in any serious relationship with some guy. Hahaha!
Looking for a guy isn't one of my resolution for next year. It comes when it decides to come. Like the song goes " Cinta datang, tanpa diundang...."
I like the way things are going for me so far. I'm happy with my life, my love for my hantarans & the fact that I've rekindled my love for photography, it just makes it all better. What's in store for me in 2008 is yet to be searched, tried, experienced & tested my yours truly. Is it the year where I come to my fullest potential? Or the year that I've become contented with myself? Or even somethng that might come along unexpectedly. I don't know.
For 2008,
a) I pray for good health for me. I hope that I won't get sick with the start of my maddening & hectic school schedule
b) I pray for good health for my parents, sister & all my love ones.
c) I would wanna complete my F modules before moving up to my Professional leveel where I can take my degree in Applied Accounting
d) I hope ma' sistaz will be as zany & awesome FOREVER. I love u girls. Hope to travel, go scuba diving & snorkelling with u all again.
e) I hope ma' crew will always be ma' crew.
f) I can get my D80
g) I want to go for another roller coaster themed vacation
Just received the e-mail reagarding my photographic classes for next year. Can't wait for it to start but having a little problem with the camera arrangements with Zahari... Eeerrrgghh!! This part, I don't like about him...
Anyway, I can't wait for my Yoga classes to start.. There's some pilates classes held at Marine Parade Cc too but the schedule clashes with my photography class.. What to do, gotta wait for next time then... Haiz...
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Long Overdued
Week 49
( 3 - 9th Dec)
The days for that week had been MADNESS..... It started out by the two gruelling days, the two days that I was preparing for combat.. One day for Tax, while the other for Law.. And what can I say, it was a good battle... And the best part was right after my last paper, I went to meet Norin. Had to get away from all that craziness....
My sis got back on Wed from her NY / DC trip. And I got my COACH bags, Levis Jeans & lots of other stuffs which I really really really love... Am wearing the COACH wallet right now too... Hehehehe.. What can I say, I really really really love that design.. The all leather CC design.
Friday 7th Dec
Sentosa trip
Definately AMAZING!!! And oh my, were there alot of exicitement going on... We girls being girls, went tanning. Got a nice tanline after that.. I became Miss Hottie that day. Because its just the girls and none of our guys were there, so it was alright. So we BARED IT ALL OUT... And Nor & myself did diving at the Underwater World.. Oh gosh! How much I love diving..... And how much I missed it.. Now, I feel like taking the licence... Check out the pix peeps...
That Sat, I went to JB with the rest of my family to get some wedding stuff.. Was busy... ReAL busy..
Week 50
(10 - 16th Dec)
That week was going out to town to meet Amu for movie & catching up. And I met Jo, oh how much I miss her so much. And I finally got a BIG Harrods bag ( all thanks to Julie) where I can fit my gubahan stuff whenever I go to places... Glam tak tinggal babe.. Hehehehehe....
Week 51
( 17 - 23rd Dec)
This week was another crazy week because of Hari Raya Haji... And my parents were all working on Eve of Raya so it was left to my sister & I to do the cooking, marketing & cleaning. Yes, I cook. Suprising huh? I did the Lepat. Sorang2 seh... Penat tau ikat sendiri. Alhamdulillah jadi cantik & lembut. It turned out great, Perfect texture.. My sister cooked Sambal Tumis... Well, that's her fav dish so I expect her to cook it well & it was good.. Real good... Hehehehe....
The next day, I went to meet Lynn to get some rocher.. She got engaged on Sunday. Congrats to her... Anyway, after coming back from Arab St with Lynn, Zahari msged me to ask me out for a movie. It wasn't a date. Its more of a carried forward get together. Both of us were busy with school. I was down with exams & he was busy being with his students, Geography trip & holiday.. We caught National Treasure & headed off for coffee later...
Anyway, he told me something. He got a D40 Nikon. When he told me, I wanted to kill him right there on the escalator when he broke the news to me. When he read my expression, he knew then that I love to get a Nikon DSLR. And so we're been talking about nothing else except for cameras cameras cameras since...
The next day, he asked me out to accompany him to look for a camera stand. And we finally did. A Giotto ball head with a Manfrotto stand. And we got it at a good deal. And there was this bag which I was really interested in. And when I asked more about that bag, guess what that salesperson said, ' Well, that's great for keeping milk bottles warm'. I appear not to hear what the salesperson said while Zahari just kept looking interested with the other camera stands, making himself look like he heard nothing. But trust me, when I spoke to him later that night to chat about the stuff that we bought, I had to refer that bag which I was really interested as the 'milk bottle bag' and when he reacted to that, well, I know he knew what I was talking about...
Anyway, speaking of Nikon DSLR, I'm getting it soon. Once the IT fair is in, I'm gonna get it. Without a doubt. Plus its gonna be the D80. Not the D40. And I can finally inherit my dad's old Nikon lenses.. Hahahaha!!!! I love the sound of it already.
Sunday was down at Lynn's engagement. And how else can I say this, I really have a grudge with mak andams. Oh how much I don't like them. They are only nice when a) your their customers & b) you dress up as glamourous as them. Other then that, they are all plain STUCK UPs.. Oooppss... Its my blog & I have 100% ownership of www.kaleidoscopia.blogspot.com
Week 52
24th Dec
Yes, it's Christmas Eve. And I was out to Arab St again to get some stuff for the hantaran decorations. And I am honoured to be the first one to hold Zahari's D200.. He went to get it with me. I even took some trial shots with it and it turned out quite well. I wanted to play around with his camera but he was rushing off for his game & I wanted to head off to Funan to check out batteries for the Sony T20. I was supposed to wait for him while he finished his game but I was too tired & wanted to head home. As it turned out, he continued with his MAGIC game till about 7 plus. Thank god I didn't wait for him any longer. Or else I'll be sitting ducks at Raffles City. And the crowd isn't that fantastic either. People doing their last minute Christmas shopping. I'll end up getting a headache thinking about it. Gheez.
Suprisingly, he called me when he got back to talk about more camera stuff.. What can I say, we both are in love with DSLR. For me, its more of rekindling love while his was falling in love with it for the first time.
Honestly speaking, its been a LONG while since I've gotten my hands on an SLR. I think the last time I did my werks on the SLR camera was while I was still in MI. Those days when I was down for Sports Day & 'I' Day .. Those were the days.
So when I was playing around with Zahari's D40 on Saturday, guess my skills are still there. Just lack of practice. That's about it. My shots were better then his. Hehehe...
Alright then. I think that's all for now. School starts soon for me. And Yoga too. And a photography class which Zahari is helping me look into.
Most likely I'll might head over to Zahari's place ( when is that gonna be, well I'm not too sure because once school starts, we both will be busy with school ) to play around with his cameras. He's letting me to play around with it. Looks like he really knows how much I love a Nikon DSLR which is why he's allowing me to use it from time to time.
Looks like I'm prepared to have a packed & geared up for 2008.
( 3 - 9th Dec)
The days for that week had been MADNESS..... It started out by the two gruelling days, the two days that I was preparing for combat.. One day for Tax, while the other for Law.. And what can I say, it was a good battle... And the best part was right after my last paper, I went to meet Norin. Had to get away from all that craziness....
My sis got back on Wed from her NY / DC trip. And I got my COACH bags, Levis Jeans & lots of other stuffs which I really really really love... Am wearing the COACH wallet right now too... Hehehehe.. What can I say, I really really really love that design.. The all leather CC design.
Friday 7th Dec
Sentosa trip
Definately AMAZING!!! And oh my, were there alot of exicitement going on... We girls being girls, went tanning. Got a nice tanline after that.. I became Miss Hottie that day. Because its just the girls and none of our guys were there, so it was alright. So we BARED IT ALL OUT... And Nor & myself did diving at the Underwater World.. Oh gosh! How much I love diving..... And how much I missed it.. Now, I feel like taking the licence... Check out the pix peeps...
That Sat, I went to JB with the rest of my family to get some wedding stuff.. Was busy... ReAL busy..
Week 50
(10 - 16th Dec)
That week was going out to town to meet Amu for movie & catching up. And I met Jo, oh how much I miss her so much. And I finally got a BIG Harrods bag ( all thanks to Julie) where I can fit my gubahan stuff whenever I go to places... Glam tak tinggal babe.. Hehehehehe....
Week 51
( 17 - 23rd Dec)
This week was another crazy week because of Hari Raya Haji... And my parents were all working on Eve of Raya so it was left to my sister & I to do the cooking, marketing & cleaning. Yes, I cook. Suprising huh? I did the Lepat. Sorang2 seh... Penat tau ikat sendiri. Alhamdulillah jadi cantik & lembut. It turned out great, Perfect texture.. My sister cooked Sambal Tumis... Well, that's her fav dish so I expect her to cook it well & it was good.. Real good... Hehehehe....
The next day, I went to meet Lynn to get some rocher.. She got engaged on Sunday. Congrats to her... Anyway, after coming back from Arab St with Lynn, Zahari msged me to ask me out for a movie. It wasn't a date. Its more of a carried forward get together. Both of us were busy with school. I was down with exams & he was busy being with his students, Geography trip & holiday.. We caught National Treasure & headed off for coffee later...
Anyway, he told me something. He got a D40 Nikon. When he told me, I wanted to kill him right there on the escalator when he broke the news to me. When he read my expression, he knew then that I love to get a Nikon DSLR. And so we're been talking about nothing else except for cameras cameras cameras since...
The next day, he asked me out to accompany him to look for a camera stand. And we finally did. A Giotto ball head with a Manfrotto stand. And we got it at a good deal. And there was this bag which I was really interested in. And when I asked more about that bag, guess what that salesperson said, ' Well, that's great for keeping milk bottles warm'. I appear not to hear what the salesperson said while Zahari just kept looking interested with the other camera stands, making himself look like he heard nothing. But trust me, when I spoke to him later that night to chat about the stuff that we bought, I had to refer that bag which I was really interested as the 'milk bottle bag' and when he reacted to that, well, I know he knew what I was talking about...
Anyway, speaking of Nikon DSLR, I'm getting it soon. Once the IT fair is in, I'm gonna get it. Without a doubt. Plus its gonna be the D80. Not the D40. And I can finally inherit my dad's old Nikon lenses.. Hahahaha!!!! I love the sound of it already.
Sunday was down at Lynn's engagement. And how else can I say this, I really have a grudge with mak andams. Oh how much I don't like them. They are only nice when a) your their customers & b) you dress up as glamourous as them. Other then that, they are all plain STUCK UPs.. Oooppss... Its my blog & I have 100% ownership of www.kaleidoscopia.blogspot.com
Week 52
24th Dec
Yes, it's Christmas Eve. And I was out to Arab St again to get some stuff for the hantaran decorations. And I am honoured to be the first one to hold Zahari's D200.. He went to get it with me. I even took some trial shots with it and it turned out quite well. I wanted to play around with his camera but he was rushing off for his game & I wanted to head off to Funan to check out batteries for the Sony T20. I was supposed to wait for him while he finished his game but I was too tired & wanted to head home. As it turned out, he continued with his MAGIC game till about 7 plus. Thank god I didn't wait for him any longer. Or else I'll be sitting ducks at Raffles City. And the crowd isn't that fantastic either. People doing their last minute Christmas shopping. I'll end up getting a headache thinking about it. Gheez.
Suprisingly, he called me when he got back to talk about more camera stuff.. What can I say, we both are in love with DSLR. For me, its more of rekindling love while his was falling in love with it for the first time.
Honestly speaking, its been a LONG while since I've gotten my hands on an SLR. I think the last time I did my werks on the SLR camera was while I was still in MI. Those days when I was down for Sports Day & 'I' Day .. Those were the days.
So when I was playing around with Zahari's D40 on Saturday, guess my skills are still there. Just lack of practice. That's about it. My shots were better then his. Hehehe...
Alright then. I think that's all for now. School starts soon for me. And Yoga too. And a photography class which Zahari is helping me look into.
Most likely I'll might head over to Zahari's place ( when is that gonna be, well I'm not too sure because once school starts, we both will be busy with school ) to play around with his cameras. He's letting me to play around with it. Looks like he really knows how much I love a Nikon DSLR which is why he's allowing me to use it from time to time.
Looks like I'm prepared to have a packed & geared up for 2008.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Gone.... Totally GONE
The revision is going absolutely CRAZY. There's no other way of saying it except that its been a complete maddening marathon. And I really wonder HOW on earth I can keep up with it....
How maddening has it gotten? Let me tell you how...
Fri 16th Nov, I went off to do my self study session ( as usual ) from 1 till about 8.30pm or so.. Had a break ard 5pm for about half an hour before resuming to my work... Finishing of my company tax questions. After all that, my sis insisted that I should send her off to the airport that night... SHE'S IN NEW YORK !!!!! You wouldn't wanna know how I feel abt not being able to join her... AAAAARRGGGGHHH!!!!!!!!! But hey, nvm, been there twice. Plus I did manage to head to the WTC... And I climbed to Statue of Liberty TWICE.... They can't go to neither one of these places cuz a) one is a memorial ground and b) you can't go up to the crown anymore.... Hahahahahaha!!!
Anyway, back to the story. Since she insisted that I were to send her off, being a good sister, I told her that I'll meet her there at the airport. Her flight was a midnight flight. So imagine what time I got back.
Sat 17 Nov. I had tax revision class. Your dear friend here was being so gung-ho that she stayed for not 1 or 2 revision session but for 3 sessions. Yes, you got it right. It started from 9 - 1pm. Followed by 2-6pm. And this last one was the best, 6.30- 10.30 pm. Initially I didn't want to attend the last session cuz I was afraid that I might be tired. But hey, I didn't. Plus I had Herbie with me. He brought Sour Cream Pringles.. Oh yah, supposed to bring Doritos for this Fri's session. And Mr Goh will say, eating corn chips again.. Hehehehe... Anyway, something mariculous happened before I attended that evening class.
I was hungry. Sandwich was my lunch.. Yah, so I told Sharifa that I wanted to head over to the vending machine to get some snacks. Knowing that your dearest friend here was STRAVING, I wanted to get 2 items. So after getting the first order, I started putting in my first coin, wihich was a 10 cents. And that stupid vending machine THREW it out from the return coins chute straight onto the carpeting. Fine, i know, u are abt to say, the machine wants to sleep so its rejecting my coins. So, knowing that I was already brain zombified, out of desperation, I started to put ALL my coins into the slot, hoping that some might get accepted. And guess what, out of the 10 & 20 cent coins worth abt $1.50, only 10 cents managed to get accepted.
(Please control your emotions if you are in the office or any public vicinity with effect of this paragraph.)
I went " Oit!!!! Don't you want my money here. I wanna eat alright?!!!!" with all that banging & stuff. Sharifa, looking all panic stricken, went like, "Eh! Relax girl. There's cameras everywhere in this school alright.. So chill" Then I gave up, Totally hungry & angry... People could see steam coming out of my ears.....
Word of advise: And hungry man is an angry man.
Thank goodness for Herbie having having that canister of Pringles... Even though I don't eat chips & I don't particularly like Sour Cream flavour, I ate about a quater of the canister. Loving my dearest Herbie for everything..
Then, later that night, when I got home, I was hungry & tired & sleepy. There wasn't food. So with no other alternative, went ahead to make myself a cup of milo before sleeping. And guess what, no hot water. So I took the kettle, filled it with water & waited for it to boil. While waiting, I slept, standing up, without realising it...Wow!
The next mrng, Sunday, attended my law revision which was from 9 till abt 3pm. My friends were asking whether I attended the tax evening class the night before, and when i said yes I did, they said, wah! Solid lah you". And when I told them that I picked a fight with the vending machine & mastered the art of sleeping while standing, the first thing that they said was " GONE! That's it... This girl is totally GONE...."
Seriously, I really don't know why this sitting is practically sucking the goodnes out of me. It is alright. Thing are way OF COURSE with alot of people. Maybe I'm doing too much thinking that I can't see the obvious things that's right before my very eyes.. I jump into conclusions. Make bad judgement calls which are not me & not right. I don't know... Its just sucks the goodness out of me.
SO this was what I did on Mon, yesterday. Went to catch a movie alone. Caught "The Game Plan".. I was hoping that it wasn't crowded but it was.. Haiz! But heck lah... If anybody dares to say anything, i'll just say, " Wait till you sit for a professional exam. See how far it will drive you nuts..." :) Hehehehe...
Alright, I'll just let you all wonder how nutty I've become. And I've better put a self reminder to bring a big bag of Doritos to class on Friday. Something for Herbie & I to munch....
How maddening has it gotten? Let me tell you how...
Fri 16th Nov, I went off to do my self study session ( as usual ) from 1 till about 8.30pm or so.. Had a break ard 5pm for about half an hour before resuming to my work... Finishing of my company tax questions. After all that, my sis insisted that I should send her off to the airport that night... SHE'S IN NEW YORK !!!!! You wouldn't wanna know how I feel abt not being able to join her... AAAAARRGGGGHHH!!!!!!!!! But hey, nvm, been there twice. Plus I did manage to head to the WTC... And I climbed to Statue of Liberty TWICE.... They can't go to neither one of these places cuz a) one is a memorial ground and b) you can't go up to the crown anymore.... Hahahahahaha!!!
Anyway, back to the story. Since she insisted that I were to send her off, being a good sister, I told her that I'll meet her there at the airport. Her flight was a midnight flight. So imagine what time I got back.
Sat 17 Nov. I had tax revision class. Your dear friend here was being so gung-ho that she stayed for not 1 or 2 revision session but for 3 sessions. Yes, you got it right. It started from 9 - 1pm. Followed by 2-6pm. And this last one was the best, 6.30- 10.30 pm. Initially I didn't want to attend the last session cuz I was afraid that I might be tired. But hey, I didn't. Plus I had Herbie with me. He brought Sour Cream Pringles.. Oh yah, supposed to bring Doritos for this Fri's session. And Mr Goh will say, eating corn chips again.. Hehehehe... Anyway, something mariculous happened before I attended that evening class.
I was hungry. Sandwich was my lunch.. Yah, so I told Sharifa that I wanted to head over to the vending machine to get some snacks. Knowing that your dearest friend here was STRAVING, I wanted to get 2 items. So after getting the first order, I started putting in my first coin, wihich was a 10 cents. And that stupid vending machine THREW it out from the return coins chute straight onto the carpeting. Fine, i know, u are abt to say, the machine wants to sleep so its rejecting my coins. So, knowing that I was already brain zombified, out of desperation, I started to put ALL my coins into the slot, hoping that some might get accepted. And guess what, out of the 10 & 20 cent coins worth abt $1.50, only 10 cents managed to get accepted.
(Please control your emotions if you are in the office or any public vicinity with effect of this paragraph.)
I went " Oit!!!! Don't you want my money here. I wanna eat alright?!!!!" with all that banging & stuff. Sharifa, looking all panic stricken, went like, "Eh! Relax girl. There's cameras everywhere in this school alright.. So chill" Then I gave up, Totally hungry & angry... People could see steam coming out of my ears.....
Word of advise: And hungry man is an angry man.
Thank goodness for Herbie having having that canister of Pringles... Even though I don't eat chips & I don't particularly like Sour Cream flavour, I ate about a quater of the canister. Loving my dearest Herbie for everything..
Then, later that night, when I got home, I was hungry & tired & sleepy. There wasn't food. So with no other alternative, went ahead to make myself a cup of milo before sleeping. And guess what, no hot water. So I took the kettle, filled it with water & waited for it to boil. While waiting, I slept, standing up, without realising it...Wow!
The next mrng, Sunday, attended my law revision which was from 9 till abt 3pm. My friends were asking whether I attended the tax evening class the night before, and when i said yes I did, they said, wah! Solid lah you". And when I told them that I picked a fight with the vending machine & mastered the art of sleeping while standing, the first thing that they said was " GONE! That's it... This girl is totally GONE...."
Seriously, I really don't know why this sitting is practically sucking the goodnes out of me. It is alright. Thing are way OF COURSE with alot of people. Maybe I'm doing too much thinking that I can't see the obvious things that's right before my very eyes.. I jump into conclusions. Make bad judgement calls which are not me & not right. I don't know... Its just sucks the goodness out of me.
SO this was what I did on Mon, yesterday. Went to catch a movie alone. Caught "The Game Plan".. I was hoping that it wasn't crowded but it was.. Haiz! But heck lah... If anybody dares to say anything, i'll just say, " Wait till you sit for a professional exam. See how far it will drive you nuts..." :) Hehehehe...
Alright, I'll just let you all wonder how nutty I've become. And I've better put a self reminder to bring a big bag of Doritos to class on Friday. Something for Herbie & I to munch....
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Indeed it was a long day
Candid shot 101 - Back Row L-R: Izzudin (purple), Fadil, Wati, Sideeq, Irwan, Hashim, Fazrin & myself. Seated L/R: Noryn & Shimah
Classic car squeeze
The great guys who helped us in every way
Dear sis, you've got no worries aight, the 3 of us will always be there for you.
Formal group photo
After a LONG day, this is the look of people at 1 am who have to go to work/school the next day....
My trip for jalan raya did turn out to an unexpected event. We, our car, got into an accident. Don't worry, we're all fine. Just some bumbs & bruises for Shannen & myself. Thank god there was the guys. They helped out alot... Sideeq remaining calm & all, Fadil, the PR fella who was doing all the slow talk with the others, Irwan, coming to us when the accident first happened. Thanks alot to all.. It was indeed a turn of event..
Nah, no worries, we did all proceed with the jalan raya, with all our parents worried about what happened. ALOT of parents Asked about alot of stuff regarding the accident. Especially Hashim's mum, cuz that was where we were heading when the accident happened. She was asking us whether all of us were alright and made us eat, you know why, cuz we were VERY hungry & VERY thirsty and VERY tired after all that happened..
ALright there, enough yacking.. Here's the pix
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Off MODE
Here I am, in two ponytails, typing away on my bed, telling u guys how how I survived my first taxation revision session. Not bad because of the revision that was done in advance. Thanks to ppl like Esther & Lashmi, it didnt' turn out that bad after all..
Taxation is more of section numbers again and again. I thought law was bad enough when words such illegality, negliegent misrepresentation, duty of care, breach of contract etc. If u think that its alien enough, then how about ratio decidendi, deminimis rule, promissory esstoppel, stare decisis etc... And how about names of corporate cases such as Caparo, Donnaghue & Stevensons, Photo Production, Hedley & Heller, Hadley & Baxendale ( professional duty of care).. Alien! Alien! Alien! What?! Nonsense! Is! She! Talking! ABOUT?????!!!!
Then when its taxation, its always about tax computation for company or individual. But for individuals, there's resident of Singapore, Non- Resident, Non Ordinary Resident. There's the different tax rates that available for different people earning different amount thus being taxed at a different rate..
While doing the computation, there's terms like s10(1)(a)-(g), whereby we have to remember what each section means. And u know why I always say that I become ZOMBA after my tax classes, is because of
a) one min, the term is a term, the next, there's also an AKA in terms
of section numbers... Eg: Unilateral Tax credit Relief is aka s50A.
b) my lecturer who's without a doubt very experienced but its so tough for him to tell us the answer straight to the point. We have to probe, poke, become sherlock holmes, open evidence case, investigate etc.. Well, you get the picture...
c) And the last one is that he's the fella who's responsible for the corkyness, the zomba-ness and the nonsensical stuff that's coming out of me at the current moment. The other day, he was saying that he's stressed out because of us. And I told my friends, he doesn't know the kind of stress that HE'S giving us. My lecturer, he's cute and definately funny. Known for things such as 'that green thing', questions that's modified to the extent by which we can't solve or figure them out on our own. Like he's making us take another step ahead while doing it. Lashmi says that those questions are mutated while I call them MUTILATED. Apparently we're agreed that those words are STRONG enough for it...
Before anyone know, its coming the end of the year. You know why I am so aware of it? Cuz my exams are coming soon, meaning that the year is coming to an end. It feels like its just yesterday that I started school & taking my ACCA and now, I'm already taking the 2nd level most toughest paper, taxation...
Now I'm grooving cuz Nellie, Justin & Timbaland's Give it to me is blasting thru the radio... Gheezz, this song is totally booty-shaking!Alright, I think I'll stop yacking cuz I've gotta get back to work. My notes on relief from double taxation is staring at me.. Plus tmr I've gotta get up early. Going jalan raya with ma' crew. Taking LOADS of shots this time round. Starting it early and the expected duration for the whole thing is 12 hours, yes, we're gonna start at 11am and ending it at about 11pm. Eloo???!!! We all gotta work & go to sch the following day.. Which explains the msg on my msn.. Switching off, wef Mon..
Till I update the pix from tmr, CHAO!
Taxation is more of section numbers again and again. I thought law was bad enough when words such illegality, negliegent misrepresentation, duty of care, breach of contract etc. If u think that its alien enough, then how about ratio decidendi, deminimis rule, promissory esstoppel, stare decisis etc... And how about names of corporate cases such as Caparo, Donnaghue & Stevensons, Photo Production, Hedley & Heller, Hadley & Baxendale ( professional duty of care).. Alien! Alien! Alien! What?! Nonsense! Is! She! Talking! ABOUT?????!!!!
Then when its taxation, its always about tax computation for company or individual. But for individuals, there's resident of Singapore, Non- Resident, Non Ordinary Resident. There's the different tax rates that available for different people earning different amount thus being taxed at a different rate..
While doing the computation, there's terms like s10(1)(a)-(g), whereby we have to remember what each section means. And u know why I always say that I become ZOMBA after my tax classes, is because of
a) one min, the term is a term, the next, there's also an AKA in terms
of section numbers... Eg: Unilateral Tax credit Relief is aka s50A.
b) my lecturer who's without a doubt very experienced but its so tough for him to tell us the answer straight to the point. We have to probe, poke, become sherlock holmes, open evidence case, investigate etc.. Well, you get the picture...
c) And the last one is that he's the fella who's responsible for the corkyness, the zomba-ness and the nonsensical stuff that's coming out of me at the current moment. The other day, he was saying that he's stressed out because of us. And I told my friends, he doesn't know the kind of stress that HE'S giving us. My lecturer, he's cute and definately funny. Known for things such as 'that green thing', questions that's modified to the extent by which we can't solve or figure them out on our own. Like he's making us take another step ahead while doing it. Lashmi says that those questions are mutated while I call them MUTILATED. Apparently we're agreed that those words are STRONG enough for it...
Before anyone know, its coming the end of the year. You know why I am so aware of it? Cuz my exams are coming soon, meaning that the year is coming to an end. It feels like its just yesterday that I started school & taking my ACCA and now, I'm already taking the 2nd level most toughest paper, taxation...
Now I'm grooving cuz Nellie, Justin & Timbaland's Give it to me is blasting thru the radio... Gheezz, this song is totally booty-shaking!Alright, I think I'll stop yacking cuz I've gotta get back to work. My notes on relief from double taxation is staring at me.. Plus tmr I've gotta get up early. Going jalan raya with ma' crew. Taking LOADS of shots this time round. Starting it early and the expected duration for the whole thing is 12 hours, yes, we're gonna start at 11am and ending it at about 11pm. Eloo???!!! We all gotta work & go to sch the following day.. Which explains the msg on my msn.. Switching off, wef Mon..
Till I update the pix from tmr, CHAO!
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Better late then never
Salam aidilfitri penuh keiklasan
Dendam di hati disimpan jangan
Salah dan silap pohon dimaafkan
Moga silaturahim kekal berpanjangan
Dengan ingata tulus ikhlas
- mIsS_D -
My schedule is packed to the max with things... Exam's around the corner.. Suffering from terrible migraines. I appreciate your concern, you know who you are...
Can't talk much because the things that are on my mind..
1) Taxation notes that have yet to be completed, 4 more chapters to go.. ciayo!
2) Law test that is due this Friday, doing more reading abt corporate governance,
3) Sunday's Hari Raya Marathon... 3 cars going plus 3 or 4 bikes, something like that... wondering how it will turn out....
4) Wondering how I am going to survive for the revision that takes place during the weekends...
5) Someone owes me dinner but it keeps getting postphone due to busy schedule. Hhhhhmmmmm....
When the photo's out from my Raya collection, I'll pin it up here.. There's gotta be some really interesting pix here... Keep watching!
Dendam di hati disimpan jangan
Salah dan silap pohon dimaafkan
Moga silaturahim kekal berpanjangan
Dengan ingata tulus ikhlas
- mIsS_D -
My schedule is packed to the max with things... Exam's around the corner.. Suffering from terrible migraines. I appreciate your concern, you know who you are...
Can't talk much because the things that are on my mind..
1) Taxation notes that have yet to be completed, 4 more chapters to go.. ciayo!
2) Law test that is due this Friday, doing more reading abt corporate governance,
3) Sunday's Hari Raya Marathon... 3 cars going plus 3 or 4 bikes, something like that... wondering how it will turn out....
4) Wondering how I am going to survive for the revision that takes place during the weekends...
5) Someone owes me dinner but it keeps getting postphone due to busy schedule. Hhhhhmmmmm....
When the photo's out from my Raya collection, I'll pin it up here.. There's gotta be some really interesting pix here... Keep watching!
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Getting the FEEL.....
Apparently its only now that I can feel the RAYA mood setting in. Even though my house is in complete mess, I just seek refuge in my room and BAM! I totally feel it. What's left would be to iron my kebayas and it will be all set..
Thank goodness last Dec I painted my room. So, the mess in my room is still bearable & I just have to clear some things to make my room spick & span. And the colour is beige, my fav colour. Initially I wanted to paint it red or green, like bright tones but I changed my mind while picking the colours because I'm they type of person who would like calm & soothing things. And during the exam stress period, I badly need that calamity & soothingness...
This year, its going to be the 4th year in running that I will not be receiving a wonderful Hari Raya card. The one that's especially written to me, with lots of love & sincerity. Haiz! Those days of which people will decide on the same colour of baju kurungs together. Those were the days...
Suprisingly, till today, no one can really please me that well. I'm a tough girl alright. Yes I can play the same game if you play the same game but when its a serious one, please don't kid me...
A long time ago, I would definately want to settle down, have little 'devils' running around and be happy. Spend my mornings with him playing with my hair, or admiring me while I sleep. And how well he fits into your body, every curve & angle. Knowing how well your hands fits into his palm. And when you have your kids running around, never failing to make you laugh.. When you have found that special somone, it will all be perfect.
But when I look at it(marriage) again, I think I would be missing alot of things if I continue with that initial plan. RIght now, I find that I'm more afraid of settling down then ever. Why is that so? Because there's alot of RESPONSIBILITY that goes along with it. And all your obstacles that you would be facing when one enters into that stage of life. OMG! I am so unprepared. And I thought I was before.. Gheez. And lets not talk about childbirth YET..
Things that I want to achieve in life before I enter that other stage in life;
1) Continue with my education
2) Buy my MINI COOPER
3) Earn big bucks before I turn 35
4) Continue looking out for people who might interest me.
-> I have yet to meet someone who loves to travel, enjoys the outdoor (meaning trying out alot of incredible things that have the thrill factor), never fails to make me laugh, good chemistry (VERY IMPT) & loves me for what I am.
5) When I've finally earn all that I want, I'll settle down with the right guy (if I EVER meet him), stop working as an accountant & start with my own bridal business
Thank goodness last Dec I painted my room. So, the mess in my room is still bearable & I just have to clear some things to make my room spick & span. And the colour is beige, my fav colour. Initially I wanted to paint it red or green, like bright tones but I changed my mind while picking the colours because I'm they type of person who would like calm & soothing things. And during the exam stress period, I badly need that calamity & soothingness...
This year, its going to be the 4th year in running that I will not be receiving a wonderful Hari Raya card. The one that's especially written to me, with lots of love & sincerity. Haiz! Those days of which people will decide on the same colour of baju kurungs together. Those were the days...
Suprisingly, till today, no one can really please me that well. I'm a tough girl alright. Yes I can play the same game if you play the same game but when its a serious one, please don't kid me...
A long time ago, I would definately want to settle down, have little 'devils' running around and be happy. Spend my mornings with him playing with my hair, or admiring me while I sleep. And how well he fits into your body, every curve & angle. Knowing how well your hands fits into his palm. And when you have your kids running around, never failing to make you laugh.. When you have found that special somone, it will all be perfect.
But when I look at it(marriage) again, I think I would be missing alot of things if I continue with that initial plan. RIght now, I find that I'm more afraid of settling down then ever. Why is that so? Because there's alot of RESPONSIBILITY that goes along with it. And all your obstacles that you would be facing when one enters into that stage of life. OMG! I am so unprepared. And I thought I was before.. Gheez. And lets not talk about childbirth YET..
Things that I want to achieve in life before I enter that other stage in life;
1) Continue with my education
2) Buy my MINI COOPER
3) Earn big bucks before I turn 35
4) Continue looking out for people who might interest me.
-> I have yet to meet someone who loves to travel, enjoys the outdoor (meaning trying out alot of incredible things that have the thrill factor), never fails to make me laugh, good chemistry (VERY IMPT) & loves me for what I am.
5) When I've finally earn all that I want, I'll settle down with the right guy (if I EVER meet him), stop working as an accountant & start with my own bridal business
Friday, October 05, 2007
Its coming
A couple of things that I've gotta say...
1) I'm going out with the girls tonight. Yeah!
2) Jo, I miss u too. We ought to meet up soon before u head off to East Timor.
3) My one & only dearest Herbert, thanks ALOT for last night. You're the best!
Ok, that's the 3 most important things that I've gotta say.
Raya menjelang tapi I still don't have that festive mood setting in yet. Why is that so? I don't know. Maybe its because of all the things that's going on in my life right now. I've got no time to sit & enjoy the mood.
Hopefully the mood will set in soon. I pray hard that it will...
1) I'm going out with the girls tonight. Yeah!
2) Jo, I miss u too. We ought to meet up soon before u head off to East Timor.
3) My one & only dearest Herbert, thanks ALOT for last night. You're the best!
Ok, that's the 3 most important things that I've gotta say.
Raya menjelang tapi I still don't have that festive mood setting in yet. Why is that so? I don't know. Maybe its because of all the things that's going on in my life right now. I've got no time to sit & enjoy the mood.
Hopefully the mood will set in soon. I pray hard that it will...
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Stop being a prisoner in your own prison
There has been alot of things going thru my mind lately. But I'm blessed to know that things are going to be slightly different here. And I'm gonna be alright. No worries.
Went to buka with Ma' Crew yesterday at Es Teler Cineleisure. Had a blasted time being with them. As always. This time, instead of talking of old times & stuff, we were playing guessing games. The ones my cousins & I will play when we were travelling from LA to San Diego in the Amtrack train. The kind of games that you play when you either have to break the ice or just to pass time. Yup, those kind of games.
Anyway, speaking of talking about old times, we all were suprised with some news that we heard. But it is yet to be confirmed. And someone said that next time, for class gatherings, it would have to include children. The only thing my conscience was telling me was that we haven't ever passed the bring your boyfriend stage yet & now, we have to bring our kids. OMG!! Time passes by so fast. Some of our classmates are married with children..
Its amazing when you've got friends who care about you, lends you the helping hand and just be there for you whenever you need them. They love me, which explains the urgency to get hold of me immediately, whether it be thru a phone call, msn or even text msges. Ahh... The wonders of technology..
Those who have been there for me, thanks for being part the journey of my life.
Went to buka with Ma' Crew yesterday at Es Teler Cineleisure. Had a blasted time being with them. As always. This time, instead of talking of old times & stuff, we were playing guessing games. The ones my cousins & I will play when we were travelling from LA to San Diego in the Amtrack train. The kind of games that you play when you either have to break the ice or just to pass time. Yup, those kind of games.
Anyway, speaking of talking about old times, we all were suprised with some news that we heard. But it is yet to be confirmed. And someone said that next time, for class gatherings, it would have to include children. The only thing my conscience was telling me was that we haven't ever passed the bring your boyfriend stage yet & now, we have to bring our kids. OMG!! Time passes by so fast. Some of our classmates are married with children..
Its amazing when you've got friends who care about you, lends you the helping hand and just be there for you whenever you need them. They love me, which explains the urgency to get hold of me immediately, whether it be thru a phone call, msn or even text msges. Ahh... The wonders of technology..
Those who have been there for me, thanks for being part the journey of my life.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Beating the crap out of me
Went for buka with 3 other girls yesterday after class. It was alright. And there was a sharing session later on after dinner. Sha left early as she was going to visit her friend's dad who was hospitalised. When we heard the bad news, sebak bila nak buka..
I'm still buried somewhere underneath my schoolwork. I'm just waiting for someone to pull me out from it. I'm just there, working & working & working... Alot of things are on my mind and I don't know how to clear it all up.. And the more I continue burying myself with work, the more I feel that I'm running away clearing up my mind.
And yah, there's a high chance that I'm calling it off....
I'm still buried somewhere underneath my schoolwork. I'm just waiting for someone to pull me out from it. I'm just there, working & working & working... Alot of things are on my mind and I don't know how to clear it all up.. And the more I continue burying myself with work, the more I feel that I'm running away clearing up my mind.
And yah, there's a high chance that I'm calling it off....
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Back after ages
Hey there. I know that its been ages since i've updated this. Been busy doing alot of things lately. And there's actually LOADS of photographs to be uploaded but there something wrong with my photo transfer. Anyway, i'm still looking into rectifying that problem.
How's my life been lately if you're asking, well alot has been going on. My school work is burrying me to the maximus. And if i've class the whole day, i'll end up being a ZOMBIE by the time i get back too. And when i start doing my work, i'll forget my meals but I have Simon to constantly remind me to eat.
How is he if you're asking, well he's there, somewhere. Busy flying. But its kinda great that he's away cuz I can concentrate on my schoolwork. The last sweetest thing that he did was to give me tix to the fireworks display over at the pontoon. It was great... And the crowd that I had to go thru...
Other then that, life has been ok.. There's alot of blessing in disguise. :)
How's my life been lately if you're asking, well alot has been going on. My school work is burrying me to the maximus. And if i've class the whole day, i'll end up being a ZOMBIE by the time i get back too. And when i start doing my work, i'll forget my meals but I have Simon to constantly remind me to eat.
How is he if you're asking, well he's there, somewhere. Busy flying. But its kinda great that he's away cuz I can concentrate on my schoolwork. The last sweetest thing that he did was to give me tix to the fireworks display over at the pontoon. It was great... And the crowd that I had to go thru...
Other then that, life has been ok.. There's alot of blessing in disguise. :)
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